A Glimmer of Light in the Darkest of Days

For many years I pretty much invited satan into my home to take everything I had. However, the way my life went for most of my years he didn’t have to take it, I practically handed everything to him on a gold platter. But now I am at a point in my life where I’m tired of everything being taken and I’m tired of giving it away. I want my stuff back! The fight is on!

As I continue to be the hands, feet and voice for God as the Holy Spirit leads me, please keep me in your prayers. This is no easy task revealing your deepest darkest secrets for everyone to see. And the spiritual battle is real but with God I can do all things for He gives me strength.

I look back at last fall when I began this journey; reluctantly I might add. And from then until now I see growth within myself. Praise God I am not who I was then or even 2 months ago! But I’m still not where I want to be.  I am ever so grateful that God loved me so much to never give up me and for changing my heart; hence changing my life! When He asked me to share my life story I didn’t want too. I saw no purpose in it and was terrified of what people would say about me. But as I have written I have come to a point where I don’t care what others think; I only care what my Father in Heaven thinks of me. Satan has fought me every step of the way to keep me from sharing. But praying that my story would help at least one person; I have come to realize that it is making a difference and having an impact for His Kingdom. He is using my obedience to Him to heal my heart from all the pain of my past. And He is preparing me for my future. Most importantly He is showing the world what He can do! And I write for Him so he can receive all the glory, honor and praise!

Father reduce me and increase you!

****Joshua 1:9 (NIV) “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”

Just this past week God let me know the impact my obedience is having on others; that my writing is not in vain. From a co-worker who recently became friends with me on Facebook I received a beautiful hand-painted gift (pictured below). She has been reading my post on Facebook and she was inspired to paint something that she said describes me. The Mason jar is a theme from our school that stands for amazing, the butterfly is a sweet spirit that flies around, and the beauty of flowers I love dearly. Then at church Sunday morning a beautiful sister told me that she loves reading my Facebook post. And she said that she’s so amazed at the heart change God has done in me, she can see the growth. And that some Christians post things on Facebook, but she knows my post are genuinely from the heart. Before I could leave church Pastor Joyce told me that she too loves reading my blog. And that she is proud of me for doing what I am doing for God. Then Sunday night another sweet sister let me know she sat one day and read every blog post that I have written. She said she just couldn’t stop reading it and that she knows that my testimony has to help many. And she ended by saying that it takes a lot of courage to share so much. She is absolutely right and I have never had that courage; but with God all things are possible!  God knows what we need when we need it and He is always right on time. And I desperately needed to know that what I am doing for God is making a difference.

I most definitely can’t change my past; but I can make sure that my future is much brighter. With God in control and not Donna, life is and will continue to be amazing.

Now the story continues……. Last week I shared with you that I married for the third time to a very precious man that deserved so much more than what he received. He is a good man that I did not respect as I should have. Not saying that he was perfect and without fault; it’s just the fact that I wasn’t ready to be married and in doing so I played a huge part in damaging lives. When I ended last week, I told you that trying to defend my husband against his daughter I almost hit her for calling me a _ _ _ Bitch. But I also said that out of respect for him as my husband, head of the house and her father I should have allowed him to handle it. I am not proud of who I was back then with my childish behavior that I displayed at times. But God can transform a person’s heart and create beauty from those dirty stinky ashes. Praise God I am not who I use to be!

****Ezekiel 11:19(ESV)”And I will give them one heart, and a new spirit I will put within them. I will remove the heart of stone from their flesh and give them a heart of flesh,

****Ezekiel 36:26 (ESV) “And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.

Our marriage didn’t start out bad; except when I left him at the church on our wedding night, that was extremely bad. We were actually happy and loved one another when we first got married. And when I moved to Richlands he was concerned about my former contacts so he asked me to change my email address and telephone number. I did all of this as he asked because I thought it was the right thing to do; however he never changed any of his. But my life turned completely upside down after I got sick, and our first year together was rough but we were ok. We managed to get through things that came our way. Each year got a little more difficult. And in our second year of marriage my anger, bitterness and depression had grown until I was in a pit so deep I never thought I could get out of it. As my marriage fell apart, the relationship with my step-daughter completely a wreck and my relationship with my own daughter was beginning to be out of sync as I was falling into a deep dark depression. It overtook my life to the point where I hated myself, my daughter, my husband, just everyone. I wanted nothing to do with anybody and had reached a point at one time that I didn’t even want to leave the house and was afraid to drive. I was at an all-time low. I actually wanted to die and had basically given up on life.

