As I sit and write tonight; I have so much on my mind. Forgive me for not being consistent in my writing; however I actually started this post a month ago. And this past month has been difficult for my family and myself with a long road ahead of us. Please keep us in your prayers. I know that God has it all in His Hands. Through it all, it is well!
Now lets get to this post of a reality check!
While driving to work recently my check engine light came on and I looked up into the sky. Upon looking up I saw this one little dark blob of something but couldn’t tell what it was. At that moment I was reminded of the shooting in Las Vegas and how Jesus is watching. He is coming back soon and we must check ourselves and make sure that we’re ready. Check engine – check your heart! Revelations is being played out before us! Evil is running rampant in the world. We must check our hearts and get them right so we don’t get left behind.
***Proverbs 13:24 – (ISV)
Whoever does not discipline his son hates him, but whoever loves him is diligent to correct him.
Driving home a few weeks ago on Friday afternoon I got stuck behind a school bus. I noticed that the kid in the back seat was either middle school or high school age. I think they were perhaps on the way to a ball game. But what happened after getting stopped at the stop light was so heartbreaking and it made me think of the phrase “spare the rod- spoil the child”. This kid gave me the middle finger by placing his hand behind the seat in front of the back window. He did so as if he was afraid he would get caught if he placed his hand up higher. Then he put his face in the glass, stuck his tongue out at me and appeared to be laughing. I just blew him a kiss and said God please forgive him for he knows not what he does.
This kid had never seen me before and it made me think why would he do this to a total stranger. Then on the following Sunday the shooting in Las Vegas happened. I was reminded of all the evil happening around us with all of the lawlessness.
2 Timothy 3:1-5 describes exactly what is going on right now.
***2 Timothy 3:1-5 (NLT) –The Dangers of the Last Days
You should know this, Timothy, that in the last days there will be very difficult times. For people will love only themselves and their money. They will be boastful and proud, scoffing at God, disobedient to their parents, and ungrateful. They will consider nothing sacred. They will be unloving and unforgiving; they will slander others and have no self-control. They will be cruel and hate what is good. They will betray their friends, be reckless, be puffed up with pride, and love pleasure rather than God. They will act religious, but they will reject the power that could make them godly. Stay away from people like that!
Recently I’ve had someone approach me about my writings. It felt as if I was being criticized for writing my testimony in this blog. At least that is what I felt was happening but I think they were questioning my motives behind writing in both blogs. As I sit and think about the conversation we had; I can only think of the following answer. I wrote my testimony in this blog because God asked me to write it. I was not trying to promote me, but I was promoting God by telling the world where He brought me from. By sharing and writing my testimony it has not only given me a pure heart but has healed it as I have shared everything. I have nothing left to hide. It took a lot out of me to let people know the truth. No, I didn’t do it so God would love me because he already did. And I didn’t do it so that other people would love me, because that’s irrelevant. It doesn’t matter what people think of me or even if they like me; it only matters what God thinks and guess what… He loves me. He said I was to die for.
But as I sit here tonight, I am thinking perhaps God was reminding me to do things for the right reason. Sometimes we have good ideas; but perhaps at the wrong time. When we step outside of Gods plan and try to do it our-self; we become overloaded and stressed. Hence, a reality check – check my heart. What’s the motive….. Approval of others or Gods plan?
Someone said that I shouldn’t speak so much about the Holy Spirit because not everyone believes in the Holy Spirit. My response is this; I will not hide the Holy Spirit in anything that I do for it is by Him that I live and write. Ezekiel 36:26-27…. God has given me a new a heart and put a new spirit within me. You can’t hide what is within!
God has brought me too far in my life to not be thankful. And never will I try to hide the Holy Spirit in a corner or a back room. He shall have free reign in my life and in all my writings. I have been changed from the inside out. God has healed me, delivered me, and set me free from many demonic forces that plagued my life. Today I am free, never wanting to be that old me again!
I have a new realization of who I am in Christ. I don’t have to be the person that I use to be. I don’t have to live the way I use too and I don’t have to allow people to treat me the way that I allowed them to treat me over the years. Do to my lack of self-esteem and lack of confidence in myself; for years I didn’t want to be seen. I felt like I was not as good as others because I didn’t have materialistic things like everyone else. I now know that materialistic things don’t matter because money can’t buy the most precious gifts. But praise God I have discovered that I have one thing that nobody can take away from me. And that is my salvation, my love for God and God’s love for me. He is all I need!
As you have seen we are living in the last days. People are unloving, unholy, lovers of self, despisers of good, blasphemers, having a form of godliness but denying its power, etc.. From the Las Vegas shooting, to the more recent church shooting, to the kid on the school bus these are all signs of perilous times and men. And the fact that church folks feel we should deny the Holy Spirit freedom, is heart breaking. There are many confused by false doctrine. God tells us in 1 John 4:1 to test the spirits. He is watching just as I was reminded. Let’s check our hearts and make sure we are ready. We can’t straddle the fence; either we are for God or against Him! Which side are you on?
To God Be All the Glory, Honor & Praise!
Much Love to You All!