Lately I have had a lot on my mind and been in prayer about things. But today God set me free from unforgiveness that I had been holding on to in which I didn’t realize I was. Satan will do anything and everything to kill, steal and destroy to take you out of the game. He will use the people or things that are dearest to you to cut your legs out from under you. However, I know who wins in the end; God does!
Ever since I was a child I’ve always heard the saying sticks and stones may break your bones, but words will never hurt you. But I am here to tell you that this is a lie straight from the pit of Hell! Out of our mouth we speak blessings and curses; life or death, depending on what we say. And name calling, talking about others behind their back, critical comments, belittling, disrespectful speech, and throwing someone’s past up are definitely curses. And when doing this we speak death and destruction to that person. And before giving my life to God I was so guilty of these things and even after; until I gained wisdom.
We must be careful with our words and how we speak for not everyone is capable of letting things roll off. If we all could, that would be wonderful. But everyone is different and everyone has a different background and handle things totally different. Hurtful words when not released to God, will play over and over in a person’s mind. Often times we find that some traumatic event from a person’s childhood has left them scarred. And we can’t look at someone and tell what they have gone through. A person who appears to be strong could possibly be the person that needs an ear to listen, a shoulder to cry on, and someone to care enough to pray for and with them. I know, because I have been that person!
When you are hurt from rejection and critical comments, etc. there is such a deep pain that haunts you constantly. It’s like a reminder telling you that you aren’t good enough; leading to depression. And when you grow up feeling this way and go through one relationship after another and loosing friends who tell you that you aren’t rich enough, after a while you really believe that you are insignificant and unlovable. When your life from childhood through adulthood has been filled with so many negative and emotional happenings; there is a sense of inadequacy, feeling not good enough, and as if everything you do isn’t good enough. And believe me growing up this way was extremely hard. If I had not run from God all these years then my life would have been different, but praise God my life is different now!
Joyce Meyer has a book written called Battlefield of the Mind. That is exactly where the battle is and not in the heart. But the battle between the head and the heart is spiritual warfare. Depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts are straight from Hell and without God we don’t know how to overcome them. And sometimes it gets to the point where you just want to run away or give up. Satan is the one who gives us these thoughts; it’s his way of trying to take us out because he knows God has a huge plan for our lives. It’s been 18 years since someone near and dear to me decided they couldn’t take anymore. I don’t know what was going on but I do know that I too had been down that road of thinking life would be better for everyone if I were just out of the way. But the truth is, everyone isn’t better for they are left dealing with the pain and heartache of loosing someone they love. Unfortunately as the suicidal person; you don’t feel loved because your mind has become so clouded you can’t see straight! God tells us that we can have victory in Him. If the thought doesn’t line up with the Word of God, then reject it and believe and think only on what God’s Word says.
****2 Corinthians 10:4-5 (KJV) For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds; Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ.
The gathering together of the saints is to uplift, encourage and to pray for one another. Not everyone has family that encourages and prays for them. It’s extremely important to stay plugged into a body of believers as we all need one another on this journey. Life can become extremely difficult at times and what I have realized is that Satan wants us to give up, walk away and be desolate; giving him an advantage. If he can separate us from the saints then who will speak life into us?
****Ephesians 6:18 (MSG) In the same way, prayer is essential in this ongoing warfare. Pray hard and long. Pray for your brothers and sisters. Keep your eyes open. Keep each other’s spirits up so that no one falls behind or drops out.
Intercessory prayer is extremely important! And we must keep check on our brothers and sisters for 1Peter 5:8 tells us that we must be alert and of sober mind. Our enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Let us as families and church families be someone that others can come to feeling acceptance and love. We all need someone, but I am here to tell you that a person with depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts need your prayers desperately. I know for I have been in those shoes and without the prayers of my Pastors and my daughter I wouldn’t be alive today. It could be your love and prayers that set things in motion for true freedom as was in my case.
If you happen to be thinking right now; perhaps I have been that person that has been critical, judgmental, or perhaps thrown someone’s past in their face just ask for forgiveness from them and our Father. This life is too short to walk around making others feel unworthy. Perhaps the journey of life for that person has put them into that place where they are at a breaking point. Would you want to think that your comment could have possibly been the straw that broke the camels back? When satan has us bound; it’s difficult to see a way out when you keep getting pounded. Speak life to this person and not death. Pray for others instead of talking about them or judging them. And if they come into the church dressed inappropriately; then at least they are in the church and God will deal with everything else! Don’t reject them for they may never want to set foot in church again or have anything to do with God! Would you want to have their blood on your hands? We are all called into the ministry, not to just sit in church. We are to win souls for God’s Kingdom, not push them away.
When people are down right rude, disrespectful, throwing up things &people from our past, belittling us or even talking about us behind our back; we are to forgive them! Holding on to the bitterness, hurt, hate and pain only harms us and steals our joy; sometimes leading us into that depression, anxiety and into those suicidal thoughts. And we must remember its not the person but what is inside that is causing them to do these things. But to have life and life more abundantly; what we have to do is forgive them, pray for a heart change for you and them and have faith in God for He will work all things to the good of those that love Him. Faith makes all things possible; although not easy! Forgiveness is a choice! If we don’t forgive; then our Father can’t forgive us.
Pastor Jim has shared with us several times a poem by Pastor Roys Hicks, Sr..”There are two natures within my breast, One is cursed and one is blessed. One I love, and one I hate. The one I feed will dominate. This is so true as the battle of the spirits rage within us. We have the choice to be our old self or the new creation with Christ. Although our flesh is under our feet; the war of the spirits rage. And if we aren’t careful the flesh will rise at an impromptu time. Will you allow God to move and use you to speak life into those around you and into those who are hurting and running from Him? Everyone needs someone in their corner and I thank God that He blessed me with my spiritual family!
If you are hurting today and need someone to pray with you, please comment with your contact information and I will contact you. I know what it feels like to feel all alone, unworthy, rejected and unloved; as we can feel this even in the midst of a crowd. You don’t have to walk around feeling unwanted and unloved. I love you but God loves you more and desires for you to have life more abundantly and with God ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! And He makes beauty from our ashes!!
****Matthew 11:28-30“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
To God Be All the Glory, Honor & Praise, Forever, Amen!
Much Love to You All!