While my pain increased in my physical body it affected my mental health too. Three surgeries, menopause, fibromyalgia, restless leg syndrome, arthritis, degenerative disk disease, irritable bowel syndrome, severe depression and anxiety and a marriage on the rocks; I had no control over what was going on and I was so bitterly angry! Mad at the world, I felt I had been dealt a bad hand. Truth was my own decisions and choices had gotten me exactly where I was!

I think everything that had happened in my past and never learning how to deal with rejection and anger really played a big part in what was going on. My best friends telling me I wasn’t good enough and dumping me in elementary school and being bullied then the abuse I had endured had some lasting effects. Then being a single mom and in control of everything for so many years, it was difficult letting go of being the one in charge. So, when things went spinning out of control in my life; I tried holding on any way possible including being manipulative. Little did I realize I was pushing him away which created a cycle of feeling rejected, deep depression, more pain, and more anger. It was a vicious cycle of pain leading to anger and depression, then the depression and pain leading to even more anger that became like a time bomb ticking in me.

Our home had become a hell with no one getting along as there was so much disrespect displayed in that house towards one another. I was tired of living in so much turmoil and I couldn’t even see the pain that my daughter was in. It wasn’t just me with issues, she was being treated unfairly in the home to the point where she was inducing self-harm. But I was so out of it; I didn’t have a clue. It was during this time that I was going to college at night and doing online classes. I had a break from everything; but she was still there in it. Needless to say the arguing wasn’t just between my ex and myself as my daughter was left there hearing my ex and his daughter argue. Praise God for He kept my daughter alive during her self-harm. I can’t go into her testimony but she will at some point soon.

Living in a home where no one will talk to you as they walk past you was extremely tough. We lived under the same roof but we didn’t operate as a family; shoot we didn’t even operate as friends. Married but all alone, I felt more alone than I did when I was single. I just wanted my husband to love me and I felt like I was in competition. However, now I realize I can’t blame him for not wanting to be around me; I had put him in a very terrible position and I know I was disrespectful to him.  He felt like he had to choose between his daughter and me because she didn’t want any part of me for I had come in and things had changed. Although I wasn’t ready for marriage in the beginning; once we were married I was excited as I thought now I had two more daughters and I wanted us to be family. I had always wanted a big family! Didn’t quite work out that way; they had one mom and one mom was all they wanted!

My ex looked at me one day and told me I was crazy and so did his daughter. At that time I didn’t think so but honestly I had lost my mind. With everything going on and all the arguing all the time my nerves were completely shot! I was a complete wreck!!! The doctor had put me on so much medication and I had become addicted. One medication led to another as the side effects keep increasing another medication had to cover the side effects of another. I had given up and just wanted to be put somewhere or die. I reached an all-time low when I went in for psychological testing. I manipulated the answers on some of those questions so that it would appear I was worse than I really was. I wanted my husbands sympathy so bad and thought perhaps he would care if he thought I really had a problem as he had told me that all of my pain was in my head. Praise God regardless of what I did the test still turned out ok! God was in control and watching out for me! As I have said I am not proud of things I did and no I am not crazy. However, at that time my buttons had been pushed to the max and I was on the verge of a total breakdown. Third marriage, I didn’t want a third divorce! I felt like a complete failure and I couldn’t fix it and I wanted to fix our family and be a family, all of us!

What hurt me really bad was when he told me that I had waited until we were married to get sick! Like I had planned it! Wow, that hurt because if I could have had my way about it I most definitely wouldn’t have chosen what I had to go through. I know now that he never meant what he said; he was hurt and I realize we all say things that we don’t mean when we are hurt and angry when we react in the flesh. I know that I did and I hurt him tremendously. During all of this I had applied for disability due to all my sicknesses but God knew better and had a greater plan as it was denied.

After 2 years of living in such devastation, Samantha found out about a Walk the Line lock-in that was to take place in Beulaville and she begged to go. Thank God, I took her and her friend Heidi. It was there that she gave her life to God and then she started walking to church. When she started singing in the choir she asked me to go hear her sing; after a while she asked me to join her in the choir because she knew my love of singing. It’s after this that I accepted Christ into my life and she and I both were baptized the same day.

I thought once I gave my life to God and was baptized that life would be perfect. As a new Christian I had a lot to learn!

Join me next week as this story continues:

May All the Glory, Honor and Praise be to Our Heavenly Father!

