Miracles in the Midst of Trials

Life has a funny way of working out sometimes and as I sit and write tonight my mind is racing with thoughts. I have seen the move of God in mighty ways within the past couple of months. Bad things happen and we don’t know why. But one thing for sure is that God will always make something good out of every bad situation. It may not feel like it at that particular moment; but in the end we see what God can do. I say everyday now; “Father show me your glory”!

***Romans 8:28 (NLT) And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.

Many of you know that my precious momma was diagnosed with cancer last September. But what you don’t know is that her only living brother was diagnosed with cancer approximately one month after her surgery. By the time we found out about him; Momma and I had gone through many conversations about why she possibly had to go through this. I was constantly reminding her that God has her in the palm of His hand and that she is possibly going to have to help someone else who was going to have to go through cancer. Upon finding out about my Uncle Robert she told me “I now know why I am  having to go through all of this surgery and chemo…I have to help him”.

In the beginning, when she found out about her cancer; she wanted no part of surgery, chemo or nothing! It was one of the most difficult times we have had to experience as a family. Feeling absolutely helpless but yet wanting to help. The only thing I could do was pray with and for her and for our family. Many emotions came rushing in like a flood for all of us. And for me, I felt at times as if I was the pillar; the strong one to hold it all together in front of my momma but I fell completely apart on the way home every time. Many nights I laid in bed and cried out to God!  I knew that He had her and that there had to be a reason for everything that was happening; but for a few months it was hard to swallow.

As difficult as the journey has been both emotionally and physically for a while; I have realized that God is in control. And He took a bad situation and created good from it. My momma and I are now close again and we talk every day; sometimes twice a day. Our family has become closer and momma has found a new strength within herself. She is a true champion and warrior and I admire her strength and courage. But this story doesn’t end with this.

As momma’s chemo started back in December; I learned that a dear brother at church had cancer. Then my pastors son, then a church sisters mom, etc… the list kept growing. I had been going to intercessory prayer because I know the importance of praying and interceding for others. Lives and situations can change with just one prayer but every week we added to our list. God is faithful and He hears and answers our prayers!

You see in praying for others; I asked God to use me. I said “send me I will go” well in doing so one Sunday morning God told me to go pray for my brother who had cancer. Pastor Joyce was praying with him and God told me to go pray too. I didn’t want to go up because I hate being seen and I knew too that the service was Facebook Live. Being hesitant, God reminded me of what I had told him. So I went and prayed and another brother came up behind me and the three of us prayed for our brother. Something happened that morning at the alter. There was a peace that fell and all four of us felt it! Our Brother received his healing at that alter that morning! When he went in for surgery; the mass was gone. Praise God! He was healed!!

Fast forward a sister in the church was healed from thyroid cancer and her 5 year old daughter healed from five auto immune diseases. Pastors son healed from cancer. Someone very special to me was given a bad report of cancerous cells but she came to church and we had a healing evangelist pray with her and he told her not to worry; she would get a good report. Praise God, she did! The biopsy showed no sign of cancer, they said it wasn’t like what the previous test had shown. Then a brother at church was told by his sister one weekend that she had cancer and was given nine months to live. The next Wednesday night he shared with the church what he had been told and he stood in for his sister as the elders prayed for her. That Friday he received a telephone call from his sister and the final report from the test showed no signs of cancer! Healed in Jesus Name!

God is no respecter of persons as two of the healed had not been attending church. He loves us all and He uses these miracles to show himself real to unbelievers to allow them to believe. I have read several Facebook post about several other healings from cancer within the family of friends. He is just a way maker!!!

I know we all ask, why do bad things have to happen! And I have heard many say why does God do this to us but what I will tell you is God doesn’t cause these things to happen. But just as Job in the Bible went through so much trial… satan put it on him and yes God allowed it with conditions. Remember satan only wants to kill, steal and destroy us. He wants us to give up and die. However warriors don’t quit!

The testing of faith refines us, proves to satan and to the world who we are, to bless us, and to help us grow.  Just within the past few days, God has given me revelation on the fact that we must have storms in our life to help us grow. In growing we learn to persevere and are able to help others who are going through.

***1 Peter 4:12-13(NIV) Dear friends do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal that has come on you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice inasmuch as you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.

***Isaiah 41:10 –So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

***Philippians 4:19(NIV) And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.

Just remember when the storms come don’t panic, seek the Lord for guidance in prayer and in His Word, keep praising and worshipping, be around prayer warriors, keep an attitude of gratitude, encourage yourself, don’t give up on life, take care of yourself, and trust God, no matter what!.  The storms come to bring the rain so that we may grow! It’s how we decide to handle the storm that determines the harvest!

God is still in the miracle making business. Bad things may happen but He is always with us and something good will come from it. In the movie “I Can Only Imagine” Bart found his calling from much pain and suffering. Will you dare to trust Him? Our choices determine our outcome! Keep praying and Trusting!

***Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV) For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

To God Be All the Glory, Honor & Praise!

Much Love To You All,



On the Outside Looking In

The world is made up of many souls and each one is precious and loved by our Father. If only we showed that same love towards one another. Our place of worship is a hospital for the broken; not a social club for the saints. I say this because I very well know that we have a tendency to gravitate towards those that we know in our little clicks. And this very thing was recently brought to my attention.

No church is perfect; everyone is at different levels and stages of their walk with Christ. It takes all of us working together to help one another in our walk. Everyone is gifted with certain talents to contribute. Just like our physical bodies it takes many members to make a whole body and each member plays an important role. But sometimes we tend to stay in our safe place with those who are more like us. However, God desires us to step out of our comfort zones and be extraordinary while reaching the lost, the broken and bruised.

I recently had to ask for forgiveness and repent for I would never intentionally do any wrong to anyone.  But this got me to thinking very deeply and praying that we; including myself, must make a conscious effort to be more observant of others. Visitors must feel welcome when they enter our church (place of worship) or they will not desire to return. We as Christians are to display the love of Christ to everyone regardless of age, sex, race, looks, etc.; not just a select few. God doesn’t just love a select few and Jesus died for everyone!

 In a post on Facebook last week I was reminded that we have failed. I know as Christians we aren’t perfect; however we must be more conscious of the precious souls that enter our sanctuary, our work place, our home, etc. People are watching to see the real deal. If a visitor comes to our place of worship regardless of where we attend and they aren’t even acknowledged or greeted by anyone, then why would they desire to come back?

The broken are looking for hope and to see if there is even the slightest possibility of something different than what they are living. And some are just needing something and not quite sure what it may be. But coming into Gods presence is an awesome start to finding their way. I know that having a personal relationship with God is all we need. But if what our visitors see inside the church is the same as in the world; then they may feel hopeless.

We as Christians (Disciples of Christ) are to display the light of God everywhere we are, inside and outside of the place of worship for we are the church. Church is not confined inside the walls of a building. Are we being welcoming and loving? Is Gods light shining? Are we being true examples of Christ to win souls for His kingdom?

I have been that person who felt unwelcome, unacknowledged or overly acknowledged by stares due to perhaps the way I was dressed or because I was new. Walking into a church where you don’t know anyone is scary. And when you walk in with jeans, raggedy or even revealing clothing and everyone else dressed in Sunday best makes you feel a little uncomfortable and just plain out of place. If just one person will genuinely say “I am so glad you joined us today, please come back again” it could make such a huge difference. For some souls it could be the first time they have ever stepped foot inside of a church or place of worship. Don’t we want them to come back? We are to win souls for Gods kingdom and if we don’t make them feel welcome, we inadvertently may cause them to not return and will be held accountable.

When a person enters our sanctuary and is willing to listen to the Word of God; as they take it in; it is food for the soul. His manifest presence comes when we come together corporately to praise and worship. This creates an atmosphere where God can move and anything is possible and the lost can be saved, healing takes place, and the prodigals come home. “Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the word of God.”  (Romans 10:17 NIV) Opportunity for change in lives begins when we hear Gods Word. We want everyone in the presence of our Father. 

****Deutoronmy 31:12-13 (NIV) “Assemble the people men, women and children, and the foreigners residing in your towns—so they can listen and learn to fear the Lord your God and follow carefully all the words of this law. Their children, who do not know this law, must hear it and learn to fear the Lord your God as long as you live in the land you are crossing the Jordan to possess.”

I know not everyone is the same and there are true Disciples of Christ that love people right where they are. And although we may not all have it all together; there is genuine love within my church (place of worship) and in others too. I have learned from my Dad in the faith that it doesn’t matter what a person wears to church just as long as they will walk through the doors; that gives God the opportunity to knock on their heart. If they will answer then God can give them life and life more abundantly. 

We must welcome with open arms everyone just as God always welcomes us and without judgement. Love people where they are, not for whom we want them to be; but love them too much to leave them there!

On the outside looking in, what do you see? Are you loving strangers? Are you welcoming visitors? If a homeless person came in and sat beside you wearing raggedy and dirty clothes and they were smelly what would you do? It’s a heart condition! Remember Jesus died for everyone! How does the outside see you?

To God be all the glory, honor and praise!

Much Love to You All,





Relentless Love

This was written on Sunday, February 4th as God has impressed upon my heart. It’s amazing how He speaks to us; if we will only take the time to listen. He is definitely a life changer and I owe my entire being to Him!

It’s an incredible feeling of hope that overwhelms me when I think of God’s love for me! As I stand at the alter during praise and worship this morning my  hands are lifted to Heaven and my voice singing to God, while tears stream down my face; I remember what He has done for me. The words of the song were “You deserve it, My Halleluiah belongs to you, You Deserve It”! Once a cold and bitter woman; Gods love took a cold stony heart and changed it into one of deep love. God’s grace, love and mercy for me is relentless as is mine for Him as I pursue Him more than anything or anyone. I pray that His will be done in every area of my life!

***Ezekiel 36:26 (NLT) Moreover, I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you, and I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.

My birthday was yesterday and when I looked on Facebook there was an overwhelming amount of likes, loves, happy birthdays and other comments showing their love to me. I was in tears last night just thinking about the outpouring of love shown to me. I have never had this many happy birthday wishes in my life. There are so many that I haven’t had the opportunity to thank each precious friend!

