I pray that you all realize how difficult it is to be real with you and tell you about my ugliness. But God has let me know that through it all; many lives will be changed and that is why He asked me to start writing in the beginning. It is all for His Glory; it is nothing that I have done for I am so unworthy, but He loves me!
It is simply amazing how God tries to get our attention and tell us to prepare for storms; whether they are physical or spiritual. But unfortunately, in our busyness we fail to take even 10% each day and devote to God. There is fullness of joy and calmness in the presence of the Lord. But in order to experience this and to finish strong we have to start with a strong foundation. And to have this we must be grounded in the Word. The enemy is out to kill, steal and destroy and will do anything to knock us off our foundation; especially when he knows that God has a huge plan to use us for His kingdom.
Driving to work last Tuesday I was praying and asking God to please watch over us as the forecast was for ice and snow to hit our area on Wednesday. I was worried about my heater going out in my home because it had a hard time with the temps being so low the night before. The temperature was dropping as my unit ran; it was just simply too cold. I have gas logs but I was wondering how long my 100 lbs. LP bottle would last if the power were to go out. Millions of thoughts were invading my mind, but when I arrived at school it was cloudy and very cold. It was a bone chilling 15 degrees and it felt like 7 degrees. But as I walked up the breezeway, after praying at the flag pole; I heard a bird. It appeared to be extremely happy as it was singing. I thought wow, if that little bird can be this happy with it being this cold outside then we too should be happy through all of our trials.
God provides for the birds regardless of the weather and He will always provide for us. All of our needs will be met! But we become fleshly and fail to remember this, like I did. God was letting me know that He had this and that I had no need to worry. My heater had an extremely hard time keeping up but thanks to God and a small electric heater along with the unit; and using my gas logs part of the time, we have made it through. He kept our electricity on! Praise Him forever more!
Being so focused on the physical storm I was blind sided of the spiritual storm that was headed my way. And it’s the small foxes that spoil the vines! What I should have taken as a wonderful opportunity to dig deeper into Gods Word, in prayer, to write or even just have fun with my daughter turned into cabin fever and everything getting on my nerves. I was off of my daily routine of praying first, then getting into the Word, etc.. Not spending that time with God first thing in the morning was a devastating choice.
God tells us to be angry but sin not! (Ephesians 4:26 – 32) In my transparency I have to admit I lost my cool! I know you are thinking but she says she’s a Christian and she lost her cool? But Christians are suppose to be perfect! Well I am here to tell you, we aren’t! Just because we are saved doesn’t mean we do not sin! There was only one perfect one and He died on the cross for you and me and His name is Jesus!
I lost my cool because I let my guard down and wasn’t in prayer or in the Word as I needed to be. Pastor Jim constantly tells us how vital it is to stay in the Word and in prayer, this is our lifeline. See God uses the Word and the preacher to tell us to get prepared for the storms in life, for they will come. We are to not only be hearers of the Word, but we are to be doers of it! However, within our fleshly self; we stay so occupied with the things of the world that we put God on a back burner. In my last post I stated that my flame for God had become low because I had not been spending time with God as I should. Being preoccupied by sickness in the family, work, etc..Well that slow fade will put you in a place where it’s hard to climb back up. And believe me trials will come whether it be a test to determine where we are in our walk or an attack from satan. Either way if you are not on your game, your feet will get knocked out from under you.
We like things neat and orderly in our home, but last week I had a hard time dealing with things being moved from where I put them or at least where I thought I had. I lost my cool with my kid thus blaming her for things she didn’t do but I thought she had. And after I did I was so angry with myself for doing so. Thoughts came rushing through that I can’t live this way being ill with her and angry. I have to be totally honest, thoughts came that she would be better off without me and I told her so. However, she wrapped her arms around me as I cried and she prayed over me. I once again, asked for forgiveness from her and God. I couldn’t believe that this had once again returned; but as I calmed down and thought about things, not spending quality time with God means I can’t become like Him. Living as the world lives; then I become as the world and give satan a foothold.
