Reality Check

As I sit and write tonight; I have so much on my mind. Forgive me for not being consistent in my writing; however I actually started this post a month ago. And this past month has been difficult for my family and myself with a long road ahead of us. Please keep us in your prayers. I know that God has it all in His Hands. Through it all, it is well!

Now lets get to this post of a reality check!

While driving to work recently my check engine light came on and I looked up into the sky. Upon looking up I saw this one little dark blob of something but couldn’t tell what it was. At that moment I was reminded of the shooting in Las Vegas and how Jesus is watching. He is coming back soon and we must check ourselves and make sure that we’re ready. Check engine – check your heart! Revelations is being played out before us! Evil is running rampant in the world. We must check our hearts and get them right so we don’t get left behind.

***Proverbs 13:24 – (ISV)
Whoever does not discipline his son hates him, but whoever loves him is diligent to correct him.

Driving home a few weeks ago on Friday afternoon I got stuck behind a school bus. I noticed that the kid in the back seat was either middle school or high school age. I think they were perhaps on the way to a ball game. But what happened after getting stopped at the stop light was so heartbreaking and it made me think of the phrase “spare the rod- spoil the child”. This kid gave me the middle finger by placing his hand behind the seat in front of the back window. He did so as if he was afraid he would get caught if he placed his hand up higher. Then he put his face in the glass, stuck his tongue out at me and appeared to be laughing. I just blew him a kiss and said God please forgive him for he knows not what he does.

This kid had never seen me before and it made me think why would he do this to a total stranger. Then on the following Sunday the shooting in Las Vegas happened. I was reminded of all the evil happening around us with all of the lawlessness.
2 Timothy 3:1-5 describes exactly what is going on right now.

***2 Timothy 3:1-5 (NLT) –The Dangers of the Last Days
You should know this, Timothy, that in the last days there will be very difficult times. For people will love only themselves and their money. They will be boastful and proud, scoffing at God, disobedient to their parents, and ungrateful. They will consider nothing sacred. They will be unloving and unforgiving; they will slander others and have no self-control. They will be cruel and hate what is good. They will betray their friends, be reckless, be puffed up with pride, and love pleasure rather than God. They will act religious, but they will reject the power that could make them godly. Stay away from people like that!

Recently I’ve had someone approach me about my writings. It felt as if I was being criticized for writing my testimony in this blog. At least that is what I felt was happening but I think they were questioning my motives behind writing in both blogs. As I sit and think about the conversation we had; I can only think of the following answer. I wrote my testimony in this blog because God asked me to write it. I was not trying to promote me, but I was promoting God by telling the world where He brought me from. By sharing and writing my testimony it has not only given me a pure heart but has healed it as I have shared everything. I have nothing left to hide. It took a lot out of me to let people know the truth. No, I didn’t do it so God would love me because he already did. And I didn’t do it so that other people would love me, because that’s irrelevant. It doesn’t matter what people think of me or even if they like me; it only matters what God thinks and guess what… He loves me.  He said I was to die for.

But as I sit here tonight, I am thinking perhaps God was reminding me to do things for the right reason. Sometimes we have good ideas; but perhaps at the wrong time. When we step outside of Gods plan and try to do it our-self; we become overloaded and stressed. Hence, a reality check – check my heart. What’s the motive….. Approval of others or Gods plan? 

Someone said that I shouldn’t speak so much about the Holy Spirit because not everyone believes in the Holy Spirit. My response is this; I will not hide the Holy Spirit in anything that I do for it is by Him that I live and write. Ezekiel 36:26-27…. God has given me a new a heart and put a new spirit within me. You can’t hide what is within! 

God has brought me too far in my life to not be thankful. And never will I try to hide the Holy Spirit in a corner or a back room. He shall have free reign in my life and in all my writings. I have been changed from the inside out. God has healed me, delivered me, and set me free from many demonic forces that plagued my life. Today I am free, never wanting to be that old me again!

I have a new realization of who I am in Christ. I don’t have to be the person that I use to be. I don’t have to live the way I use too and I don’t have to allow people to treat me the way that I allowed them to treat me over the years. Do to my lack of self-esteem and lack of confidence in myself; for years I didn’t want to be seen. I felt like I was not as good as others because I didn’t have materialistic things like everyone else. I now know that materialistic things don’t matter because money can’t buy the most precious gifts. But praise God I have discovered that I have one thing that nobody can take away from me. And that is my salvation, my love for God and God’s love for me. He is all I need!

 As you have seen we are living in the last days. People are unloving, unholy, lovers of self, despisers of good, blasphemers, having a form of godliness but denying its power, etc.. From the Las Vegas shooting, to the more recent church shooting, to the kid on the school bus these are all signs of perilous times and men. And the fact that church folks feel we should deny the Holy Spirit freedom, is heart breaking. There are many confused by false doctrine. God tells us in 1 John 4:1 to test the spirits. He is watching just as I was reminded. Let’s check our hearts and make sure we are ready. We can’t straddle the fence; either we are for God or against Him! Which side are you on? 

To God Be All the Glory, Honor & Praise!

Much Love to You All!


True Love Will Wait

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about girls, young women and older women who are single and desire love. At 51 years of age I have discovered there’s a right way and a wrong way to find that love we so desire. Unfortunately in my life I took a lot of wrong turns and did a lot of the wrong things in search of it. And look where it got me, I’m single and praying for a good Christian man after three divorces. If you are like myself and have already indulged into sexual relations, just know it’s not to late to repent,  turn from it and be made new. I am pure in Gods eyes and you can be too!

Satan will use your weakness to temp you as long as you let your flesh control you. But once you ask God into your life it becomes temptation or a test. If you pass the test there is promotion to the next level  but if you fail it  you will have to repeat that test again . God uses test to help us grow and trust me I failed several times. But God!!