 I made a post on Facebook about feeling so much love with so many responding on my page for my birthday. And one of my friends stated that it is so easy to love someone who is so loving. Her kind words really made me think because I know how I use to be. But praise God for He has changed me and given me the heart that I now possess. One of tenderness, love, mercy and no longer selfish but caring of others and lifting them up. I am still human; not perfect and my heart breaks at times; however the deep down love I have for others now is totally opposite of where I once was.

I am so thankful for Gods work within me .Pastor Jim stated in service today that Jesus became poor so I can be enriched by the Rhema Word of God. And you can’t be enriched if you give up!

***2 Corinthians 8:9 (AMP) For you are recognizing (more clearly) the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ (His astonishing kindness, His generosity, His gracious favor), that through He was rich, yet for your sake He became poor, so that by His poverty you might become rich (abundantly blessed).

So in closing, I encourage you to keep on seeking God; seek Him first and everything else will be added to you.  If you need peace, joy and a change in life…I know the way maker. Fall to your knees, look up to Heaven and talk to the Father today! He changed my heart and life and will do the same for you; we just need to be submissive as he molds, shapes and prunes us!

***Matthew 6:33 (NLT) Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.

To God Be All the Glory, Honor & Praise!

Remember, God Loves You & So Do I



Encircled In His Love

God lets us know in the most unique ways that He is all around us and has us wrapped in His arms. We only need to slow down to see it. Just recently on the Martin Luther King holiday; Samantha and I spent the day with my precious mother. Since mama was to have chemo two days later; we decided to go out to eat lunch at the Pizza Village. I knew that mama would eat good. And I wanted her to do so before her next chemo because she doesn’t eat well for about a week after her treatments.

That weekend at her request; I had made her some peanut butter balls; however in the rush to get out the door that morning I left them home. Knowing that I had to run to Richlands to get them we decided we were going to take her coins that she had been collecting for a number of years to the local Food Lion to cash it in at the coin counting machine. So after a wonderful and fun lunch we headed to Richlands.

We reached the Food Lion and walked over to the coin machine. We had 3 containers of coins and the coin money was kind of nasty. Samantha started the counting process but when it got to the last container she stepped away for a few minutes. So I started pouring the change from the last container into the tray. However, when I was about half way of that container I noticed something extremely shiny in the tray that wasn’t a coin. When I reached down to pick it up it was a ring. This ring was exceptionally clean and shiny. It looked like a million tiny sparkly diamonds all around the band. I just handed it to mama and asked her why was her ring in the coin can. She didn’t know how it got there and said she don’t remember ever seeing it before. But something caught her eye and she asked me what was on the ring. So I took it back from her and was amazed at how clean it was to be in the middle of all the crud that was on that old money. But when I looked ever so closely I saw on the band the word “JESUS” not  just once, but 3 times it was on it. And another thing about the ring was it had a band around the band that encircled the ring and it twisted around. Immediately God spoke to my spirit. I told Mama that God is telling her to fear not; He has her wrapped in His arms and that everything is going to be ok. I knew right then that God placed that ring there for her to assure her she was going to come out victorious through this battle.

I felt tears in my eyes and relief in my heart at the thought that came to me. God was saying it was not only for her but as a reminder for me too. And that every concern that weighed heavily on my heart was taken care of by Jesus when He died on that old rugged cross. The circling of the band with Jesus on it represents the Holy Spirit that is with us every moment.  And the shiniest of that silver ring in the center of all that filthy money; represents how God can take us in the middle of all our dirty filthy mess and clean us up. He has everything that we need and is ever present with us; we only need to slow down, fear not, trust in Him and let Him work on us as we draw closer to Him. It doesn’t matter how filthy of a mess we are in, He can and will clean us up so that we come out sparking just as that ring. But we have to invite Him into our lives.

I encourage you today, slow down and just look at the beauty that God has blessed us with of live, family, love, nature, etc. He is always showing He is around, we need  only to recognize it. We seem to take things for granted way too much. Let go of anger and unforgiveness and just love people. He can make our crooked paths straight and take bad and create good from it. Tomorrow isn’t promised but God does promise to be with us in our every tomorrows.

If you don’t know Jesus as your personal Lord and Savior take the time right now repent of your sins and ask Him into your life. If you would like to contact me for me to pray with you; please write me below and I will contact you.

 My heart is for every person to know God and to know that if their life is in turmoil there is hope, joy, peace and rest in the arms of our Savior! God heals broken hearts, mends relationships, and heals physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. Change is possible for He has changed me and my life! He is all I need!

***Romans 8:28 (MEV) We know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.

***Isaiah 45:7(MEV) I form the light and create darkness; I make peace and create calamity; I, the Lord, do all these things.

To God be all the glory, honor and praise!

Much Love to you Everyone!


PS: God has impressed upon my heart to have a monthly gathering in my home for Single Sisters (unmarried, divorced and separated women).We fellowship, have food, watch a movie, discuss things of concern, pray together, etc…If you are interested or know someone who just needs friends please contact me below. 

The Storms Coming

I pray that you all realize how difficult it is to be real with you and tell you about my ugliness. But God has let me know that through it all; many lives will be changed and that is why He asked me to start writing in the beginning. It is all for His Glory; it is nothing that I have done for I am so unworthy, but He loves me! 

It is simply amazing how God tries to get our attention and tell us to prepare for storms; whether they are physical or spiritual. But unfortunately, in our busyness we fail to take even 10% each day and devote to God. There is fullness of joy and calmness in the presence of the Lord. But in order to experience this and to finish strong we have to start with a strong foundation. And to have this we must be grounded in the Word. The enemy is out to kill, steal and destroy and will do anything to knock us off our foundation; especially when he knows that God has a huge plan to use us for His kingdom.

Driving to work last Tuesday I was praying and asking God to please watch over us as the forecast was for ice and snow to hit our area on Wednesday. I was worried about my heater going out in my home because it had a hard time with the temps being so low the night before. The temperature was dropping as my unit ran; it was just simply too cold. I have gas logs but I was wondering how long my 100 lbs. LP bottle would last if the power were to go out. Millions of thoughts were invading my mind, but when I arrived at school it was cloudy and very cold. It was a bone chilling 15 degrees and it felt like 7 degrees. But as I walked up the breezeway, after praying at the flag pole; I heard a bird. It appeared to be extremely happy as it was singing. I thought wow, if that little bird can be this happy with it being this cold outside then we too should be happy through all of our trials.

God provides for the birds regardless of the weather and He will always provide for us. All of our needs will be met! But we become fleshly and fail to remember this, like I did. God was letting me know that He had this and that I had no need to worry. My heater had an extremely hard time keeping up but thanks to God and a small electric heater along with the unit; and using my gas logs part of the time, we have made it through. He kept our electricity on!  Praise Him forever more!

Being so focused on the physical storm I was blind sided of the spiritual storm that was headed my way. And it’s the small foxes that spoil the vines! What I should have taken as a wonderful opportunity to dig deeper into Gods Word, in prayer, to write or even just have fun with my daughter turned into cabin fever and everything getting on my nerves. I was off of my daily routine of praying first, then getting into the Word, etc.. Not spending that time with God first thing in the morning was a devastating choice.

God tells us to be angry but sin not! (Ephesians 4:26 – 32) In my transparency I have to admit I lost my cool!  I know you are thinking but she says she’s a Christian and she lost her cool? But Christians are suppose to be perfect!  Well I am here to tell you, we aren’t! Just because we are saved doesn’t mean we do not sin! There was only one perfect one and He died on the cross for you and me and His name is Jesus!

I lost my cool because I let my guard down and wasn’t in prayer or in the Word as I needed to be. Pastor Jim constantly tells us how vital it is to stay in the Word and in prayer, this is our lifeline. See God uses the Word and the preacher to tell us to get prepared for the storms in life, for they will come. We are to not only be hearers of the Word, but we are to be doers of it! However, within our fleshly self; we stay so occupied with the things of the world that we put God on a back burner. In my last post I stated that my flame for God had become low because I had not been spending time with God as I should. Being preoccupied by sickness in the family, work, etc..Well that slow fade will put you in a place where it’s hard to climb back up. And believe me trials will come whether it be a test to determine where we are in our walk or an attack from satan. Either way if you are not on your game, your feet will get knocked out from under you.

We like things neat and orderly in our home, but last week I had a hard time dealing with things being moved from where I put them or at least where I thought I had. I lost my cool with my kid thus blaming her for things she didn’t do but I thought she had. And after I did I was so angry with myself for doing so. Thoughts came rushing through that I can’t live this way being ill with her and angry. I have to be totally honest, thoughts came that she would be better off without me and I told her so. However, she wrapped her arms around me as I cried and she prayed over me. I once again, asked for forgiveness from her and God. I couldn’t believe that this had once again returned; but as I calmed down and thought about things, not spending quality time with God means I can’t become like Him. Living as the world lives; then I become as the world and give satan a foothold.

At 3:00 a.m., God woke me and I reached over for my phone to see the time. However, I looked into Facebook for a minute and what I saw was one of my boys threatening suicide. I knew right then that God woke me to reach out to him. I have since realized that the enemy was invading my thoughts earlier that day because he doesn’t want me to help others who are going through what I have overcome! I just have to keep satan under my feet and remind him that I have overcome the desire to take my life! We overcome by the Blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony!

In a church service on July 10, 2016 Kelly stated that there is a purpose for what we go through and that we shall come out better on the other side. Our perspective will be our prison or our passport! He said the devil doesn’t’ attack apathetic people; meaning those who are not doing anything to get close to God. My desire is to be close to God but I lost track of my way when I put the things of the world first. I have to remember who I am and to whom I belong. God asked me to start writing this blog for Him as a ministry to help others. Satan has tried everything possible to stop me from writing; even to the point of getting me side-tracked with many things when worry fell onto me about writing elsewhere. Pastor Jim stated in his message yesterday that if it is of God, then there is no pressure but if it seems overbearing; then we are not letting God do it. Mr. Joey said once that we can have good ideas; just the wrong timing. And believe me; I know this all too well as my thinking gets me into a lot of trouble! But God !!