Much Love To You All,

Donna

 

 

 

 

 

 

Third Time Isn’t a Charm

I think it’s much easier to put the blame on someone else when things go wrong in our life. But the truth is usually the one we should blame is the one looking back at us in the mirror; as we are responsible for our own actions and reactions and must take responsibility for such. I have learned that if I don’t seek God’s will and ask Him, then I will make the wrong choices as my life testimony has shown you.

As I sit here and think about my life and the way I see the youth longing to have a partner; I realize I was exactly the same way. However, I thought I had to have someone in my life and was doing whatever it took to find him. I didn’t know that we as women shouldn’t be chasing after the guy. But I thank God for my pastors for I have learned a lot in church and in studies that I have done. Girls just remember you are not the pursuer; you are to be pursued!

I am really praying that my testimony opens the eyes of many and that they be saved from a tragic marriage all because they didn’t seek God’s will for their life. Back in March when I wrote “The Dance of Darkness” I ended with telling you that Samantha had been wanting a daddy extremely bad. And I told you that through online chat rooms and night clubs I had met many people. However, when someone would become interested I tried to find something wrong with them because I didn’t want them to get close enough to see that deep rooted anger that I had. And I was manipulative, childish and threatened suicide when things didn’t go my way. I realize now that I never learned how to deal with rejection, criticism and my feelings of not being good enough. Growing up poor and being picked on in school was difficult and then when my best friends dumped me I really felt like I wasn’t good enough. I didn’t know at that time that my worth was not based off of what man thought but who I am in Christ. But this was before I knew God. And as you know at 15 years old I went through the motions; but never walked the walk…. I was on the run from God.

Living in Potters Hill when Samantha was about 10 years old; a very precious man came into our lives and he was so persistent. I tried my best to run him off and he kept coming back; wouldn’t take no for an answer. Samantha loved him so very much and he loved her and took up so much time with her. But his daughters were a different story as I could tell they were not so welcoming towards me. I know that their dad had been their world since their mom died. It was difficult but he assured me that the girls were away at college and they were fine with him dating me. I just never felt like I was good enough for them and felt they didn’t think I was either.

It was a world wind romance; getting engaged after about 5 months of dating. However, when we discussed the wedding I wanted to wait a year and he didn’t. He was in a hurry and wanted to get married soon. I knew that I wasn’t ready, but I listened to everyone tell me how much he must love me because when I tried to run him off he kept coming back. So we found a house and started remodeling. Working all day, planning a wedding, painting at nights and weekends wore me out. He had no idea of the medical issues that I had, but in December the house was ready and we moved in. In January we were married and little did we know that our lives were about to get turned upside down.

We had no honeymoon because it was an extremely cold winter and the week before our wedding the pipes had frozen and burst at the place we were suppose to stay. The wedding was beautifully planned from the icicles lights to snowflakes with a snowflake wedding cake. However, when you have too many hands in anything something is bound to go wrong and the way everything happened that night I should have known from the start it was going to be a struggle. After the wedding it was time for our dances and all the fun festivities. But when we went to change into more comfortable clothing someone decided to start cleaning up. Wedding cake got thrown into the trash, we didn’t even get a slice and we never finished out festivities. But since everything got trashed we decided to pack it up and just got home.

It was cold and raining and we had not driven out together to the church. So when I got into the Toyota ready for home, I forgot to wait for one very important thing before Samantha and I left! Yep!! I left the groom at the church! When he realized I was gone; he was already locked out of the building and it was freezing and pouring rain. When I drove up into the driveway at home I said “oh crap”! Samantha asked me what was wrong and I told her I left my husband at the church! I immediately realized he had brought his vehicle home at some point and I didn’t know it. My parents had followed me home to take items from the wedding so I sent my dad to pick him up. Boy I felt like a dog and I could never live that one down. I can only imagine now how he must have felt!

Being married was an adjustment since I had been alone for almost 10 years. Trying to get use to someone being around all the time was a little tough but I was happy to be married and have someone with me. I knew that I married too quickly but I was going to try my best. A few weeks after our wedding one morning I got up and couldn’t use my right arm. All the painting that we had done had caused extreme pain in my arm, neck and shoulder. After being referred to several specialist; I was diagnosed with osteoarthritis, the neurologist said my spine looked like a 7o something year olds, and I had bone spurs and disk herniation’s. Now here I am not able to go to work for a while, newly married, dealing with pain, being put on medications for the pain, going to physical therapy, then to pain management for steroid injections. At first it was my lower back; then after my back surgery and issues flared up again I had to have the injections in my neck. But anyway with everything going on I was put on several medications that I eventually got hooked on. But before that let me back up. During the time I was trying to find out what was going on and trying to get well. It was about a year before they ever did the first surgery trying to keep from operating. I was depressed, going through menopause, gaining weight due to the steroids, and just extremely unhappy as I was so use to being able to be on the go. Needless to say my depression had an effect on him and I wasn’t the most pleasant of people when I was hurting.

