This week God has me going in a different direction for this blog post. I will return to my life story where Samantha was a baby really soon; perhaps next weekend. But for now God has a lesson for us, just as He has taught me this week. We have to be obedient and willing to do as He asked, in order to fulfill the calling and destiny He has for us.
Life sometimes has a way of teaching us lessons; perhaps a lot from our own mistakes and sometimes the mistakes of others. Regardless sometimes God uses rabbit trails to get out attention and to get our eyes off our circumstances and to trust Him. These life lessons are difficult and down right scary sometimes; until we trust Him completely!
God has told me several times this week to “Fear Not”! I know I am not to fear; because God has always taken care of me. Even when I didn’t realize it was Him that was doing so. But sometimes satan tries to sidetrack us and I needed that reminder to put me back on track. This week there have been many issues in my personal life and family that have concerned me. But God has reminded me several times that He has this, do not fear!
While reading Proverbs Chapter 12 this week God let me know that I will have peace and joy because of my obedience in sharing His Word with the world in this blog. In verse 24 “The hand of the diligent will rule, But the lazy man will be put to forced labor.” A friend of mine shared on Facebook this week a prophecy that there are some that will be removed from the 40 hour work week and will be in ministry full time to glorify God. This really excited me as I felt God was speaking to me! Although these were not his exact words but you get the gist of it. Now listen carefully, as you continue to read!
God sent me a family when I desperately needed one and needed to feel like I belonged and had a purpose. My life has been such a train wreck; and never in my wildest dreams would I have ever thought God could and would want to use me! Before I started writing this blog; I argued with God because I didn’t want to share my life with the world. I knew how my life had been and how terrible I had been, to the point I was afraid to write my story for fear of losing my job. But God said, “Do you love your job more than me?” Whoaaaaa……that got my attention!!! I said, “No”! “I love you more” and I started writing this blog for God. I knew at that moment; that regardless of what comes up or what happens, He will provide, period! If something is taken; He will replace with greater!
I have to admit I have never liked change and do not like to be seen. I was a very shy child and have been a somewhat timid (sober) adult, but when I was drunk it was a different story. But that story is for another day. Anyway I have always liked things to stay the same and have never liked stepping out of my comfort zone. As a lot of people do; we just like familiarity. Well that all went right out the window, so to speak, when I decided to completely dedicate my life to God. He likes to shake things up a little, but in a good way.
Shortly after I started preparing the website for the blog I was invited to join a team of amazingly beautiful people that are on fire for God and want to show His love to the world. God sent to me my Emerge Ministry Family and I was welcomed with open arms. Immediately I knew I was home! I love the heart and compassion that each and every one of these awesome family members have. God knew just what I needed and blessed me with numerous brothers and sisters. We aren’t just a team, we are Family and I thank God for each of them! They have my back and cover me in prayer and if I need them, they will be right here for me.
Since I have started writing this blog, doing street ministry with my Emerge Family, praying with strangers, loving on the unlovable and praying at the flagpole every morning at work; I am doing things I never thought I could do! God will send you on rabbit trails to get you off the comfortable path you are on to sometimes get you on the right path for your life. What we settle for isn’t what is best! God has so much more in store for us; if we will just listen and obey.
*****Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you, ” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
*****Deuteronomy 28:9 (NIV) The Lord will establish you as his holy people, as he promised you on oath, if you keep the commands of the Lord your God and walk in obedience to him.
Now, that I have been on a rabbit trail in this story; let me get back on track. Remember my friends prophecy from earlier in the story? You see. since devoting my life completely to God and writing this blog; I have had the desire to travel and minister for God full-time. I love photography and I love to travel; especially flying thanks to an old boyfriend that is a pilot. Anyway, I have often thought about traveling and doing photography and never thought it could happen. But, you know what? I believe my friends prophesy on Facebook was for my Emerge Family and myself. I already am traveling, talking my pictures and blogging for God but I am trusting God for greater. And I am believing that I will receive double for my trouble, so to speak. What I allowed satan to steal from me will be restored even greater. Although I had to go on some of those rabbit trails in life to get back to where I am suppose to be; God can and will use me. He already is! Remember God makes beauty from our ashes.
*****Isaiah 61:7-9 (NIV) Instead of your shame you will receive double portion, and instead of disgrace you will receive in your inheritance. And so you will inherit a double portion in your land, and everlasting joy will be yours. “For I, the Lord, love justice; I hate robbery and wrongdoing. In my faithfulness I will reward my people and make an everlasting covenant with them. Their descendants will be known among the nations and their offspring among the peoples. All who see them will acknowledge that they are a people the Lord has blessed.”
My life may have been a train wreck but God is a merciful and gracious God that never gave up on me! He had a plan and a purpose for my life from the beginning. It just took numerous rabbit trails to get me on the right path. All those years of feeling inadequate, rejected and unloved by the world; He just wanted me to turn to Him. Instead I ran. What was I thinking! I sure wasn’t thinking about living for God; I thought that would be boring and I would miss out. But you know what; living for God is anything but boring I missed out by delaying my life with God. All my years of running and living in the world, I never had the fulfillment, satisfaction, joy, peace and love that I do now!
My wrong choices in life put me on some wrong paths; but God used all those rabbit trails to bring me back to where He needs me. All my experiences, the pain and heartaches that I had are being used in this ministry as I blog for God. It is not only helping others but bringing healing to wounds I didn’t even realize I had.
****** Deuteronomy 30: 3-13
Regardless of what you are going through; whatever the storm, trust and fear not….. God’s got this! Never be afraid to get uncomfortable for God, thats when life becomes really awesome! Don’t be so stuborn and set in your ways that you are not willing to get out of the way in order for God to move on your behalf and those around you. He wants to place you into the destiny that He designed you for!
I am one voice! And my voice carries weight for the Kingdom of God! Praise God, He chose me! Hallelujah!
God Loves You ….. and So Do I !
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