***1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Ladies while we are still out in the world we see no wrong with the things that we do. From laying on the couch snuggling, having sex, sleeping around with multiple partners, getting drunk and/ or high partying it up, living the life; what have we got to lose!!?? We have everything to lose!!

We lose our self-respect, the respect of others, our self-esteem, a good name, etc and we are left with emotional and mental scars. We become known as a tramp, slut or whore. When you grow up and have a daughter of your own do you want her to live the life that you’re living?

I get it! I totally understand for I wanted someone to love me so badly that I gave in to the flesh more times than I care to count. But ladies keep yourself for your husband and let your marriage night be a night of special memories! Give your husband the special gift of an untainted you! I sure wish I had waited for the man that God had chosen for me! But you see I was looking at the outside of the man and not at the heart, and I missed out on a very good man in my life, he was my best friend. If I had waited and kept myself my life today would have been so different!

When you’re out in the world  and single once you ever give yourself to one man it becomes easier to give yourself to another, then another and another. And every time you give yourself away you give a piece of your heart away too. I get it  you do it because you think they love you and that you love them, but the truth is if you really love one another  you will wait. True Love Waits!

Believe me guys talk, and then it becomes a game between them to see who is the next one to score. Ladies be no one’s game, please keep yourself pure! And do not try to hold on to someone who is disrespectful to you or to your parents! Is this really what you would want for the rest of your life!??

I have learned that guys will do and say anything; even try to make a play of words of the Bible to convince you that it’s okay to have sex outside of marriage. But I’m here to tell you that it is not okay! Having sex before marriage destroys the inner you leaving you empty with no peace and  joy, only that feeling of fulfillment at the time of climax.

You are a rare jewel, priceless! Don’t sell yourself short by being so available. Anything worth having is worth waiting for.

I use to think I had to have a man in my life. And I do! But there is only one man that I need in my life and that’s God. I use to feel like I couldn’t live unless I had a man in my life and I’m absolutely right; but it’s not a man that’s here on Earth!  God is all I need! This doesn’t mean I don’t want my husband,  because believe me I do!  But I desire the husband that God desires for me to have. I want my soulmate to help push me forward in this calling on my life and me to help push his. With the two of us serving God side by side, hand in hand, showing others what He can do in the life of an individual, a marriage and in families giving all glory and honor to God.

Give yourself time to heal between relationships. If you don’t, you will continue to make the same mistakes. You have to give your heart and your emotions  time to heal . And when God gives you that godly man in your life appreciate him, respect him, love him, honor him and cherish him. And men when God sends you that godly woman-your wife; love her, cherish her, respect her, appreciate her, take care of her and protect her.

Don’t be in a hurry to grow up, enjoy your childhood and grow closer to God as you grow older. I fully believe that if we honor God by keeping ourselves he will definitely honor us with the desires of our heart. We don’t have to be test driven because by honoring God I believe He will honor us and our marriage bed will be out of this world.

***Romans 12:2                         ***1 Peter 4:3.                           ***1 John 2:15-17                     *** 2 Timothy 4:3-4.   ***Hebrew 13:4.                     ***1 Corinthians 3:16-17

True Love Will Wait!

Much Love to You All,


My Hearts Prayer

Dear Heavenly Father, as I humbly come before you I thank you for coming to Earth as a human, dying on the cross a painful death and raising on the third day and sending our comforter the Holy Spirit. Father you said where two or more are gathered in your name and we ask according to your will it shall be done! So Father right now I ask that you embrace each and every person that is on my heart and every person that is hurting, sick , anxious, depressed, suicidal, lost, confused, in need, homeless, unloving, unlovable, bitter, angry, unforgiving, or resentful. Father I know it is your will that each of us come to know you as our personal Lord and Savior. And I know that you want to give us life and life more abundantly; and that you died on that cross to heal us from all sickness & disease and for our sins. So I ask Father that angels be petitioned to go and minister to every person that is in need of your touch right now. If they don’t know you as their Lord and Savior that tonight be the night that the Holy Spirit introduce them to Jesus, filling them with a peace and joy like they’ve never known.
Jesus, thank you for dying on the cross so that we might live. And I ask Holy Spirit to come and fill the voids in their heart, as they accept Christ as their Lord and Savior. Father thank you for salvation, healing, restoration, and reconciliation and thank you for the manifestation of all these things. In Jesus Name, Amen!

To God be all the glory, honor & praise, forever!

Much Love to you all,


Sticks and Stones

Lately I have had a lot on my mind and been in prayer about things. But today God set me free from unforgiveness that I had been holding on to in which I didn’t realize I was. Satan will do anything and everything to kill, steal and destroy to take you out of the game. He will use the people or things that are dearest to you to cut your legs out from under you. However, I know who wins in the end; God does!

Ever since I was a child I’ve always heard the saying sticks and stones may break your bones, but words will never hurt you. But I am here to tell you that this is a lie straight from the pit of Hell! Out of our mouth we speak blessings and curses; life or death, depending on what we say. And name calling, talking about others behind their back, critical comments, belittling, disrespectful speech, and throwing someone’s past up are definitely curses. And when doing this we speak death and destruction to that person. And before giving my life to God I was so guilty of these things and even after; until I gained wisdom.

We must be careful with our words and how we speak for not everyone is capable of letting things roll off. If we all could, that would be wonderful. But everyone is different and everyone has a different background and handle things totally different. Hurtful words when not released to God, will play over and over in a person’s mind. Often times we find that some traumatic event from a person’s childhood has left them scarred. And we can’t look at someone and tell what they have gone through. A person who appears to be strong could possibly be the person that needs an ear to listen, a shoulder to cry on, and someone to care enough to pray for and with them. I know, because I have been that person!

When you are hurt from rejection and critical comments, etc. there is such a deep pain that haunts you constantly. It’s like a reminder telling you that you aren’t good enough; leading to depression. And when you grow up feeling this way and go through one relationship after another and loosing friends who tell you that you aren’t rich enough, after a while you really believe that you are insignificant and unlovable. When your life from childhood through adulthood has been filled with so many negative and emotional happenings; there is a sense of inadequacy, feeling not good enough, and as if everything you do isn’t good enough. And believe me growing up this way was extremely hard. If I had not run from God all these years then my life would have been different, but praise God my life is different now!