My then youngest step-daughter dropped out of college and begged to come home. I gave her my mobile home to live in and she stayed there for a while but soon she was in our home. I could feel the tension; the jealousy and it was difficult especially since I was sick. However, I know now that I didn’t’ make things any easier for us. I was selfish and wanted him all to myself and didn’t want to share. But unfortunately I felt that is exactly how his girls felt too. And I understand it now because he was all they had since their mom died when then were young. I didn’t understand at that time. I had a vision of how marriage was to be and it wasn’t going that way. Reality is a lot different from what we can dream up.

There was an incident that took place and he was being cussed at by his daughter and I didn’t like it so I took up for him. Not wanting to see her talk ugly to him, I intervened and almost hit her when she called me a _ _ _ Bitch. As head of the house and her father and out of respect for both of them I should have allowed him to handle it. I was wrong and I am not proud of what I did by no means. This was the start of a difficult few years as I had put him in a difficult position between his daughter and myself. I was an adult but I sure didn’t act like it as you will see as my story continues next week. He is a good man with beautiful girls but there was a lot I just didn’t understand at that time and my anger grew even deeper!

Praise God I am not who I use to be!

****Ephesians 5:21 (NIV) Submit to one another out of reverence for Christ.

****Colossians 3:18-19 (AMP) Wives, be subject to your husbands (out of respect for their position as protector, and their accountability to God) as is proper and fitting in the Lord. Husbands, love your wives (with an affectionate, sympathetic, selfless love that always seeks the best for them) and do not be embittered or resentful toward them (because of the responsibilities of marriage).

****Philippians 2:4 (AMP) Do not merely look out for your own personal interests, but also for the interests of others.

To God Be All The Glory, Forever!….Amen!

XOXOXO,

Donna

 

Mother (A Poem for my Mama in Honor of Her on Mother’s Day)

MOTHER

M is for the moments you held me tight showing mercy, grace & love even when I didn’t act right.

O is for the times I was oblivious but yet  you loved me still as I never want to forget.

T is for teaching me about working hard and giving me advice so I could stand strong & to support myself in this life.

H is for helping me when I couldn’t help myself; for holding my hand to gently guide me along and teaching me to stand.

E is for every moment that you encouraged me to do my best without your pep talks and shoulder to cry on when I was just a child I wouldn’t know how to encourage the rest.

R is for the Respect due you that I often have failed to give for your beauty shines through with every day that you live!

You are truly an amazing Mom; a wonderful person! God knew I would be difficult and hard to handle so He blessed me with a strong, loving and beautiful woman to handle me. I am definitely not the perfect daughter; but thank you for giving birth to me and raising me the best you could. I am truly thankful and blessed to have you as my Mother!  I Love You Mama! 

 

May God watch over you day & night and fill you with an everlasting joy, peace and love that you so deserve.                      

I Love You to Heaven & Back Forever & Ever!

Your Daughter, Donna

****Proverbs 31:25 (NIV) She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.

****Exodus 20:12 (NIV) “Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the Lord your God is giving you.”    

 ****Ephesians 6:2 (NIV) “Honor your father and mother” -which is the first commandant with a promise

Happy Mother’s Day!

XOXOXO,

Donna

@truelovewalk.com

 

The Raging War Within – Part 2

My hopes and desires as I share with you is that God the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit receive all the glory. And that my sharing will help you to understand the attacks of satan are real and that we have all the power over him. But we must remember that in the midst of the storm; God is our refuge and He is our avenger. As we draw neigh to God and hide His word in our hearts; we learn to use the authority we have been given to command satan to get behind thee in Jesus name.  Jesus was tempted and we will be too, for we are no better than our teacher; the key is to not bend, stay focused keeping those strong roots and use the weapons of our warfare.     2 Corinthians 10

In a recent church sermon; Doctor Barclay stated that the devil will chase us to our graves. The spiritual world is real. And satan says that we will be back with him due to the fact that many Christians have denied that the devil is real and they are out in the world again. Satan sends his demons to steal our money, our health, our family, our friends, our ministry, etc. The demons job is to pound us like sifting wheat to discourage us and cause us to abandon our walk with God. Satan will pull any trick possible to deceive and seduce us to break a hedge; therefore giving him permission to come into our life to break us and our family.