At 3:00 a.m., God woke me and I reached over for my phone to see the time. However, I looked into Facebook for a minute and what I saw was one of my boys threatening suicide. I knew right then that God woke me to reach out to him. I have since realized that the enemy was invading my thoughts earlier that day because he doesn’t want me to help others who are going through what I have overcome! I just have to keep satan under my feet and remind him that I have overcome the desire to take my life! We overcome by the Blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony!
In a church service on July 10, 2016 Kelly stated that there is a purpose for what we go through and that we shall come out better on the other side. Our perspective will be our prison or our passport! He said the devil doesn’t’ attack apathetic people; meaning those who are not doing anything to get close to God. My desire is to be close to God but I lost track of my way when I put the things of the world first. I have to remember who I am and to whom I belong. God asked me to start writing this blog for Him as a ministry to help others. Satan has tried everything possible to stop me from writing; even to the point of getting me side-tracked with many things when worry fell onto me about writing elsewhere. Pastor Jim stated in his message yesterday that if it is of God, then there is no pressure but if it seems overbearing; then we are not letting God do it. Mr. Joey said once that we can have good ideas; just the wrong timing. And believe me; I know this all too well as my thinking gets me into a lot of trouble! But God !!
This physical ice and snow storm that we have had is extremely cold; but I tell you our walk with God can become colder when we sin and do not deal with it, neglecting the Holy Spirit and the things of God such as prayer, the Word, church, etc.. One good thing about all of this is that you can’t grow too cold unless you tell God you are not returning! He is constantly and gently calling us to return home, trying to reach us before the storms of life consume us. Not once last Tuesday did I think about God trying to warn me of the spiritual storm that I was going to face because I was so focused on the natural. But it is in the supernatural realm that we must stand and be ready for battle, for satan is forevermore lurking around trying to throw us out of the game. 1 Peter 5:8 (MSG) says: “Keep a cool head. Stay alert, the devil is poised to pounce, and would like nothing better than to catch you napping. Keep your guard up. You’re not the only ones plunged into these hard times. It’s the same with Christians all over the world. So keep a firm grip on the faith. The suffering won’t last forever. It won’t be long before this generous God who has great plans for us in Christ –eternal and glorious plans they are!—will have you put together and on your feet for good. He gets the last word; yes, He does.”
Learning is a process and building a strong foundation in Christ will be time consuming and yes, we have to be different as God has called us to be so (Romans 12:2) I don’t know about you but I want to be completely obedient to Our Father regardless the cost because I want to see lives changed, addictions broken off, families and marriages restored and the prodigals to come home. Even if it means giving up my desires and dreams to do the work of my Father; then so be it for He knows better than I!
My prayer is that many of you will see you are not alone. I have heard so many say they don’t want to step foot into a church because the Christians of the church are living their life the same as the world. They see no difference in the churched and the unchurched! And this should not be so! Regardless of what you see; seek a relationship with God. For we work out our own salvation, we aren’t to follow another person but to follow God! The walk with God is not an easy road; but so well worth it….eternity is an extremely long time! We can have peace, joy and love like we have never experienced; but there is a price to pay. Remember satan is only attacking because we are valuable to God. Thieves don’t break into empty houses!
Although I have had many trials in my life; I brought most of it on myself with my decisions that I made without asking God first. I can’t stress the importance of a personal relationship with the Trinity (God the Father, the Son & the Holy Spirit). When I ran from God; my life became more devastating to a point that I no longer wanted to live. Satan would love nothing more than to put me there again; but God has another plan for my life!
So in closing, God wants us to remember just as the birds sing during those cold dark times; that is how we too get through the dark frigid storms in the supernatural realm. Use what is loose to shake off the shackles of what is bound. Our praise will break our chains, just like Paul and Silas; praying and singing hymns to God will shake the foundations of the prison that overtakes us and our chains will be broken! (Acts 16:16-40) He is so worthy to be praised.
If you are looking for a miracle; look in the mirror! You were created for greatness; never settle for less than Gods best! Praise your way through the storms and never compare yourself to another, as each persons walk is just that..their own. Keep digging into the fullness of God and all that He has for you. Don’t get side-tracked by the things of this world for they are temporary! Remember you are so loved!
To God Be All the Glory, Honor & Praise!
I love you, believe in you and call you blessed in Jesus Name!
Much Love to You,