Joyce Meyer has a book written called Battlefield of the Mind. That is exactly where the battle is and not in the heart. But the battle between the head and the heart is spiritual warfare. Depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts are straight from Hell and without God we don’t know how to overcome them. And sometimes it gets to the point where you just want to run away or give up. Satan is the one who gives us these thoughts; it’s his way of trying to take us out because he knows God has a huge plan for our lives. It’s been 18 years since someone near and dear to me decided they couldn’t take anymore. I don’t know what was going on but I do know that I too had been down that road of thinking life would be better for everyone if I were just out of the way. But the truth is, everyone isn’t better for they are left dealing with the pain and heartache of loosing someone they love. Unfortunately as the suicidal person; you don’t feel loved because your mind has become so clouded you can’t see straight! God tells us that we can have victory in Him. If the thought doesn’t line up with the Word of God, then reject it and believe and think only on what God’s Word says.

****2 Corinthians 10:4-5 (KJV) For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds; Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ.

The gathering together of the saints is to uplift, encourage and to pray for one another. Not everyone has family that encourages and prays for them. It’s extremely important to stay plugged into a body of believers as we all need one another on this journey. Life can become extremely difficult at times and what I have realized is that Satan wants us to give up, walk away and be desolate; giving him an advantage. If he can separate us from the saints then who will speak life into us?

****Ephesians 6:18 (MSG) In the same way, prayer is essential in this ongoing warfare. Pray hard and long. Pray for your brothers and sisters. Keep your eyes open. Keep each other’s spirits up so that no one falls behind or drops out.

Intercessory prayer is extremely important! And we must keep check on our brothers and sisters for 1Peter 5:8 tells us that we must be alert and of sober mind. Our enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Let us as families and church families be someone that others can come to feeling acceptance and love. We all need someone, but I am here to tell you that a person with depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts need your prayers desperately. I know for I have been in those shoes and without the prayers of my Pastors and my daughter I wouldn’t be alive today. It could be your love and prayers that set things in motion for true freedom as was in my case.

If you happen to be thinking right now; perhaps I have been that person that has been critical, judgmental, or perhaps thrown someone’s past in their face just ask for forgiveness from them and our Father. This life is too short to walk around making others feel unworthy. Perhaps the journey of life for that person has put them into that place where they are at a breaking point. Would you want to think that your comment could have possibly been the straw that broke the camels back? When satan has us bound; it’s difficult to see a way out when you keep getting pounded. Speak life to this person and not death. Pray for others instead of talking about them or judging them. And if they come into the church dressed inappropriately; then at least they are in the church and God will deal with everything else! Don’t reject them for they may never want to set foot in church again or have anything to do with God! Would you want to have their blood on your hands? We are all called into the ministry, not to just sit in church. We are to win souls for God’s Kingdom, not push them away.

When people are down right rude, disrespectful, throwing up things &people from our past, belittling us or even talking about us behind our back; we are to forgive them! Holding on to the bitterness, hurt, hate and pain only harms us and steals our joy; sometimes leading us into that depression, anxiety and into those suicidal thoughts. And we must remember its not the person but what is inside that is causing them to do these things. But to have life and life more abundantly; what we have to do is forgive them, pray for a heart change for you and them and have faith in God for He will work all things to the good of those that love Him. Faith makes all things possible; although not easy! Forgiveness is a choice! If we don’t forgive; then our Father can’t forgive us.

Pastor Jim has shared with us several times a poem by Pastor Roys Hicks, Sr..”There are two natures within my breast, One is cursed and one is blessed. One I love, and one I hate. The one I feed will dominate. This is so true as the battle of the spirits rage within us. We have the choice to be our old self or the new creation with Christ. Although our flesh is under our feet; the war of the spirits rage. And if we aren’t careful the flesh will rise at an impromptu time. Will you allow God to move and use you to speak life into those around you and into those who are hurting and running from Him? Everyone needs someone in their corner and I thank God that He blessed me with my spiritual family!

If you are hurting today and need someone to pray with you, please comment with your contact information and I will contact you. I know what it feels like to feel all alone, unworthy, rejected and unloved; as we can feel this even in the midst of a crowd. You don’t have to walk around feeling unwanted and unloved. I love you but God loves you more and desires for you to have life more abundantly and with God ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! And He makes beauty from our ashes!!

****Matthew 11:28-30“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

To God Be All the Glory, Honor & Praise, Forever, Amen!

Much Love to You All!


The Raging War Within – Part 2

My hopes and desires as I share with you is that God the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit receive all the glory. And that my sharing will help you to understand the attacks of satan are real and that we have all the power over him. But we must remember that in the midst of the storm; God is our refuge and He is our avenger. As we draw neigh to God and hide His word in our hearts; we learn to use the authority we have been given to command satan to get behind thee in Jesus name.  Jesus was tempted and we will be too, for we are no better than our teacher; the key is to not bend, stay focused keeping those strong roots and use the weapons of our warfare.     2 Corinthians 10

In a recent church sermon; Doctor Barclay stated that the devil will chase us to our graves. The spiritual world is real. And satan says that we will be back with him due to the fact that many Christians have denied that the devil is real and they are out in the world again. Satan sends his demons to steal our money, our health, our family, our friends, our ministry, etc. The demons job is to pound us like sifting wheat to discourage us and cause us to abandon our walk with God. Satan will pull any trick possible to deceive and seduce us to break a hedge; therefore giving him permission to come into our life to break us and our family.