This physical ice and snow storm that we have had is extremely cold; but I tell you our walk with God can become colder when we sin and do not deal with it, neglecting the Holy Spirit and the things of God such as prayer, the Word, church, etc.. One good thing about all of this is that you can’t grow too cold unless you tell God you are not returning! He is constantly and gently calling us to return home, trying to reach us before the storms of life consume us. Not once last Tuesday did I think about God trying to warn me of the spiritual storm that I was going to face because I was so focused on the natural. But it is in the supernatural realm that we must stand and be ready for battle, for satan is forevermore lurking around trying to throw us out of the game. 1 Peter 5:8 (MSG) says: “Keep a cool head. Stay alert, the devil is poised to pounce, and would like nothing better than to catch you napping. Keep your guard up. You’re not the only ones plunged into these hard times. It’s the same with Christians all over the world. So keep a firm grip on the faith. The suffering won’t last forever. It won’t be long before this generous God who has great plans for us in Christ –eternal and glorious plans they are!—will have you put together and on your feet for good. He gets the last word; yes, He does.”

Learning is a process and building a strong foundation in Christ will be time consuming and yes, we have to be different as God has called us to be so (Romans 12:2)   I don’t know about you but I want to be completely obedient to Our Father regardless the cost because I want to see lives changed, addictions broken off, families and marriages restored and the prodigals to come home.  Even if it means giving up my desires and dreams to do the work of my Father; then so be it for He knows better than I!

 My prayer is that many of you will see you are not alone. I have heard so many say they don’t want to step foot into a church because the Christians of the church are living their life the same as the world. They see no difference in the churched and the unchurched! And this should not be so! Regardless of what you see; seek a relationship with God. For we work out our own salvation, we aren’t to follow another person but to follow God! The walk with God is not an easy road; but so well worth it….eternity is an extremely long time! We can have peace, joy and love like we have never experienced; but there is a price to pay. Remember satan is only attacking because we are valuable to God. Thieves don’t break into empty houses!

Although I have had many trials in my life; I brought most of it on myself with my decisions that I made without asking God first. I can’t stress the importance of a personal relationship with the Trinity (God the Father, the Son & the Holy Spirit). When I ran from God; my life became more devastating to a point that I no longer wanted to live. Satan would love nothing more than to put me there again; but God has another plan for my life!

***Isaiah 59:19

***Luke 6:46

So in closing, God wants us to remember just as the birds sing during those cold dark times; that is how we too get through the dark frigid storms in the supernatural realm. Use what is loose to shake off the shackles of what is bound. Our praise will break our chains, just like Paul and Silas; praying and singing hymns to God will shake the foundations of the prison that overtakes us and our chains will be broken! (Acts 16:16-40) He is so worthy to be praised.

If you are looking for a miracle; look in the mirror! You were created for greatness; never settle for less than Gods best! Praise your way through the storms and never compare yourself to another, as each persons walk is just that..their own. Keep digging into the fullness of God and all that He has for you. Don’t get side-tracked by the things of this world for they are temporary! Remember you are so loved!

To God Be All the Glory, Honor & Praise!

I love you, believe in you and call you blessed in Jesus Name!

Much Love to You,


Salt & Light in a World of Desire

Lately I have been thinking about life and how it seems the world accepts ungodly behavior and passes it off as godly. And we are teaching all of this to our children! I too was so guilty of this in my past. But praise God I am not who I use to be and we overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony. I have committed my share of sins and I am not perfect by no means; but as I grow in my walk with God I am learning every day. My desire is to please God with all that I am and not this world or anyone in it. As I write this post; please know that I am not passing judgment; however God commands me to share His Word and I will be obedient.

Last week a friend of mine asked me a question and at that time I had forgotten about a word from God that was given to me in September 2016. My friend said in a text “You want a man, can’t find one, asked God, He told you to calm down and wait. Stop trying to do it on your own. Am I right?” My response was “Actually I am not looking, but I have asked God and I know when the time is right then he will find me. The word given to me on September 9, 2016 was:”I have your mate, stop looking. He will appear out of nowhere and you will know without a shadow of a doubt he’s the one. He will treat you like the princess you are. And you will have to pinch yourself to see if it’s real because he will treat you so well”. So I have to change my response to my friend and say, yes, God has told me to stop. For as we see when I go searching; I end up with a mess!

Man was formed from dirt (Genesis 2:7) but God took time to design woman and with a purpose (Genesis 2:22). We ladies were created to be a helper to man. In Genesis 2:18 it states, The Lord God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone; I will make a helper suitable for him.” Eve was formed to complete Adam and she was made uniquely suited to his needs.  Woman was made from the man, for the man, and given as Gods gift to man.  (Corinthians 11:8-9) Ladies, we were formed uniquely for the man that God has chosen; thus being submissive unto him and our second purpose is to be a mother (Genesis 1:28). Proverbs 31 describes the perfect woman. Although these are not our only jobs as women; but being a wife and mother are our primary purposes for being created.

Ladies, it is biblical that the man finds us; we aren’t suppose to be out searching and chasing after a man. Proverbs 18:22 states, “He who finds a wife finds a good thing, and obtains favor from the Lord. Right here we cheat our husband out of a blessing if we go finding him or perhaps we find the wrong one! Look at it this way; if you are his rib don’t you think he can find you!?? See this is something that I have had to learn myself, because I never understood the biblical principles behind a marriage until after three divorces and writing this blog for God. As Christians we are commissioned by God to be the salt and light in this earth. Salt represents a life living through God’s Wisdom vs. living in the world and salt is vital and valuable (Matthew 5:13-14) because with the lack of salt we loose life. God looks at our lives not our lip service and we are to live by faith, not by sight. We are to be a clean vessel (2 Timothy 2:14-25) and although in this world; we are to not be of it. So ladies, stop looking for a man and allow God to move in your life. And remember we are teaching the younger girls by the way we live our life and everything that we do.

***Hebrews 11:1-6

When we become so occupied trying to find a man; we loose the connection of the most precious man ever, our Heavenly Father! And whatever or whomever we put before God; He will take it. I know that even after I accepted Christ as my Savior in January 2008 I still had a lot to learn. With my marriage being on the rocks and my life falling apart, I left in November 2010 to live where I am now. I had hoped that things would eventually work out; but they never did. And just before I got my divorce; a friend of mine set me up with a man. I know now that it was wrong for in Gods eyes for I was still married. Needless to say, I fell into sexual sin and had put him before God and the relationship didn’t last. However, during this time of dating him I did get my divorce and then I was searching for something that no person could give me. Pastor Jim always tells us that hope in people will always disappoint us because people will let us down, but God never will. Sin is anything that we put above God. We search for someone or something to fill voids but only our Heavenly Father can do that.

Ladies, just like most earthly Fathers delight in giving to his children, our Heavenly Father delights in giving us the things we desire – but not all of them (Psalm 37:4-5). God desires to give us what is best for us. There are times when we desire something that we think is good for us; but God sees it would ultimately not be. He knows who and what we need and he knows who or what would be a hindrance. So when we pray for something we want; let us remember that some of the things we desire may not be good for us; we will have to wait. Let us not be in such a rush for what we want that we mess up the work of God. We must be patient. Everything is in Gods timing; not ours. It’s when we take things into our own hands and put God on the back burner that things will go array. God wants the best for us, his children. So remember we curse ourselves if we don’t obey God and honor Him first. And if God is truly first in our life; everything will fall into place. He watches over us and keeps us from harm (Psalm 121:7-8) and as we honor Him first, He honors us with provision and protection.

With three divorces; the devil has tried to tell me that I will never marry again. But I know that to not be true for God has shown me several times in different ways and I have seen my husband and myself standing before the church getting married. Also, on September 18, 2016 it came to me “When you do first things first and be obedient; I will send your husband.” (Matthew 6:33 {NIV} But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.) I will occupy the very place the devil is trying to keep me out of by being obedient, speaking Gods Word and keeping my faith!

***Hebrews 10:35-38

Keep the faith, trust God and if you haven’t accepted Christ as your Savior ask Him today to be the Lord of you life. Repent of your sins and receive eternal life. Trust me; this is one relationship you don’t want to miss out on! And if you have accepted Christ my dear single ladies; keep Him first in your life. I promise  you will not regret it! God will send your Boaz and he will see you working in His field.

To God Be All the Glory, Honor & Praise!



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Taken from Erin Davis’ blog post “Why Were Women Created Anyway?” Used with permission from www.LiesYoungWomenBelieve

Rekindling the Fire

I pray that as I write and being totally transparent that the Holy Spirit moves mightily in your life. Just know that regardless of how those around you appear to have all it all together; many of us just hide the chaos. We each have our own battles or demons to fight; however different they may be; you my friend are not alone.  

I am a note taker in church and as I sit today and read over some notes, I realize that my flame has become low. Since August when school started back; in one way or another I have been so busy that writing and studying became an if I find time kinda thing even after getting up early every morning to read. August and September are always extremely busy at school but normally things mellow out after our fall festival. However this year has been totally different.

In the beginning of October we discovered that my precious Mother had breast cancer. With surgery and chemotherapy entering our lives; it’s been a little busy for me working, taking care of my home and daughter, trying to help take care of my parents and taking care of my own health issues. My plate is definitely full! As you can see I am human, I am not perfect. And although I love God with everything I have within me; I fail Him daily. As I sat and read over my notes this morning, God gave me the thought “Rekindling the Fire”. I have been praying to be able to write and to know what He wanted me to share. Today I got the answer. And the story goes like this……

I love bonfires on a chilly night; roasting marshmallows and being warmed by the fire. But in order to keep warm, you must continue putting wood on the fire. Without more wood or logs added the fire dims thus eventually leaving only a smoky memory until it’s completely out. The same goes for our walk with God. To stay hot for God we must spend intimate time with Him by studying his word and being constant in prayer. This in turn is like the bonfire; as we study we are adding a log to the fire. If we fail to spend time with God our fire grows dim and our lives become smoky (cloudy, foggy). Get the picture?

Human nature (our fleshly side) we sometimes get so busy and preoccupied with things of the world that if we aren’t careful we fail to spend our much needed time with God. Just going to church doesn’t cut it, we must engage in the relationship! The only way to know someone is by spending time with them and learning everything we possibly can about them. When school started back I was extremely busy; but what I failed to remember is that without God I wouldn’t have a job. He placed me there and in order for me to do what He has called me to do; I must stay connected to the vine. I can’t produce Godly fruit if the vine dies! Satan uses anything to keep us preoccupied so that we can’t add another log to the fire; he wants our fire for God to go out completely!