Last week I shared with you that the fiery darts of the enemy were out to destroy my walk with God. And that there were three confirmations that I received before I knew I was to definitely speak at the revival. The first confirmation was on the day I was asked to speak (March 14th) at 5:41 pm my friend Keith posted on Facebook “It is time for you to ARISE and to walk in that which I have called you to walk in, Know that I have called you for such a time as this, Thus saith the Lord”. The second confirmation was a picture on Facebook stating,  “Stop talking yourself our of your Blessings” because I was scared and didn’t want to speak. Then on Thursday morning (March 16th) I read 2 Timothy 4:1-5…. “Preach the Word”. Once I got to work on Thursday, I looked at my devotional calendar for Sunday’s date (March 19th – the day I would give my testimony) and it read: “God has great plans for you. He has important things He wants you to do. And He is preparing you for your destiny right now. But you have to take steps of obedience in order to get there. And you have to trust that He knows the way and wont hurt you in the process.” Wow, has He not let me know that I am to move forward or what?!!  So I wrote Mr. Clifton and agreed to speak at the revival, then I became really sick causing me to miss church that night and work on Friday. I was in bed all day Friday and Saturday then on Sunday morning  still sick and unable to sleep; I woke up at 4:00 am. I prayed and started reading in the Bible. Then when I looked on Facebook I saw a post that read, “It’s working in your favor. You may not see it yet but a way is being made. Mind blowing blessings are on the way. Expect doors to be opened!” (@TonyGaskins). Those blessings were on the way that night as people were set free from bondage after hearing my testimony.

I definitely knew I was to speak at that revival at Community Church. But as I said afterwards those fiery darts came bountifully. I missed church several times due to sickness; even having to have someone cover the nursery for me one day. Then someone tried to convince me that my beliefs were wrong and that my standards were too high. They stated that they had studied theology and that marriage was nothing more than a piece of paper. In their belief sex was ok as long as two people truly loved one another. When I refused to agree with their beliefs it was almost as if every other area of my life was attacked.  I was told that I was trying to earn my way into Heaven by being good. And I felt as if I was being put down for everything that I had been doing for God due to comments that were made. After a few weeks of hearing this; I started to question everything that I was doing. Had God really called me to work in the nursery, to write or be a part of Emerge Ministries!?? I wasn’t sure anymore and could not think straight or function normally. My mind was clouded and I was stressed and overwhelmed.  It seemed I could do nothing right! I had started to believe the lies of the enemy and I broke that hedge with my doubts of who God had called me to be and what I was to do for Him.

The next thing that happened was I wrote a blog post titled “Desiring to Be Loved in the Brokenness.” With that particular post I failed to pray before I wrote it or even before I published it as I was babysitting that weekend and was in a hurry and I wasn’t the most pleasant of persons. I lost my cool when I was writing it. Since then, I remembered something Pastor Joyce has always told me; “If it is of God then there will be peace”. There was no peace that night for me and that post was hurtful to my parents. A comment that I had included appeared as if I wasn’t loved as a child and that is far from the truth as my parents have always loved me. People show love in different ways but people want to be shown in different ways. However the wording in that post came across wrong.  I never meant to hurt anyone; but the enemy came in and caused chaos within my family. My mom was so hurt that it took over a week before she could talk to me and I don’t blame her. Not having her talk to me was extremely devastating. And now I realize all of this was an attack to bring me down; and down I was.

Two days after the post an incident happened at work and to this day I still do not know what happened. My co-worker was extremely snappy towards me when I spoke to her and she became very distant from me the rest of the week. I don’t have a clue as to what was up, but that week was extremely rotten and a lot of fiery darts were being thrown my way by satan and his demons.  With so much going on my body tensed up causing pain all over and anxiety and depression was beginning to overtake me. I felt as if I was not going to be able to continue with anything. I wanted to walk away from my job and completely give up on writing this blog and writing for Emerge Ministries. I knew I was dying mentally, emotionally and spiritually and reached out in a text for prayer to two very precious ladies in my life.  Praise God the next week was a much needed spring break. God gave me time to be alone to repent, refocus and return to my secret place with Him.

…..Exodus 20:12 (NLT) – “Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the LORD your God is giving you.