Last week I shared with you that the fiery darts of the enemy were out to destroy my walk with God. And that there were three confirmations that I received before I knew I was to definitely speak at the revival. The first confirmation was on the day I was asked to speak (March 14th) at 5:41 pm my friend Keith posted on Facebook “It is time for you to ARISE and to walk in that which I have called you to walk in, Know that I have called you for such a time as this, Thus saith the Lord”. The second confirmation was a picture on Facebook stating,  “Stop talking yourself our of your Blessings” because I was scared and didn’t want to speak. Then on Thursday morning (March 16th) I read 2 Timothy 4:1-5…. “Preach the Word”. Once I got to work on Thursday, I looked at my devotional calendar for Sunday’s date (March 19th – the day I would give my testimony) and it read: “God has great plans for you. He has important things He wants you to do. And He is preparing you for your destiny right now. But you have to take steps of obedience in order to get there. And you have to trust that He knows the way and wont hurt you in the process.” Wow, has He not let me know that I am to move forward or what?!!  So I wrote Mr. Clifton and agreed to speak at the revival, then I became really sick causing me to miss church that night and work on Friday. I was in bed all day Friday and Saturday then on Sunday morning  still sick and unable to sleep; I woke up at 4:00 am. I prayed and started reading in the Bible. Then when I looked on Facebook I saw a post that read, “It’s working in your favor. You may not see it yet but a way is being made. Mind blowing blessings are on the way. Expect doors to be opened!” (@TonyGaskins). Those blessings were on the way that night as people were set free from bondage after hearing my testimony.

I definitely knew I was to speak at that revival at Community Church. But as I said afterwards those fiery darts came bountifully. I missed church several times due to sickness; even having to have someone cover the nursery for me one day. Then someone tried to convince me that my beliefs were wrong and that my standards were too high. They stated that they had studied theology and that marriage was nothing more than a piece of paper. In their belief sex was ok as long as two people truly loved one another. When I refused to agree with their beliefs it was almost as if every other area of my life was attacked.  I was told that I was trying to earn my way into Heaven by being good. And I felt as if I was being put down for everything that I had been doing for God due to comments that were made. After a few weeks of hearing this; I started to question everything that I was doing. Had God really called me to work in the nursery, to write or be a part of Emerge Ministries!?? I wasn’t sure anymore and could not think straight or function normally. My mind was clouded and I was stressed and overwhelmed.  It seemed I could do nothing right! I had started to believe the lies of the enemy and I broke that hedge with my doubts of who God had called me to be and what I was to do for Him.

The next thing that happened was I wrote a blog post titled “Desiring to Be Loved in the Brokenness.” With that particular post I failed to pray before I wrote it or even before I published it as I was babysitting that weekend and was in a hurry and I wasn’t the most pleasant of persons. I lost my cool when I was writing it. Since then, I remembered something Pastor Joyce has always told me; “If it is of God then there will be peace”. There was no peace that night for me and that post was hurtful to my parents. A comment that I had included appeared as if I wasn’t loved as a child and that is far from the truth as my parents have always loved me. People show love in different ways but people want to be shown in different ways. However the wording in that post came across wrong.  I never meant to hurt anyone; but the enemy came in and caused chaos within my family. My mom was so hurt that it took over a week before she could talk to me and I don’t blame her. Not having her talk to me was extremely devastating. And now I realize all of this was an attack to bring me down; and down I was.

Two days after the post an incident happened at work and to this day I still do not know what happened. My co-worker was extremely snappy towards me when I spoke to her and she became very distant from me the rest of the week. I don’t have a clue as to what was up, but that week was extremely rotten and a lot of fiery darts were being thrown my way by satan and his demons.  With so much going on my body tensed up causing pain all over and anxiety and depression was beginning to overtake me. I felt as if I was not going to be able to continue with anything. I wanted to walk away from my job and completely give up on writing this blog and writing for Emerge Ministries. I knew I was dying mentally, emotionally and spiritually and reached out in a text for prayer to two very precious ladies in my life.  Praise God the next week was a much needed spring break. God gave me time to be alone to repent, refocus and return to my secret place with Him.

…..Exodus 20:12 (NLT) – “Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the LORD your God is giving you.

However, before spring break could hit I spoke with a friend on the phone in whom I cried on. They were trying to explain to me to not take stuff personal and not allow people to get to me; but sensitive me don’t work that way. However, I think what upset me the most is when I told them my mom wouldn’t talk to me; they didn’t wait to hear that it was my fault. The term used was “screw them” and to me this is so wrong on so many levels. The Fifth Commandant says we are to honor our parents so of course I didn’t agree with my friend but said nothing; instead I gave it to God and prayed. But then again as I said, my friend didn’t wait to hear what had happened. I know they had my best interest at heart and I understand this now. But I have come to realize that sometimes when we desire to help others; we may be too quick to speak and perhaps we (myself included) need to listen more.  So dealing with this and everything else, I was a complete and total wreck.

….Matthew 12:37 – “For by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned.”

Spring break week arrived and I spent time outside and at the beach. God and I had many conversations that week and things started looking better. My mom called me back after I left her a message and I went to visit her. Returning to work the next week; things were fine and dandy between my co-worker and myself and have been since. Out of all the 7 1/2 years I have been there; this was the first time anything like this had happened. But when one thing doesn’t go satan’s way then he tries another as he has attacked my health and my pocketbook. But praise God for He made a way!

I declare the manifestation of healing to my body for I was healed over 2,000 years ago. God says in Mark 5:34 that my faith has made me whole in Jesus Name, Amen!

When satan hits your finances, health, family and ministry; he is testing your faith and your foundation in Christ. My riding mower tore up but my awesome nephew and brother repaired it for me. Then my AC went out on my 2004 Toyota Highlander but praise God one window will still roll down.  It went out after I spoke with the Impact Girls (young girls) group at church about the importance of prayer. And I explained to them how Samantha’s prayers at such an early age were used to change my life and lead me to salvation; affording me a personal relationship with my Heavenly Father. And that if she had not prayed for me, I would not be here today.