When we allow things of the world to become our main focus; then we ever so gently are pulling away from our relationship with God. Our flesh is weak; therefore, it’s a daily battle of the spirits within us and we must choose. The song “Slow Fade” by Casting Crowns came to mind while writing this today. The song states that people never crumble in a day, it’s a slow fade…thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid, when you give yourself away. This is what happens when we choose to not pray, to not read and study the Word. When we continue to put it off until tonight because we are tired or have something else we want to do then it turns into tomorrow, and so forth. It’s such a slow fade, a trick of  satan to get us distracted from doing the very thing that will sustain us in life in order for us to accomplish all that God created us to do!

***Romans 12:11-13 -not lagging in diligence, fervent in spirit, serving the Lord, rejoicing in hope, patient in tribulation, continuing steadfastly in prayer, distributing to the needs of the saints, given to hospitality.

I was busy but I should never be too busy for God! I did read and I prayed but not to the extent that I had the past year when I was writing this blog weekly and the blog for Emerge Ministries. I have learned that without engaging myself in my relationship with God; then I most definitely am not in a good place. Just today, I realized that the pain in my body, sleepless nights, one battle after another and the anger that I expressed today are the result of my own slow fade as this has happened over a period of time; not overnight. God will never leave us; however we are so guilty of leaving Him! The only way to stop satan from killing, stealing and destroying is to fight him on our knees and with Gods Word!

If you aren’t where you need to be in your relationship with our Father or if you have experienced a slow fade by the choices you have made, I urge you to first repent. Then ask Him to rekindle that fire that once ever so burned brightly. No one is perfect; we all mess up but just because we miss the mark doesn’t mean we have to stay there. Throw those logs on the fire and be blazing for God for we have much work to do!

***1 Thessalonians 5:16- 22 –Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. Do not quench the Spirit. Do not despise prophecies. Test all things; hold fast what is good. Abstain from every form of evil.

***Matthew 19:16-22

In closing, I want to share this info I found online at: DMCA,2017 ViralBeliever, 9 Blazing Hot Methods To Remain on Fire For God, (Author: Duke Taber).. https://www.viralbeliever.com/bible-studies/9-methods-on-fire-for-god/

  1. Feed the flames with the Word of God
  2. Stoke the furnace with prayer
  3. Worship the Lord with extravagance
  4. Allow the Holy Spirit to move
  5. Do a spring cleaning of your heart
  6. Bring your flame closer to other flames
  7. Start making your fire useful
  8. Find a personal firebrand
  9. Spread the flame

As we enter into 2018, my prayer for you is that you become everything that God created you to be. May your fire for God burn brighter than ever before, may doors be opened, may doors be closed, may opportunity chase you down, may divine favor, wisdom and knowledge grace you, and may you be made healthy and whole, may all your needs be met, and may you be able to meet the needs of others out of the abundance that God graces you with. In Jesus Name I ask, Amen!

To God be all the glory, honor & praise!

Remember God Loves You & So Do I!

Much Love Always,



Christmas is approaching and I am thinking about the birth of Jesus. But as I think about his birth, his life, his death and his resurrection, figuratively speaking he went through a form of metamorphosis. And as Christians living for our Father in Heaven; we too must go through a complete transformation like the metamorphosis of a butterfly. One definition of metamorphosis is a change of the form or nature of a thing or person into a completely different one, by natural or supernatural means. Jesus was born of a virgin and died a painful death on the cross because he loved us. He arose on the third day and then we received our comforter the Holy Spirit who lives and dwells within us, the children of God.

Christmas gifts this year I have been making baskets with lights. But I’ve been putting butterflies in the baskets. Butterflies are such a beautiful creation with such a sweet free spirit. And to me they represent the deep change that a person goes through after one has surrendered to God. This relationship with our Father should be such a transformation that it’s like the metamorphosis of a butterfly. Deep and intimate; our change is from the inside out. It’s not simply doing good or improving our behavior but a genuine transformation as we take Christ in as our spiritual food and drink.   

***2 Corinthians 5:17 -Therefore if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!

When I Google the word butterfly; I found that butterflies are a deep and powerful representation of life. Many cultures associate the butterfly with our souls. The Christian religion sees the butterfly as a symbol of Resurrection. Around the world people view the butterfly as representing endurance, change, hope and life. In my research I discovered that in the original Greek language of the New Testament, the word used for transformation is metamorphosis.

***2 Corinthians 3:18 –But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as by the Spirit of the Lord.

***Romans 12:2 – And do not be fashioned according to this age, but be transformed by the renewing of the mind that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and well pleasing and perfect.

Gods beautiful butterflies go through 4 stages in their life. From an egg that is laid on a leaf to hatching into a caterpillar. In the caterpillar stage it eats the leaf from which it was hatched and continues feeding on the host plant for growth. Once the caterpillar is fully grown it then attaches itself to a safe place so it can begin the pupa stage (chrysalis or cocoon). It’s at this point that metamorphosis takes place changing the caterpillar into an adult butterfly. Once it emerges from the pupa stage it has four colorful wings and six legs but the wings are soft and crumpled. It is here that the butterfly pumps blood into its wings allowing them to dry and harden so it can fly.

Our Christian walk is much like the life cycle of these beautiful creatures. We too must go through stages in our growth with God. Our first stage after we accept Christ as our Lord and Savior we are fragile needing protection and nourishment for growth. The second stage like the caterpillar we hatch out but we are slowly moving and always eating. It is here that we get rid of old habits, friends, etc. that hinder our growth. The third stage is when God fills us with his love, grace, comfort and strength as we shed our old ways. It’s here that we need to be ready to hear what God has for us and prepare to do his work. The fourth stage is when we must realize our true potential and capabilities and know who we are in Christ and walk in the calling He has on our life. As God guides us we must be always feeding on His word and sharing the gospel with everyone!

As we go about this Christmas reflecting on the life of Jesus; let’s reflect on our on life. Have we truly experienced metamorphosis in our life or are we still in waiting to be hatched or perhaps hiding in the cocoon!? God is a gentleman and will never force himself on us. However, we determine our own growth. What are we waiting for? Let’s mature and fly!

Accepting Christ as your Savior and having that intimate relationship with Him is life changing. Just a life changing as the butterfly life…. From an ugly caterpillar to a beautiful soaring butterfly!

To God Be the Glory, Honor and Praise!

Merry Christmas!!

Love You Everyone,


God Makes Good Out Of The Bad

Satan’s objective is to steal, kill and destroy. Gods Word brings life to our weary souls but in order for it to do so we must engage. Sitting idly by waiting and watching does no good. Life gets busy and things happen but if we want change, we must step out in faith with the full armor of God and fight the enemy. Spiritual warfare is real and it’s happening but if we just sit; we are going to die!

***John 10:10            ***Proverbs 3:1-35 

***Proverbs 4:20-22

Lately, I have been thinking about the life of Job. And since I started writing this blog for God there have been many things that have come against me. Doing something for God; the enemy will do any and everything to try and stop you. However, promotion comes through test and I know that perhaps these are test to see exactly where I am in my relationship with my Father. When I fail one; I know I am going to have to repeat it until I get it right. But praise God, when I pass a test; then I get to graduate to the next glory.

School started back in August and the first couple of months are always extremely busy; consuming extra hours that drain me. So I knew that I wouldn’t be able to write very much and I didn’t. However, in October I had all plans of getting back to writing for God. But on the anniversary of my first official post; my precious Mother received a diagnosis of cancer. Talking about  rocking my world; this did and I am just now able to write again.    

Reading last week in Ecclesiastes 9:1-6 a question was answered as a revelation came alive. We all question why it seems like the good die young while the evil still live. God revealed to me that he is giving them an opportunity to get their life right. He hopes that they might give their heart and accept him as their personal Savior.

Sitting and waiting while mama took her first chemo treatment; I was thinking about everything that has happened within the past year. Although we don’t understand why bad things happen; God always makes something good out of the bad. Looking on with the natural eye; it might seem crazy but we must trust God for He promises to never leave us or forsake us. And He is not a man that He would lie.

My heart breaks as I think about sweet little 3 year old Mariah who suffered at the hands of those who were to protect her. And when I think about the pain that she and the precious 5 year old Paitin endured; it makes me sick to my stomach. These children were innocent and didn’t deserve what they received. But I know that God will take this bad and create something good from it. We don’t always understand why things happen; but we must put our trust in God. 

Last night in church, Brother Joe mentioned that bad things happen that we don’t understand. But we must remember that God always makes good out of a bad situation and to look for the positive, not the negative.

As my family has started this journey on the road to total healing and wholeness, God is in control. During this struggle my mother and I have become close again. Through all that we have faced together in the past few months; forgiveness, healing and reconciliation have taken place by God using something bad and making something great out of it. It feels amazing to know without a shadow of a doubt that I am truly loved. We have learned to say I love you for tomorrow is never promised. And to hear these words spoken to me is undescribable.

***Romans 8:28 -And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.

My prayer today is that families remain or become close. Don’t wait for something to happen to bring you close. The most important things in life can’t be bought! Love comes from the heart! Show and tell your loved ones every chance you get that you love them. Give them hugs and kisses and pray together and for each other for we never know when our last breath may be. Don’t live with regrets or with the what ifs! 

Revelations is being played out before our very eyes. We are in the last days as plagues, diseases, evil doings, and destruction are all around us and Jerusalem was named capital of Israel last week. God is giving us time right now to get our hearts right with him. He loves us so much and desires to fellowship with us for eternity. We were created to fellowship with Him and He wants us. Don’t keep running, He loves you!

***2 Chronicles 6:6

To God Be All The Glory, Honor & Praise!





Singles Holiday Can Be More Than Lonely & Depressed

Hello my friends I’m sorry I haven’t written lately, but within the past two months it feels like my life has been turned upside down. I’ve had to come to the realization that things in life don’t always go as we planned and that healing doesn’t always come as we had planned. But God is still God, and he is in control and he’s got this!  

The holidays are here! Thanksgiving was just a few days ago and Christmas is just around the corner. This is a festive fun- filled time of the year; however for many it is a time of sadness, grief and loneliness. You see as the holidays approach us, there are many couples and families getting together for parties or social events. But there are many who are alone and may never be invited to such festive gatherings.

I know for me this time of the year brings back memories of when I was married or at least in a relationship. More so than any other time; during the holidays my heart longs to belong. It is during this time of the year that we have to be careful, for if we focus on what use to be and/or isolate ourselves; then we can easily drift into a state of severe depression. Been there and done that!