However, before spring break could hit I spoke with a friend on the phone in whom I cried on. They were trying to explain to me to not take stuff personal and not allow people to get to me; but sensitive me don’t work that way. However, I think what upset me the most is when I told them my mom wouldn’t talk to me; they didn’t wait to hear that it was my fault. The term used was “screw them” and to me this is so wrong on so many levels. The Fifth Commandant says we are to honor our parents so of course I didn’t agree with my friend but said nothing; instead I gave it to God and prayed. But then again as I said, my friend didn’t wait to hear what had happened. I know they had my best interest at heart and I understand this now. But I have come to realize that sometimes when we desire to help others; we may be too quick to speak and perhaps we (myself included) need to listen more.  So dealing with this and everything else, I was a complete and total wreck.

….Matthew 12:37 – “For by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned.”

Spring break week arrived and I spent time outside and at the beach. God and I had many conversations that week and things started looking better. My mom called me back after I left her a message and I went to visit her. Returning to work the next week; things were fine and dandy between my co-worker and myself and have been since. Out of all the 7 1/2 years I have been there; this was the first time anything like this had happened. But when one thing doesn’t go satan’s way then he tries another as he has attacked my health and my pocketbook. But praise God for He made a way!

I declare the manifestation of healing to my body for I was healed over 2,000 years ago. God says in Mark 5:34 that my faith has made me whole in Jesus Name, Amen!

When satan hits your finances, health, family and ministry; he is testing your faith and your foundation in Christ. My riding mower tore up but my awesome nephew and brother repaired it for me. Then my AC went out on my 2004 Toyota Highlander but praise God one window will still roll down.  It went out after I spoke with the Impact Girls (young girls) group at church about the importance of prayer. And I explained to them how Samantha’s prayers at such an early age were used to change my life and lead me to salvation; affording me a personal relationship with my Heavenly Father. And that if she had not prayed for me, I would not be here today.

Satan came after my finances when I had to pay for my home AC repair, increase in insurance and lawn mower repair;  but God provided! Then Samantha was blessed with a full time position in her dream job. God still providing!  Satan’s attacks were physically, mentally, emotionally, financially, with relationships including family, friends, ministry and work. Although things were extremely tough during this time, it’s ok because within a month I grew in God, standing on His Word in faith. The enemy tried to get me off the course that God has for me because he wants only to destroy me. He just hasn’t realized he is a defeated foe.

I may have had clouded perception and fell for a moment; but praise God I realized the trick of the enemy before he completely destroyed me. I’ve grown in Christ and was able to stand on the Word and keep myself pure; the old me would have never realized what was happening. I praise God for He carried me through the storms and I came out stronger and wiser. Through all of this my mind was clouded but praise God I realized the attack of the enemy and didn’t spiral down as I had in the past but I got back up, quickly! Having God in or out of our life can make a  difference, just as the difference is in night and day.

The scriptures I spoke over myself after I realized I was under spiritual attack are:

Ephesians 6:16 – I can quench all the fiery darts of the enemy with the shield of faith.

Philippians 4:13 – I can do all things through Christ Jesus.

James 1:22,25 – I am a doer of the Word and blessed in my actions.

1 Corinthians 6:19 – I am the temple of the Holy Spirit, I am not my own.

Deuteronomy 28:13 – I am the head and not the tail; I am above only and not beneath.

Deuteronomy 28:15-68  & Galatians 3:13 – I am redeemed from the curse of sin, sickness, and poverty.

Colossians 2:7 – I am firmly rooted built up, established in my faith and overflowing with gratitude.

Psalm 66:8 & 2 Timothy 1:9 – I am called of God to be the voice of His Praise.

Isaiah 53:5 & 1 Peter 2:24 – I am healed by the strips of Jesus.

James 4:7 – I am submitted to God, and the devil flees from me because I resist him in the name of Jesus.

2 Timothy 1:7 – For god has not given us a spirit of fear; but of power, love and a sound mind.

Galatians 2:20 – It is not I who live but Christ lives in me.

Sharing such intimate details of my life is extremely difficult. However, I pray that with me being real and being so transparent that it will show you that even a seasoned Christian can fall prey to the schemes of the enemy. We must stay in the Word and communicate with our Father to keep that personal relationship intimate. Do not allow the things of this world to keep you so busy that you loose focus of what is important! With all that I have shared now you see that for over a month the raging war within was a battle of the spirits. Satan once again tried to stop me by distracting me……But God!!!

Ephesians 6:12 (AMP)- For our struggle is not against flesh and blood [contending only with physical opponents], but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this [present] darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly [supernatural] places.

To God the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit be All the Glory!

Much Love to you all,

Donna

Remember God Loves You! (John 3:16)