Satan came after my finances when I had to pay for my home AC repair, increase in insurance and lawn mower repair;  but God provided! Then Samantha was blessed with a full time position in her dream job. God still providing!  Satan’s attacks were physically, mentally, emotionally, financially, with relationships including family, friends, ministry and work. Although things were extremely tough during this time, it’s ok because within a month I grew in God, standing on His Word in faith. The enemy tried to get me off the course that God has for me because he wants only to destroy me. He just hasn’t realized he is a defeated foe.

I may have had clouded perception and fell for a moment; but praise God I realized the trick of the enemy before he completely destroyed me. I’ve grown in Christ and was able to stand on the Word and keep myself pure; the old me would have never realized what was happening. I praise God for He carried me through the storms and I came out stronger and wiser. Through all of this my mind was clouded but praise God I realized the attack of the enemy and didn’t spiral down as I had in the past but I got back up, quickly! Having God in or out of our life can make a  difference, just as the difference is in night and day.

The scriptures I spoke over myself after I realized I was under spiritual attack are:

Ephesians 6:16 – I can quench all the fiery darts of the enemy with the shield of faith.

Philippians 4:13 – I can do all things through Christ Jesus.

James 1:22,25 – I am a doer of the Word and blessed in my actions.

1 Corinthians 6:19 – I am the temple of the Holy Spirit, I am not my own.

Deuteronomy 28:13 – I am the head and not the tail; I am above only and not beneath.

Deuteronomy 28:15-68  & Galatians 3:13 – I am redeemed from the curse of sin, sickness, and poverty.

Colossians 2:7 – I am firmly rooted built up, established in my faith and overflowing with gratitude.

Psalm 66:8 & 2 Timothy 1:9 – I am called of God to be the voice of His Praise.

Isaiah 53:5 & 1 Peter 2:24 – I am healed by the strips of Jesus.

James 4:7 – I am submitted to God, and the devil flees from me because I resist him in the name of Jesus.

2 Timothy 1:7 – For god has not given us a spirit of fear; but of power, love and a sound mind.

Galatians 2:20 – It is not I who live but Christ lives in me.

Sharing such intimate details of my life is extremely difficult. However, I pray that with me being real and being so transparent that it will show you that even a seasoned Christian can fall prey to the schemes of the enemy. We must stay in the Word and communicate with our Father to keep that personal relationship intimate. Do not allow the things of this world to keep you so busy that you loose focus of what is important! With all that I have shared now you see that for over a month the raging war within was a battle of the spirits. Satan once again tried to stop me by distracting me……But God!!!

Ephesians 6:12 (AMP)- For our struggle is not against flesh and blood [contending only with physical opponents], but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this [present] darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly [supernatural] places.

To God the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit be All the Glory!

Much Love to you all,


Remember God Loves You! (John 3:16)

The Raging War Within – Part 1

Just as God provides for the birds of the air, He provides for me. He is my shelter in the storms as I am safely wrapped in His arms and He carries me when I feel I can’t go on. The past month I have had many days that I felt I could not go on.  And I have discovered that not everyone believes in the spiritual warfare that is around us. Attacks are real, but we do not wrestle against flesh and blood but against powers of darkness. And the more we do for our Father; the angrier satan gets and will send those fiery darts to try to take us down.  It’s not people that we battle against but the dark forces of evil in a spiritual realm. As you have most likely noticed I haven’t written in the blog in a few weeks. I have been in the midst of a spiritual battle.

*****Ephesians 6:12-13 – For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

When I started this blog, I did so because God put me on assignment to be His hands, voice, and feet to show others that He is real and desires a personal relationship with them. And my hearts desire is to continue to please God with all that I am. Not only is this assignment to glorify God but He has used this to open my eyes and to heal me from my past so that I may become that mighty warrior that He is calling me to be. I praise God that I am not that person that I use to be; however I am still not where I want to be but God is making me.

It was March 14th my mama’s birthday, I was sick and left work early. While driving home I received a message from Mr. Clifton to call him that he needed to talk to me. So I immediately called him and he asked me to speak at the revival at the Community Church. He told me that he had read my blog and that others need to hear my testimony. Scared to death, I told him that I would pray about it.  I was reluctant because I don’t like to be seen; and I do not like standing in front of people; not to mention I have never stood in front of a church full of people sharing such intimate details of my life. The only thing remotely close was when I shared a small part of my testimony with a small group of women years ago.

Still sick the next day, I stayed home from work and slept all day. But on Thursday I was feeling better and went to work. However from Tuesday to Thursday; I received three conformations so I knew I was suppose to share my testimony. I sent Mr. Clifton a message that day and agreed to speak so he shortly let me know that Sunday night was open. I accepted and then almost immediately I got extremely sick with flu like symptoms. I missed work again on Friday, and then Saturday and Sunday I was still not well. Missing church service Sunday morning; I was determined satan was not going to stop me from speaking because now I knew that is exactly what he was trying to do. I told Samantha I was going to go speak even if I had to share and leave immediately.

The drive to Community Church was a rough one as satan started speaking his lies. Fear overcame me and satan was whispering to me that I wasn’t good enough to stand in front of that church behind that pulpit. I almost turned around and went home but I just couldn’t. We reached the church and went inside. Then Judy and Terry came in and sat with Samantha and myself. Trying to not appear afraid; God spoke to Judy and told her to pray with me and give me a message. With praise and worship music playing; she pointed for me to meet her at the back of the church. When I met her there; she asked was I scared. I said “Yes”! But then she told me that God told her to tell me to not be afraid that I can’t mess up because it was His story. Then she prayed with me that a peace would over take me.  This peace didn’t happen at that moment; but just as soon as I stood behind that pulpit and I started to open my mouth; there was such a great peace. I didn’t stutter nor was I nervous at all. The Holy Spirit just flowed as my testimony came out.