Spending time with love ones means more than any monetary gift; as money can not buy love! But many people may not have this opportunity or feel they don’t belong. With this being said, I’ve always dreamed of having a large home to open it up to those who need a family or a place where they belong. Even so that God gave me a vision and I have drawn it out and named it for just the time as He so chooses! But for now, God placed on my heart to invite single females to my small humble home every month for a potluck, conversation and a movie. Our first gathering was small but we had fun and December will be for single males and females  so we can have a Christmas party and a bonfire.

My heart is to help those; who like myself just need friends to do things with and to feel a sense of belonging.  If I were in the world still; then I would have all kinds of people to hang out with. But I am no longer in the world for I have been chosen and set apart by God. I want to live a life pleasing to God and be an example of a Godly woman for my daughter and others.

***Deuteronomy 14:2 “for you are a people holy to the Lord your God. Out of all the peoples on the face of the earth, the Lord has chosen you to be his treasured possession.”

***Deuteronomy 31:6”Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”

***Isaiah 41:10 “So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

I realize that some of my friends worked Thanksgiving day to keep their minds busy because they didn’t want to spend Thanksgiving without their spouse and children. This totally breaks my heart to know they were hurting inside and depressed. In my past I suffered from severe depression and anxiety and during the holidays it was the worst.

Being lonely and depressed is not the only thing that hurts during the holidays. So many people put such emphasis on what they get during Christmas that they forget to be thankful for the person who loves them and the heart in which it was given. Just like the widow in the Bible that gave her last mite; she gave with all her heart! That my friend is what counts, not the gift itself. A true gift is having the opportunity to share time with those you love; for this is priceless! We are never promised another tomorrow so be thankful for today! 

***Luke 21:1-4

***Mark 12:41-44

As the weeks pass before Christmas; take time to notice those around  you. Encourage someone, invite them in for coffee, dinner, to church or perhaps to a Christmas play or program. This is the season for us to remember the reason we celebrate Christmas. Step outside of your comfort zone and do something for another, but please don’t let it stop after the holidays. Not everyone has family or loved ones nearby and even if they do; the widow, the widower and the single person may still feel alone. Please craddle them in your prayers.

To my single friends, I encourage you to reach out to other singles in your church. Unite and become an army seeking God together while fulfilling the call that God has placed on you. Pastor Jim always says if you have a heartbeat then you have a purpose! It may be uncomfortable and most likely it will be as you step out into your calling. But stay focused on God and you will get through this holiday season and every season without depression overtaking you. 

Remember, we are never alone even when we feel like we are. God promised that he would never leave us or forsake us, so He is always with us! 

To God be all the glory, honor and praise!

Much love to you all!





Reality Check

As I sit and write tonight; I have so much on my mind. Forgive me for not being consistent in my writing; however I actually started this post a month ago. And this past month has been difficult for my family and myself with a long road ahead of us. Please keep us in your prayers. I know that God has it all in His Hands. Through it all, it is well!

Now lets get to this post of a reality check!

While driving to work recently my check engine light came on and I looked up into the sky. Upon looking up I saw this one little dark blob of something but couldn’t tell what it was. At that moment I was reminded of the shooting in Las Vegas and how Jesus is watching. He is coming back soon and we must check ourselves and make sure that we’re ready. Check engine – check your heart! Revelations is being played out before us! Evil is running rampant in the world. We must check our hearts and get them right so we don’t get left behind.

***Proverbs 13:24 – (ISV)
Whoever does not discipline his son hates him, but whoever loves him is diligent to correct him.

Driving home a few weeks ago on Friday afternoon I got stuck behind a school bus. I noticed that the kid in the back seat was either middle school or high school age. I think they were perhaps on the way to a ball game. But what happened after getting stopped at the stop light was so heartbreaking and it made me think of the phrase “spare the rod- spoil the child”. This kid gave me the middle finger by placing his hand behind the seat in front of the back window. He did so as if he was afraid he would get caught if he placed his hand up higher. Then he put his face in the glass, stuck his tongue out at me and appeared to be laughing. I just blew him a kiss and said God please forgive him for he knows not what he does.

This kid had never seen me before and it made me think why would he do this to a total stranger. Then on the following Sunday the shooting in Las Vegas happened. I was reminded of all the evil happening around us with all of the lawlessness.
2 Timothy 3:1-5 describes exactly what is going on right now.

***2 Timothy 3:1-5 (NLT) –The Dangers of the Last Days
You should know this, Timothy, that in the last days there will be very difficult times. For people will love only themselves and their money. They will be boastful and proud, scoffing at God, disobedient to their parents, and ungrateful. They will consider nothing sacred. They will be unloving and unforgiving; they will slander others and have no self-control. They will be cruel and hate what is good. They will betray their friends, be reckless, be puffed up with pride, and love pleasure rather than God. They will act religious, but they will reject the power that could make them godly. Stay away from people like that!

Recently I’ve had someone approach me about my writings. It felt as if I was being criticized for writing my testimony in this blog. At least that is what I felt was happening but I think they were questioning my motives behind writing in both blogs. As I sit and think about the conversation we had; I can only think of the following answer. I wrote my testimony in this blog because God asked me to write it. I was not trying to promote me, but I was promoting God by telling the world where He brought me from. By sharing and writing my testimony it has not only given me a pure heart but has healed it as I have shared everything. I have nothing left to hide. It took a lot out of me to let people know the truth. No, I didn’t do it so God would love me because he already did. And I didn’t do it so that other people would love me, because that’s irrelevant. It doesn’t matter what people think of me or even if they like me; it only matters what God thinks and guess what… He loves me.  He said I was to die for.

But as I sit here tonight, I am thinking perhaps God was reminding me to do things for the right reason. Sometimes we have good ideas; but perhaps at the wrong time. When we step outside of Gods plan and try to do it our-self; we become overloaded and stressed. Hence, a reality check – check my heart. What’s the motive….. Approval of others or Gods plan? 

Someone said that I shouldn’t speak so much about the Holy Spirit because not everyone believes in the Holy Spirit. My response is this; I will not hide the Holy Spirit in anything that I do for it is by Him that I live and write. Ezekiel 36:26-27…. God has given me a new a heart and put a new spirit within me. You can’t hide what is within! 

God has brought me too far in my life to not be thankful. And never will I try to hide the Holy Spirit in a corner or a back room. He shall have free reign in my life and in all my writings. I have been changed from the inside out. God has healed me, delivered me, and set me free from many demonic forces that plagued my life. Today I am free, never wanting to be that old me again!

I have a new realization of who I am in Christ. I don’t have to be the person that I use to be. I don’t have to live the way I use too and I don’t have to allow people to treat me the way that I allowed them to treat me over the years. Do to my lack of self-esteem and lack of confidence in myself; for years I didn’t want to be seen. I felt like I was not as good as others because I didn’t have materialistic things like everyone else. I now know that materialistic things don’t matter because money can’t buy the most precious gifts. But praise God I have discovered that I have one thing that nobody can take away from me. And that is my salvation, my love for God and God’s love for me. He is all I need!

 As you have seen we are living in the last days. People are unloving, unholy, lovers of self, despisers of good, blasphemers, having a form of godliness but denying its power, etc.. From the Las Vegas shooting, to the more recent church shooting, to the kid on the school bus these are all signs of perilous times and men. And the fact that church folks feel we should deny the Holy Spirit freedom, is heart breaking. There are many confused by false doctrine. God tells us in 1 John 4:1 to test the spirits. He is watching just as I was reminded. Let’s check our hearts and make sure we are ready. We can’t straddle the fence; either we are for God or against Him! Which side are you on? 

To God Be All the Glory, Honor & Praise!

Much Love to You All!


True Love Will Wait

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about girls, young women and older women who are single and desire love. At 51 years of age I have discovered there’s a right way and a wrong way to find that love we so desire. Unfortunately in my life I took a lot of wrong turns and did a lot of the wrong things in search of it. And look where it got me, I’m single and praying for a good Christian man after three divorces. If you are like myself and have already indulged into sexual relations, just know it’s not to late to repent,  turn from it and be made new. I am pure in Gods eyes and you can be too!

Satan will use your weakness to temp you as long as you let your flesh control you. But once you ask God into your life it becomes temptation or a test. If you pass the test there is promotion to the next level  but if you fail it  you will have to repeat that test again . God uses test to help us grow and trust me I failed several times. But God!!

***1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Ladies while we are still out in the world we see no wrong with the things that we do. From laying on the couch snuggling, having sex, sleeping around with multiple partners, getting drunk and/ or high partying it up, living the life; what have we got to lose!!?? We have everything to lose!!

We lose our self-respect, the respect of others, our self-esteem, a good name, etc and we are left with emotional and mental scars. We become known as a tramp, slut or whore. When you grow up and have a daughter of your own do you want her to live the life that you’re living?

I get it! I totally understand for I wanted someone to love me so badly that I gave in to the flesh more times than I care to count. But ladies keep yourself for your husband and let your marriage night be a night of special memories! Give your husband the special gift of an untainted you! I sure wish I had waited for the man that God had chosen for me! But you see I was looking at the outside of the man and not at the heart, and I missed out on a very good man in my life, he was my best friend. If I had waited and kept myself my life today would have been so different!

When you’re out in the world  and single once you ever give yourself to one man it becomes easier to give yourself to another, then another and another. And every time you give yourself away you give a piece of your heart away too. I get it  you do it because you think they love you and that you love them, but the truth is if you really love one another  you will wait. True Love Waits!

Believe me guys talk, and then it becomes a game between them to see who is the next one to score. Ladies be no one’s game, please keep yourself pure! And do not try to hold on to someone who is disrespectful to you or to your parents! Is this really what you would want for the rest of your life!??

I have learned that guys will do and say anything; even try to make a play of words of the Bible to convince you that it’s okay to have sex outside of marriage. But I’m here to tell you that it is not okay! Having sex before marriage destroys the inner you leaving you empty with no peace and  joy, only that feeling of fulfillment at the time of climax.

You are a rare jewel, priceless! Don’t sell yourself short by being so available. Anything worth having is worth waiting for.