Once I finished and sat down I realized the reason I had to speak. More than what I had put into my blog came out that night. Several people stood up to thank me for sharing because the first young lady had held bitterness and anger towards her mom for a long time. She told me that just seeing the love between Samantha and myself and how much Samantha loves me even with all the hell that I had put her through; gave her the strength to forgive her mom just that night. She was at peace and was free from the bondage that she had been under of unforgiveness and said she was going to see her mom the next day. And she said that things were going to be different from that day forward.

Another young lady, my dear friend stood up and said she thought she was alone in being bitterly angry and hateful to her daughter for many years. She realized that night that we don’t have to carry that guilt and shame; that we can use our story to help others as we thank God for forgiving and changing us. Another woman asked me to keep her daughter in prayer as she was going through an abusive marriage. Then three different men stood up and thanked me for sharing and told me to keep holding on to God and that He will send me that special man that He chooses; to never lose faith. They too had been through divorce; but when they trusted God he sent them beautiful God fearing women.

*****Psalm 37:4 (NIV) Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.

The next four weeks was a battle from hell as one fiery dart after another came. Between being sick and missing church, being criticized for believing the word of God and keeping my moral standards high; upsetting my parents and causing mama to not want to talk for a few days, and  a coworker talking cross to me and me not having any idea why; I was almost at the end of my rope. I felt a depression starting to overtake me. I felt I was dying physically, however I was dying mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Satan was on a mission to stop me from doing for God.

Join me next time as I continue this story and share with you how God saved me.

Remember God Loves You and So Do I !!

To God the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit be all the Glory!



Desiring To Be Loved In The Brokenness

I’ve always heard it takes a village to raise a child and recently I have seen just that. I’ve missed a week of posting but I now understand why; as I needed to watch and listen. This post is completely off my testimony path but kinda ties in with the beginning of the rest of my story. Since giving my testimony at Community Church Revival a few weeks ago; I have been under a huge attack from Satan not only physically, but mentally, emotionally and spiritually. But God reminded me this morning that if there wasn’t something huge that I am being used for, then the enemy wouldn’t be fighting me so hard. I just have to remind the enemy who I am and that he is defeated. God also brought to mind that in a search for love; the only true love is of God and that we all want the approval and love of a Father.

The past week has been extremely eye opening to me. My heart has broken for many reasons;  but one being for kids who are just desiring to be loved. Acting out, rebellious, angry, bitter, and defiant; this is so heart breaking  because this is exactly how I remember myself being as a child and it followed me into adulthood. I know I wasn”t the peefect child and still have faults. However my wonderful parents are still together, and I know they have always loved me but I guess I needed to hear it. And I honestly don’t remember hearing it until after my first divorce. Not saying they never did, I just dont remember hearing it.People show love in different ways and my parents are amazing parents who had a rebellious daughter and it was probably difficult to show love or tell me, or perhaps I just didn’t listen. But God creates beauty from ashes.

However reflecting about kids this really tugged at my heart. It reminded me of when Samantha was young and I was so impatient with her. I’ve seen the  pain and heartache in children’s eyes;  just longing for love and acceptance. Most of these I’ve watched have been children of single parent families and the child is reaching out for love from the opposite parent that isn’t with them. Just as my own daughter did and has as she has grown up. She just wanted a daddy’s love and mommy’s too, as my life was preoccupied a lot of the time with fulfilling my desires. We as parents can be some selfish people!

Just this past weekend I was so touched as to things I witnessed. One precious little boy desiring to have the love of a mother was so excited when I gave him attention and just simply spent time with him. This thrilled him so much that before leaving me he gave me hugs and said ever so sweetly “I love you”. This totally and completely melted my heart!

Then as I watched a sweet little three year being defiant as she fought sleep. In the arms of someone she just met that day; I watched him speak ever so gently and calmly to her as she finally fell asleep. But not before she hit him about 30 times;  patience and persistence paid off.  I so admired the patience he had with her and realized that this is exactly what kids need. The next day this sweet child ran straight to his arms desiring to be held just as soon as he arrived at my house. She so longs for a fathers love.

Crying is what I heard almost everyday for a week. Saturday with the precious 3 year old, Sunday in the church nursery, then at work this past week. You’ve already heard about the 3 year old so let me tell you the rest. In the church nursery was a new child desiring to be with her mom; she did not want to stay. However, we knew that with patience and persistence eventually she will get use to being with the other kids and away from mom. If we gave in she would never learn to stay. Then at work I’ve seen children in trouble and brought up to the office because of one reason or another. But on Monday this one child really struck me as he cried. I watch him all the time coming and going, and basically a sweet child but parents aren’t together. Then this week God brought back a little girl that moved away about 2 years ago. Such a sweet girl who I’ve been praying for and wondering if she were ok. Her home life was one that was broken to the point she didn’t want to live, so you can imagine how excited I was to look up and see her. 

From all of this, God has shared with me that even my own childs brokenness was because of me. The choices I made affected her. My inability to display patience and being a train wreck myself; made it difficult to be the mother God wanted me to be. And I was running from God! It’s a ripple effect. If we don’t have ourself together and are constantly bringing new people in and out of our kids lives; then they never see stability. They only experience loss after loss and afraid that eventually everyone is going to leave them.

Samantha was already fearful enough from loosing her daddy, that I didn’t want her to get attached to everyone that came along. We have to protect our kids! To them it becomes an expectation that nothing is to stay the same and everyone who I love will leave me.  But what are we teaching our kids!? Certainly not what God says we should. Kids need stability and know that not everyone is going to leave them. There little minds can get so confused when parents are not persistent, patient, and stable. They learn by example; we are their role-models. What are we teaching them?! When we the parents are inconsistent; why would we expect our kids to be anything other than what we are!

Lonely, broken, depressed, bitter, angry, etc. I  desired love and so wanted Samantha to have that daddy she so longed for. Although I met many men; Samantha didn’t!  Thank God I only exposed her to just a few; not bringing them all to my home. I haven’t been the best mom or the best role model but she knows that God has transformed me. Although I am still not perfect and will not be until God decides to take me home. I still battle some days when I fail to give it all to God.

Monday night Samantha and I were talking and I ask her why kids are so terrified that people were not coming back. She told me that for her; she didn’t want me out of her sight when she was young because everyone else she got close too left. Her dad bounced in and out of her life to the point that she may see him once a year now. And she would love to be able to see him every day. Then she told me that the other two men that came into our lives and she called Daddy; they too walked out and left her. She said, “Mama it hurt that every man I got attached to walked away from me!” She is 23 years old and still feels like her dads  walked out on her. I realized right then that kids have to be protected.

With everyone leaving; the fear is real that the parent that is left will eventually leave and not come back too. Parents what I am trying to say is please protect your babies. Don’t allow everyone you meet to meet your kids. This causes more harm than good. And parents that are separated and divorced; love your kids and show them you love them. Don’t put down or talk negatively about the other parent as your babies are caught in the middle. Find a way to work together and give your kids the best life possible so they don’t go out searching for love in all the wrong places, things or people. They need you to be stable so their life can be too. If you aren’t sure what to do; start with prayer and ask God to come into your life. This is the beginning of a life of love that no one on this earth will ever be able to give you! The best gift you can give your child is an introduction to Christ.

Proverbs 22:6 – Train up a child in the way he should go, And when he is old he will not depart from it.

I have shared from my heart today and I pray that this helps someone!

Join me next week when I return to my life testimony.

Much Love To You All,




Heading For Disaster Or Preparing For The Calling


When I started writing the post this week, I was riding on our Emerge Ministries bus to Washington, DC to show the love of God to the homeless. I prayed that God would give me the words to share because I normally am in a quiet room writing as the Holy Spirit downloads to me. Of course on a bus with a ministry team it’s anything but quiet. But I would not have it any other way as I have loved every moment of this weekend with my family and looking forward to many years of traveling together. God always provides a way when it is of Him! All we need to be is willing and obedient.

As we were riding God reminded me of being stuck in traffic earlier this week and I started writing. God works in amazing ways as we toured the homeless shelter, our tour guide told us all about the facility and the program. But then he said that God just has to slow us down sometimes to get us where we need to be! That hit home! I knew right then that God is on the move with this post, the weekend and in my  life.

Life sometimes is a journey on its own. The twist and turns can sometimes be for our own good. Driving to work two days this week I got behind slow cars. At first I was upset because I was running a little behind; but then I realized perhaps I avoided a ticket or an accident. God let me know that just like when we get behind a slow car, He will sometimes slow us down in life. He does this to teach us a lesson and perhaps to protect us or those we love.

Sometimes we are in too big of a hurry and headed for disaster. We aren’t quite ready for what is in front of us or perhaps what He called us to do. He slows us down so we can be prepared to reach the destination He has for us. He will even put others in the path to ruffle our feathers, so to speak, to work on our hearts and change us for the better. He gave me a thought. How is it that we have so much patience and love towards others but not with our own family! Hummm…..something hit home with that thought because I know how I have been towards my own family; especially my daughter.

When we get in a hurry or be impatient we don’t think clearly and make quick decisions that not only affect the rest of our life but others around us. This includes our words, actions, reactions and attitudes. Things we say can hurt others tremendously to the point they feel unworthy, unloved and unwanted. Not only have I been on the receiving end but I’ve been guilty of giving it alot! God told me that I must be patient with and show love to those of my own house. Sometimes we fail to remember this because its easier to hide our ugly behind closed doors. But we must remember God sees everything!

Our hearts must reflect our love in our own home just as much as outside of it. This is one of the lessons that God wants us to remember when we are stuck in that traffic or dealing with a person whom we tend to be impatient with. Remember He is preparing our heart with every test and as He slows us down its either for our protection, a lesson or both. We must remember the next time we get irritated or start to loose our cool, just perhaps its a growing experience for us so we can reach our destiny and fulfill the calling on our life.

Be still and know that I am God is what He has told me many times. He says listen and I will guide you. We have to get in our quiet place and be still in order to hear Him. It’s hard to hear that faint whisper when we are too busy, in a hurry, impatient, too loud, not on the Word and not focused. Instead of being so set on what we want perhaps we should ask God what He wants. After all He created us for a specific purpose and who better to know what we should do. Others are watching!

Ephesians 4:1-6

If only I had of been still and listened to God many years ago my life perhaps would have been much differently. The heartache and pain have been deeper than I remembered as the Holy Spirit guides me on this blog. Although I ran for many years instead of following God, He never gave up on me! Praise His Holy Name!

We all have cracks in our lives! However; God repairs the cracks in broken hearts and broken lives! We need to trust, believe and listen as the Holy Spirit guides us. Are you heading for disaster or preparing for your calling?

God loves you and so do I !

Join me next week when I return to my life testimony!

Have a Blessed Week!


Trust and Fear Not – God’s Got This!

This week God has me going in a different direction for this blog post. I will return to my life story where Samantha was a baby really soon; perhaps next weekend.  But for now God has a lesson for us, just as He has taught me this week. We have to be obedient and willing to do as He asked, in order to fulfill the calling and destiny He has for us.

Life sometimes has a way of teaching us lessons; perhaps a lot from our own mistakes and sometimes the mistakes of others. Regardless sometimes God uses rabbit trails to get out attention and to get our eyes off our circumstances and to trust Him. These life lessons are difficult and down right scary sometimes; until we trust Him completely!

God has told me several times this week to “Fear Not”! I know I am not to fear; because God has always taken care of me. Even when I didn’t realize it was Him that was doing so. But sometimes satan tries to sidetrack us and I needed that reminder to put me back on track. This week there have been many issues in my personal life and family that have concerned me. But God has reminded me several times that He has this, do not fear!