I use to think I had to have a man in my life. And I do! But there is only one man that I need in my life and that’s God. I use to feel like I couldn’t live unless I had a man in my life and I’m absolutely right; but it’s not a man that’s here on Earth!  God is all I need! This doesn’t mean I don’t want my husband,  because believe me I do!  But I desire the husband that God desires for me to have. I want my soulmate to help push me forward in this calling on my life and me to help push his. With the two of us serving God side by side, hand in hand, showing others what He can do in the life of an individual, a marriage and in families giving all glory and honor to God.

Give yourself time to heal between relationships. If you don’t, you will continue to make the same mistakes. You have to give your heart and your emotions  time to heal . And when God gives you that godly man in your life appreciate him, respect him, love him, honor him and cherish him. And men when God sends you that godly woman-your wife; love her, cherish her, respect her, appreciate her, take care of her and protect her.

Don’t be in a hurry to grow up, enjoy your childhood and grow closer to God as you grow older. I fully believe that if we honor God by keeping ourselves he will definitely honor us with the desires of our heart. We don’t have to be test driven because by honoring God I believe He will honor us and our marriage bed will be out of this world.

***Romans 12:2                         ***1 Peter 4:3.                           ***1 John 2:15-17                     *** 2 Timothy 4:3-4.   ***Hebrew 13:4.                     ***1 Corinthians 3:16-17

True Love Will Wait!

Much Love to You All,


One Woman’s Journey to Finding Unconditional Love

As I sit and think about the past year; so much has happened. My life has completely changed from the way it use to be. My thoughts and my desires are so unlike what they had been all my life. I want no part of the old me; I so want to please God  in everything that I do. They say we become a new creature once we submit to God; putting off the old and putting on the new. I have seen this in my own life; although still not perfect I have seen  new desires and actions emerge.

Last September, God laid upon my heart to start writing a blog for Him and to share my life testimony. This definitely was not something that I wanted to do for fear of loosing my job and having everyone know how I’d been and having people talk about me! However, after confirmations and a nudge from God, I stepped out and trusted Him. When He asked me if I loved my job more than Him that was my deciding factor; I knew what I had to do. Difficult and time consuming it has been, but it has been so worth every tear that I have cried and every moment I spent while remembering and writing.

When I started writing I had no clue as to what a blog was. Much less how to set it up and write one. But God has guided me the entire way. I went from wanting to end my life in the spring/early summer of 2016 to writing a blog for God to help others. The title of this particular post is what my theme has been for this blog. I had hopes that sharing the darkest secrets of my life would help others. And it has not only helped others; but has helped me. Through my obedience of sharing everything that God has asked me to share; I have experienced so much healing and growth that I never thought could be possible. I have had a complete heart change within a year.

My first official post was published October 16, 2016 and it was titled “Once Upon a Time”. Sounds like I was getting ready to share a fairy tale; but unfortunately it wasn’t a fairy tale but was the truth. And although it hasn’t ended as my life is still going; it is a happily ever after story, once I got past all of the deep dark stuff. You see my true love walk has been just that. God has taken me to a place where I have finally seen, experienced and realize what true love is. 

Favor is God’s reward for obedience…. Hebrews 11:6 says “But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those that diligently seek Him.” In this year of writing; it has been a battle. The flesh against the spirit and I could tell when I stepped away from studying and seeking God as I should. Although not consecutive; there was turmoil in my life for a couple of months and I was unable to write. I know satan wanted me to stop writing for God’s plan and purpose for this blog was more than I ever dreamed.

Through writing He has blessed my daughter and me far greater than we deserve. His mercy, grace and love is astounding! And although I accepted Christ as my Savior in January 2008; I realized in this past year that I never was truly walking the walk; I was still in the world straddling the fence as people would say. But God is so good; you know I realized too that He has been with me all my life. It just took this past year of actually taking time and doing something for Him that I was able to realize it. I can see now where He was even with me before I took that first drink, that first cigarette, that first joint, my first sexual encounter, etc.. When  I walked away from Him at 15 years old; He never stopped loving me and pursuing me. I just chose to ignore Him and my life was a wreck. But God!!!

Since September 30, 2016 when God allowed me to publish that first test page for this blog; His goodness has never ceased. Here is what God has done in the past year through this blog. Several young women have learned they are much more valuable than they ever thought and moved on from destructive relationships. Two mother and daughters have made amends, a young woman realized she wasn’t alone in dealing with anger and mistreating her daughter, another young woman realized that life is so much more than she ever thought it could be; that God can heal broken hearts, restore marriages, restore families, and replace brokenness with joy and that miracles do happen. God also provided a praying friend for a woman that needed someone during a very difficult time in her life due to sickness of a parent. Several single parents both male and female have reached  out for prayer due to anger because they want to be different and don’t want their children to end up like them. Another woman realized that she deserves so much more than she has settled for. Not only have females been reading this blog, but males also. Many have written not only me but Samantha asking for prayer and I have met with a few.

God has been so good to Samantha and me. Not only have I had a heart change but Samantha has been able to truly forgive me for the way I had treated her all her life. God has allowed me to overcome being a controlling and angry mother. If you go back and follow the blog you will see that God provided in such a huge way. Every time God provided; the devil tried to destroy something else; but in the end when satan let something fall apart; God fixed it or provided another way!

God provided Samantha with a car when she was working only part time and shortly after her hours were cut. Living off of my paycheck was extremely tough with that extra added expense. However, God made a way! He gave us a trip to New York City, Shenandoah Valley, and to Washington, DC all within a period of 3 months. This was unthinkable for someone who never went on vacations. Then for Christmas, never having had a new purse, I was given two Michael Kors purses. Then in April after eight interviews; Samantha received a full-time position within the school system, doing exactly what she had been dreaming of doing.

Since the spring of this year, several things have taken place; but God made a way.  My 2004 Toyota with 260, 000 miles has only one window that will roll down and the A/C went out on it, but now it is working part-time. After being parked for months due to running hot, I decided to repair Samantha’s old 98 Chevy Cavalier because it has a good A/C on it. But before an inspection, we had to replace the thermostat and the radiator. Then when going to the car wash another issue arrived, the battery light came on and the alternator wasn’t charging. So on a Sunday afternoon when it was about 100 degrees outside it died at a stop sign while I was trying to deliver it to the place for repair on Monday. So I had to push it off the road with sweat beading off of me. I later realized, I didn’t loose my temper and yell and scream  ugly words!  I was so excited and proud of myself for keeping my cool. I so thank God, for the blessings of towing being covered and me not loosing my cool. We got it repaired, inspected, and I am driving it today.

Then in August while fixing Samantha’s quilt for her birthday from her old t-shirts; the sewing machine quit. And instead of loosing my temper; I prayed and asked God to help me. Guess what? It started back working and I finished that beautiful quilt for her. The next week I borrowed Samantha’s car and drove to the beach for a day with my friend Cheryl. Never having a problem with the AC on the way there; we get in the car to drive back and the A/C isn’t working. After letting her out at her car in Jacksonville; I touch the knob and prayed and it starts back working.

After publishing the post titled “A Daughter’s Forgiveness – True Unconditional Love” a beautiful lady writes me a private message. I could tell she was upset with things from her life. I wasn’t sure how to respond to her message but I prayed and answered her. After offering to meet with her; we did and we talked for 4 hours. She was so amazed at how God had moved in mine and Samantha’s relationship. We instantly became friends and she came to church with me the next night and was set free from things that had been bottled up inside. Shortly after this my AC unit to my house decided to go on permanent vacation. This beautiful new friend gave me a window unit she no longer needed to help cool my home.

At the end of July I was contacted by a lady who asked for prayer for her momma. This sweet lady and her family have become such amazing friends. And have blessed Samantha and myself tremendously not only with their friendship but with a weekend at their place at the beach. However on the way there; Samantha’s car broke down. The clamp on the radiator came off and the water leaked out! We had to call for help. But praise God, my nephew picked up Samantha took her to get my Toyota then her car was towed to the shop. We went to the beach and had a great time regardless of the trouble. And on Monday when we picked up the car; we were blessed with no cost on the repair and tow bill.  

This wasn’t the end as on September 6th while driving to work; I realize my car is not sounding right when I tried to crank it and had noticed it for a few days. Thinking is was the starter; I took it by the station to have it checked. Well it was the battery and praise God  it wasn’t the starter! Once again, God steps in and the battery was covered by a warranty.  I am so thankful that it didn’t leave me stranded beside the road and thank God it didn’t die when we drove to Colombia, SC just a week and a half before that.

Through all these trials I have been able to keep my cool and the old me would have totally flaked out. I mean with yelling ugly words, not a pretty picture I know. But with God, there is such a calmness and peace even in the midst of the storms. I told you , there has been such growth in my walk with God and in my life. God has used this blog to teach me about true love. His love for me is the truest of loves as it is unconditional. He allowed His one and only son to die for me; now that is love! I am chosen, wanted and loved; but God has also let me know that He has already chosen my husband. I am not sure when I will meet him but I don’t think it is going to be much longer!!  I couldn’t have a husband before now because I wasn’t ready. That is why I wasn’t able to hold on to anyone in the past. I kept repeating the same old mistakes. My heart had so much hurt that it had to have time to heal for me to be able to move forward into all that God has for me and has for me to do for Him. I thank God for His continued work in my life and preparing and anointing me to be my husbands’ wife, a mother to our children, a grandmother to our grandchildren with many wonderfully blessed years serving Him together.

***Matthew 19:26 – But Jesus looked at them and said to them, “With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”

Please excuse my writing tonight but as I have said in the beginning I am not a professional. But I write from the heart as the Holy Spirit guides me. I am real and never want to go back to be that woman that I use to be! I thank God for miracles, because I am one!

To God Be All the Glory, Honor & Praise!

Join me next time as this love story continues!

Much Love to you all!




True Love Walk

Dear Friends,

I know it has been a while since I have written and for this I do apologize. I am actually working on writing the summary of this past year and writing also about how God has moved in my life since starting this journey of writing for Him. Please stay tuned and prayerfully if I can slow down enough I will have it posted by the weekend or this time next week. This summary doesn’t mean that I will not be writing still. I am praying about the direction in which He wants me to go with this blog, for it is His!

To God Be All the Glory, Honor & Praise!

Much Love to You All,


Busy Days- Missing You

Good evening to you all. I know I haven’t written in a couple of weeks but I plan to do so soon. Life has gotten busy with preparing for school to begin. Prayerfully after the first few weeks after school starts things will calm down and perhaps I can then get home earlier so I can write. For the time being please check out my latest post for God on the Emerge Ministries website at emerge4unity.org      https://emerge4unity.org/2017/08/22/whats-love-got-to-do-with-it/

To God Be All The Glory, Honor & Praise, Amen!

Much Love to You All,


A Daughter’s Forgiveness – True Unconditional Love

This post is extremely difficult to share but praise God for changing me! I am not who I use to be!

For the past few months I had asked Samantha to let me know if she would like to go anywhere special for her birthday. But with no paychecks in the summer and all the issues that occurred with our cars and our home AC unit; our outings are limited. Her request was to visit a town in Georgia named Flowery Branch. I was going to do what I needed to for her to have a wonderful birthday; and after much discussion we decided to wait on that trip until Christmas. So she decided on a day-trip and it was absolutely a wonderful fun-filled day! I am so thankful that she chose to spend her special day with me!  

Yesterday August 4th, my gorgeous daughter Samantha and I took that day trip to Durham for her birthday to visit a mall she had not been to since she was about 9 years old. She has asked for years to lets go find it, but I couldn’t remember the name of the mall or where it was; except around Durham. After some research and viewing pictures online; we chose what looked like the place which was The Streets of Southpoint. All she wanted was to visit this place, get cheesecake at the Cheesecake Factory and eat dinner at Logan’s Roadhouse. So we shopped a little then visited the Cheesecake Factory for some delicious out of this world cheesecake and were just in awe of the sites we saw at The Streets of Southpoint. Once we left Durham; with no Logan’s Roadhouse on our route; we detoured through Goldsboro on the way home to eat dinner at her favorite restaurant.

With Samantha’s birthday and wanting to do something really special for her; this week has been extremely busy. I put together what started out as a blanket but ended up being a handmade quilt for Samantha’s 24th birthday. Needless to say, I have never done anything like this before.The top was made from old t-shirts that she had worn over the years from the time she was a little girl all the way through high school. There was a lot of love, care and hours put into this handmade quilt. It’s not perfect; but I have always told her that nothing I do is perfect; but at least I try. But she said she didn’t care because it was made with love. Then this morning when I woke up and we were talking about her birthday, I told her she was so spoiled. She chuckled and said “Yes I am”! She was so happy and excited over our day together yesterday and her handmade quilt. So excited, that she took it with her to show her grandparents (my mom and dad) on our visit. I am sad to say that she hasn’t always known that her momma loves her because I didn’t always show love towards her.

In my prayer closet this morning, God reminded me that the amazingly wonderful time that Samantha and I had yesterday has not always been a part of our life. We laughed, sang, talked about God and we had so much fun! But over the years it has taken a long time to get here because I was hateful, controlling and I mistreated her  physically, emotionally, and mentally. It has taken a lot for her to forgive me for the things that I have done and said to her; and even the relationships that I have exposed her to. She recently told me that she has just been able to forgive me within the past couple of years; that it took her a while. But in seeing God move in my life and the changes that she has seen within me; she was able to let go of the hurt and pain and truly love me. Thank God I am not who I use to be; not even who I was in January of this year.

In 2010 when I left my 3rd husband to move to our now present home I was a wreck. Although I had accepted Christ into my life in 2008 and was attending church regularly, my life wasn’t an example of what a relationship with Christ should be. I was a poor example of a Christian! The anger that I had towards my now ex-husband just came with me when we moved and the sad part is; Samantha was the only one around so she caught the brunt of everything. Feeling as if I had lost everything in my life and feeling like a complete failure; especially since I was headed towards divorce number 3, I was angry and tried to control everything in Samantha’s life. I think now it was a way that I felt perhaps if I controlled her; then she would never walk away from me. For it seemed everyone had always done just that! But the reality of it was I was pushing her away with my anger and controlling ways.

We have always pretty much done everything together over the years and everyone said we were best friends. But the truth is I think perhaps she was afraid to tell me she didn’t want to do stuff with me for fear of me hurting her in some way. It’s sad to think this; but it’s true. When she finally tried to stand up for herself in my outburst of anger; I remember getting so mad with her calling her names, telling her to shut up and I remember grabbing her by the throat with my hands. Once I realized what I was doing; I let go, cried and immediately apologized, for I would never intentionally hurt her!  Every time I did anything to hurt her; I felt horrible and never wanted to leave her for a fear that something would happen to her. Guilt overwhelmed me!

For the life of me; I couldn’t understand how I could hurt the most precious gift that God had given to me on this earth! I have since come to realize as my relationship with God has grown that it wasn’t me; it was what was in me that did all these horrible things! On February 2, 2014, I was delivered from that deep rooted anger during a church service. I have written about this deliverance in a earlier post. I also have been delivered within the past year from that controlling spirit.

I realized that both of these were generational curses that had to be broken off of my life to keep them from being passed to Samantha and future generations. Although I was delivered; satan didn’t want to let me go. I wish I could say that since that day in 2014 that I have never had another outburst of anger; but I can’t. In Matthew 12:43-45 it speaks of when an evil spirit leaves a person it tries to return and believe me it does. Each day we have to choose to walk in the ways of the Lord and it can be difficult but God always provides a way. It has been a spiritual battle but God is greater and He won! Today I walk in freedom from bondage that had me bound for what seems like forever! There is a sense of peace and calm within my soul and within my home. As the song goes; it is well with my soul.

***1 John 2:6(NIV) Whoever claims to live in Him must live as Jesus did.

*** John 8:36 (NIV) So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.

Within the past year since God had me start writing this blog; I have grown so much in my relationship with Him. I am still not perfect and never will I be until He calls me home. But with God, the relationship between Samantha and me is one of true love, respect, admiration, honor and integrity. We can truly say we are proud that we are not only mother and daughter; but we definitely are best friends. It feels amazing to know that my daughter has truly forgiven me and that she knows without a shadow of a doubt that I love her and will always do anything I can for her!

I can’t change the past; but with God I don’t have to live there and the future for Samantha and myself is looking pretty great. God has us both doing a work for Him. We support each other and are each others biggest cheerleaders. And I am so grateful that God gave me such a beautiful gift. Her beauty not only radiates from the outside but from the inside. She is truly a treasure! I Love You Samantha Jo from the bottom of my heart!! 

I don’t know if this will help anyone else; but I do know that it has helped one young woman to be able to forgive her mom and restore their relationship. As I share from my heart; I pray that others learn from my mistakes and know that God is the only way to peace, joy and true love. As the song goes, if you’re tired and you’re weary, there is freedom. Our Heavenly Father is that freedom!  Trust Him today!

**Colossians 3:13

**Matthew 6:14-15

**Ephesians 4:31-32

**1 John 1:9

 To God be All the Glory, Honor and Praise !

Much Love to You All!


My Hearts Prayer

Dear Heavenly Father, as I humbly come before you I thank you for coming to Earth as a human, dying on the cross a painful death and raising on the third day and sending our comforter the Holy Spirit. Father you said where two or more are gathered in your name and we ask according to your will it shall be done! So Father right now I ask that you embrace each and every person that is on my heart and every person that is hurting, sick , anxious, depressed, suicidal, lost, confused, in need, homeless, unloving, unlovable, bitter, angry, unforgiving, or resentful. Father I know it is your will that each of us come to know you as our personal Lord and Savior. And I know that you want to give us life and life more abundantly; and that you died on that cross to heal us from all sickness & disease and for our sins. So I ask Father that angels be petitioned to go and minister to every person that is in need of your touch right now. If they don’t know you as their Lord and Savior that tonight be the night that the Holy Spirit introduce them to Jesus, filling them with a peace and joy like they’ve never known.
Jesus, thank you for dying on the cross so that we might live. And I ask Holy Spirit to come and fill the voids in their heart, as they accept Christ as their Lord and Savior. Father thank you for salvation, healing, restoration, and reconciliation and thank you for the manifestation of all these things. In Jesus Name, Amen!

To God be all the glory, honor & praise, forever!

Much Love to you all,


Sticks and Stones

Lately I have had a lot on my mind and been in prayer about things. But today God set me free from unforgiveness that I had been holding on to in which I didn’t realize I was. Satan will do anything and everything to kill, steal and destroy to take you out of the game. He will use the people or things that are dearest to you to cut your legs out from under you. However, I know who wins in the end; God does!

Ever since I was a child I’ve always heard the saying sticks and stones may break your bones, but words will never hurt you. But I am here to tell you that this is a lie straight from the pit of Hell! Out of our mouth we speak blessings and curses; life or death, depending on what we say. And name calling, talking about others behind their back, critical comments, belittling, disrespectful speech, and throwing someone’s past up are definitely curses. And when doing this we speak death and destruction to that person. And before giving my life to God I was so guilty of these things and even after; until I gained wisdom.

We must be careful with our words and how we speak for not everyone is capable of letting things roll off. If we all could, that would be wonderful. But everyone is different and everyone has a different background and handle things totally different. Hurtful words when not released to God, will play over and over in a person’s mind. Often times we find that some traumatic event from a person’s childhood has left them scarred. And we can’t look at someone and tell what they have gone through. A person who appears to be strong could possibly be the person that needs an ear to listen, a shoulder to cry on, and someone to care enough to pray for and with them. I know, because I have been that person!

When you are hurt from rejection and critical comments, etc. there is such a deep pain that haunts you constantly. It’s like a reminder telling you that you aren’t good enough; leading to depression. And when you grow up feeling this way and go through one relationship after another and loosing friends who tell you that you aren’t rich enough, after a while you really believe that you are insignificant and unlovable. When your life from childhood through adulthood has been filled with so many negative and emotional happenings; there is a sense of inadequacy, feeling not good enough, and as if everything you do isn’t good enough. And believe me growing up this way was extremely hard. If I had not run from God all these years then my life would have been different, but praise God my life is different now!

Joyce Meyer has a book written called Battlefield of the Mind. That is exactly where the battle is and not in the heart. But the battle between the head and the heart is spiritual warfare. Depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts are straight from Hell and without God we don’t know how to overcome them. And sometimes it gets to the point where you just want to run away or give up. Satan is the one who gives us these thoughts; it’s his way of trying to take us out because he knows God has a huge plan for our lives. It’s been 18 years since someone near and dear to me decided they couldn’t take anymore. I don’t know what was going on but I do know that I too had been down that road of thinking life would be better for everyone if I were just out of the way. But the truth is, everyone isn’t better for they are left dealing with the pain and heartache of loosing someone they love. Unfortunately as the suicidal person; you don’t feel loved because your mind has become so clouded you can’t see straight! God tells us that we can have victory in Him. If the thought doesn’t line up with the Word of God, then reject it and believe and think only on what God’s Word says.

****2 Corinthians 10:4-5 (KJV) For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds; Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ.

The gathering together of the saints is to uplift, encourage and to pray for one another. Not everyone has family that encourages and prays for them. It’s extremely important to stay plugged into a body of believers as we all need one another on this journey. Life can become extremely difficult at times and what I have realized is that Satan wants us to give up, walk away and be desolate; giving him an advantage. If he can separate us from the saints then who will speak life into us?

****Ephesians 6:18 (MSG) In the same way, prayer is essential in this ongoing warfare. Pray hard and long. Pray for your brothers and sisters. Keep your eyes open. Keep each other’s spirits up so that no one falls behind or drops out.

Intercessory prayer is extremely important! And we must keep check on our brothers and sisters for 1Peter 5:8 tells us that we must be alert and of sober mind. Our enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Let us as families and church families be someone that others can come to feeling acceptance and love. We all need someone, but I am here to tell you that a person with depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts need your prayers desperately. I know for I have been in those shoes and without the prayers of my Pastors and my daughter I wouldn’t be alive today. It could be your love and prayers that set things in motion for true freedom as was in my case.

If you happen to be thinking right now; perhaps I have been that person that has been critical, judgmental, or perhaps thrown someone’s past in their face just ask for forgiveness from them and our Father. This life is too short to walk around making others feel unworthy. Perhaps the journey of life for that person has put them into that place where they are at a breaking point. Would you want to think that your comment could have possibly been the straw that broke the camels back? When satan has us bound; it’s difficult to see a way out when you keep getting pounded. Speak life to this person and not death. Pray for others instead of talking about them or judging them. And if they come into the church dressed inappropriately; then at least they are in the church and God will deal with everything else! Don’t reject them for they may never want to set foot in church again or have anything to do with God! Would you want to have their blood on your hands? We are all called into the ministry, not to just sit in church. We are to win souls for God’s Kingdom, not push them away.

When people are down right rude, disrespectful, throwing up things &people from our past, belittling us or even talking about us behind our back; we are to forgive them! Holding on to the bitterness, hurt, hate and pain only harms us and steals our joy; sometimes leading us into that depression, anxiety and into those suicidal thoughts. And we must remember its not the person but what is inside that is causing them to do these things. But to have life and life more abundantly; what we have to do is forgive them, pray for a heart change for you and them and have faith in God for He will work all things to the good of those that love Him. Faith makes all things possible; although not easy! Forgiveness is a choice! If we don’t forgive; then our Father can’t forgive us.

Pastor Jim has shared with us several times a poem by Pastor Roys Hicks, Sr..”There are two natures within my breast, One is cursed and one is blessed. One I love, and one I hate. The one I feed will dominate. This is so true as the battle of the spirits rage within us. We have the choice to be our old self or the new creation with Christ. Although our flesh is under our feet; the war of the spirits rage. And if we aren’t careful the flesh will rise at an impromptu time. Will you allow God to move and use you to speak life into those around you and into those who are hurting and running from Him? Everyone needs someone in their corner and I thank God that He blessed me with my spiritual family!

If you are hurting today and need someone to pray with you, please comment with your contact information and I will contact you. I know what it feels like to feel all alone, unworthy, rejected and unloved; as we can feel this even in the midst of a crowd. You don’t have to walk around feeling unwanted and unloved. I love you but God loves you more and desires for you to have life more abundantly and with God ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! And He makes beauty from our ashes!!

****Matthew 11:28-30“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

To God Be All the Glory, Honor & Praise, Forever, Amen!

Much Love to You All!


The End of a Journey But the Beginning of Life

When I ended the story a few weeks ago I told you that Samantha and I had moved into our present home after leaving my now ex-husband. I was a mixed bag of emotions from being mad, sad, hurt, depressed, confused, to angry. Crushed because everything had happened like it did as I had so hoped for our marriage to work out and finally have a big family. But things didn’t quite work out that way. As I look back now, I’m not sure if I was more upset over the separation and moving or the fact that I didn’t have control over everything. One thing for sure was I felt like a complete failure as I was heading for divorce number 3.

When we moved I was already working with the school system and going to college part time. I had to give up college because it was just too much on me at that time. But it was during Thanksgiving break our home was almost ready and I told Samantha to get some of her clothes and we would spend the night at our new place. I wasn’t ready to move yet because some things still needed to be completed and I figured if we moved in it would never get done. But when we got to our now home I realized she had brought every piece of clothing she owned! When I asked her why, she simply stated she wanted to get out and didn’t want to go back because she was tired of the way things had been. Unfortunately our kids are the ones who suffer the most when we make those selfish and irresponsible decisions and behave irrationally.

He helped us get settled in and moved the items that I had purchased and stored in the outbuilding for me. I didn’t take anything from the home except Samantha’s bedroom suite as I wanted to make sure he had everything that he needed to have a furnished home. Because when I met him; his apartment was bare and regardless of what had happened, I didn’t have the heart to clean him out. I did love him and wanted him to have everything that he needed. He helped us financially for quite some time and still helps in little ways that he can for he said he would always help Samantha any way possible. But I was so upset that I had to leave my beautiful home I had worked so hard in and not to mention my huge kitchen. For the one I have now is almost too small to change your mind in, but praise God, I have a home.

After just a couple of weeks here at our new place; I remember Samantha telling me that our old single wide mobile home felt like home and that she missed it. Then she said that our other house we had just left never felt like home and that our new place felt more like home than that house ever did. She was absolutely right! As much as I loved that house it never felt like home to me either; it was a place to stay and a roof over our heads. Marriage was short lived with all the trouble we had with my sickness and attitude, jealousy of kids and everything else that went on. As I stated in an earlier post; I wasn’t ready to be married and I never should have married him. It wasn’t the right time and it definitely wasn’t fair to him or either of our girls! But praise God we are still friends. There was definitely healing that needed to take place within me before I ever said I Do! And I needed to know the true meaning of love and what marriage is all about.

Two years passed before I even considered dating anyone. Just before our divorce was final I started seeing someone. However I shouldn’t have until my divorce was final because when you are still married by law you are still married in Gods eyes; therefore I was committing adultery. Even though the divorce was almost final and I was seeing someone; I just found it hard to let go of my husband. I remember continuously asking him, are you sure this is what you want; can’t we seek counseling and work it out! Of course he was done and wanted no part of trying to salvage the marriage. I think deep down I was hoping that the time apart would cause him to miss me and want me. But I know now that it was that longing to have someone and be married and not have divorce number three take place.

I wasn’t sure if I was upset over divorcing him or the fact that it was going to be divorce number three for me. However I felt like a complete failure and that I would never have a marriage work. And you know what?…. with that type of attitude and stinking thinking, I most definitely can’t! But God moves mountains and heals emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually when we allow Him to do so. Once we completely accept Him and surrender, then He is able to make beauty from our ashes. However, at this point I wasn’t quite there yet!

This entire time I was going to church and working on my relationship with God and many miracles had taken place in my life but I still had a ways to go. God has truly had his hands full molding and shaping me! But jumping into a dating relationship at this time was detrimental to my walk. For I strayed and not only was I committing adultery, but fornication too! And oh how the struggle between the spirits was completely overwhelming! The relationship with this guy got really nasty and only lasted a few months but then I turned right around and jumped into dating an old friend. He’s the one that had given me the expensive engagement ring that I gave back and I told you about this in an earlier post. Then a year later I ran into a dear precious old friend and we dated for only a short while. But although I was divorced and had been for 2 years he felt like he was being compared to my ex because of things I said. I never meant for it to come out that way. I guess I just had to have healing in my entire being before I could move forward in my life. I have since learned that there is no man on this earth that can make me happy or love me like my Father! Happiness comes from within, no person, all the money in the world nor anything can make you happy….but a personal relationship with the Father is what it takes!

***** 1 Corinthians 6:18 -20-Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a person commits are outside the body, but whoever sins sexually, sins against their own body. Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, who you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.

I’ve realized that you can’t move on until your heart is completely healed. Perhaps after two years of separation you would think you would be healed but when you have extremely deep pain from childhood on up, it takes a while to allow God to heal all those scars and create within you a new, tender and loving heart. God knew my heart and He knew that no marriage would ever work out for me until I was completely healed from the inside-out from every single thing that had hurt me in my past.

During the past seven years God has healed me from all my deep rooted anger, jealousy, rage, bitterness, hatred, spitefulness, envy, selfishness, a controlling spirit, hatefulness, all sickness & diseases, heartache, depression, anxiety and low self-esteem. He has created in me a new heart and has given me life. Not to say that satan, who is out to steal, kill and destroy doesn’t prowl around trying to convince me otherwise; but I know who I am. I am the daughter of the King, the most High God who has turned my mourning into dancing and turned my sorrow into joy!

God is still molding and shaping me, as I am not perfect and will not be until He calls me home to be with Him. But when I fall; I am quick to repent and I get back up brush myself off and go again. I do not want to do anything to displease my Father but to do everything so that He may receive all the glory, honor and praise. My life didn’t change overnight after accepting God as my Savior and yes I stepped out of His will more times than I care to admit. But He never let me go! Praise God!!!

Being healed & delivered from smoking, addiction to prescription drugs and not tithing properly during the Health & Wealth Conference when Jeremy Laborde prayed with me was an eye-opening experience. I will tell you more about this soon and about the physical touch I received from God while praising Him at the alter one Sunday morning! Oh WOW, was that awesome! From cleaning the church, working in the nursery, helping with VBS, dancing on the praise team, doing skits for the Women’s Conference, and praising & worshipping Him freely; every day I love Him more and more. And I know He has huge plans for me!

*****Jeremiah 29:11 – For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Join me next week as I tell you a little more of my story and my walk to true love as God continues to mold & shape me!

To God be all the Glory, Honor & Praise Forevermore!

Much Love to you All,