While reading  Proverbs Chapter 12 this week God let me know that I will have peace and joy because of my obedience in sharing His Word with the world in this blog. In verse 24 “The hand of the diligent will rule, But the lazy man will be put to forced labor.”  A friend of mine shared on Facebook this week a prophecy that there are some that will be removed from the 40 hour work week and will be in ministry full time to glorify God.  This really excited me as I felt God was speaking to me! Although these were not his exact words but you get the gist of it. Now listen carefully, as you continue to read!

God sent me a family when I desperately needed one and needed to feel like I belonged and had a purpose. My life has been such a train wreck; and never in my wildest dreams would I have ever thought God could and would want to use me! Before I started writing this blog; I argued with God because I didn’t want to share my life with the world. I knew how my life had been and how terrible I had been, to the point I was afraid to write my story for fear of losing my job. But God said, “Do you love your job more than me?” Whoaaaaa……that got my attention!!!   I said, “No”! “I love you more” and I started writing this blog for God. I knew at that moment; that regardless of what comes up or what happens, He will provide, period! If something is taken; He will replace with greater!

I have to admit I have never liked change and do not like to be seen. I was a very shy child and have been a somewhat timid (sober) adult, but when I was drunk it was a different story. But that story is for another day. Anyway I have always liked things to stay the same and have never liked stepping out of my comfort zone.  As a lot of people do; we just like familiarity.  Well that all went right out the window, so to speak, when I decided to completely dedicate my life to God. He likes to shake things up a little, but in a good way.

Shortly after I started preparing the website for the blog I was invited to join a team of amazingly beautiful people that are on fire for God and want to show His love to the world. God sent to me my Emerge Ministry Family and I was welcomed with open arms. Immediately I knew I was home! I love the heart and compassion that each and every one of these awesome family members have. God knew just what I needed and blessed me with numerous brothers and sisters. We aren’t just a team, we are Family and I thank God for each of them! They have my back and cover me in prayer and if I need them, they will be right here for me.

Since I have started writing this blog, doing street ministry with my Emerge Family, praying with strangers, loving on the unlovable and praying at the flagpole every morning at work; I am doing things I never thought I could do! God will send you on rabbit trails to get you off the comfortable path you are on to sometimes get you on the right path for your life. What we settle for isn’t what is best! God has so much more in store for us; if we will just listen and obey.

*****Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you, ” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

*****Deuteronomy 28:9 (NIV) The Lord will establish you as his holy people, as he promised you on oath, if you keep the commands of the Lord your God and walk in obedience to him.

Now, that I have been on a rabbit trail in this story; let me get back on track.  Remember my friends prophecy from earlier in the story? You see. since devoting my life completely to God and writing this blog; I have had the desire to travel and minister for God full-time. I love photography and I love to travel; especially flying thanks to an old boyfriend that is a pilot. Anyway, I have often thought about traveling and doing photography and never thought it could happen. But, you know what?  I believe my friends prophesy on Facebook was for my Emerge Family and myself. I already am traveling, talking my pictures and blogging for God but I am trusting God for greater. And I am believing that I will receive double for my trouble, so to speak. What I allowed satan to steal from me will be restored even greater. Although I had to go on some of those rabbit trails in life to get back to where I am suppose to be; God can and will use me. He already is! Remember God makes beauty from our ashes.

*****Isaiah 61:7-9 (NIV) Instead of your shame you will receive double portion, and instead of disgrace you will receive in your inheritance. And so you will inherit a double portion in your land, and everlasting joy will be yours. “For I, the Lord, love justice; I hate robbery and wrongdoing. In my faithfulness I will reward my people and make an everlasting covenant with them. Their descendants will be known among the nations and their offspring among the peoples. All who see them will acknowledge that they are a people the Lord has blessed.”

My life may have been a train wreck but God is a merciful and gracious God that never gave up on me! He had a plan and a purpose for my life from the beginning. It just took numerous rabbit trails to get me on the right path.  All those years of feeling inadequate, rejected and unloved by the world; He just wanted me to turn to Him. Instead I ran. What was I thinking! I sure wasn’t thinking about living for God; I thought that would be boring and I would miss out. But you know what; living for God is anything but boring I missed out by delaying my life with God. All my years of running and living in the world, I never had the fulfillment, satisfaction, joy, peace and love that I do now!

My wrong choices in life put me on some wrong paths; but God used all those rabbit trails to bring me back to where He needs me. All my experiences, the pain and heartaches that I had are being used in this ministry as I blog for God. It is not only helping others but bringing healing to wounds I didn’t even realize I had.

****** Deuteronomy 30: 3-13

Regardless of what you are going through; whatever the storm, trust and fear not….. God’s got this! Never be afraid to get uncomfortable for God, thats when life becomes really awesome! Don’t be so stuborn and set in your ways that you are not willing to get out of the way in order for God to move on your behalf and those around you. He wants to place you into the destiny that He designed you for!

I am one voice! And my voice carries weight for the Kingdom of God! Praise God, He chose me! Hallelujah!

God Loves You ….. and So Do I !

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God’s GPS and Road Signs of Life

You now know I am on assignment by God to share my life testimony. It’s not been easy and at first I was reluctant because of what people may say. But God let me know I am not here to please people, but to please Him! And I am to love others right where they are, but love them enough to share the truth and to not leave them there!

Sometimes, when you realize someone else knows your pain and has experienced it, you watch their life and say hey if it got better for them it can for me. And sometimes the compassion that a person has for you can make the greatest difference in your life. Simply seeing God move in someone elses life is a huge eye-opener. The love and compassion that God has blessed me with hasn’t always been a part of my life. But today I am a new creation in and through Christ. I refuse to turn back as He made Beauty from my ashes! I have so much to be thankful for and I most definitely am! This is why I write to you with such compassion and love in my heart as I pour out my heart to you.  I want to see you walk in peace, joy and love. But most importantly to walk in obedience to God is my desire. If my experiences can help just one person; it is so worth everything I have gone through to be able to help you.  So I write as He instructs and gives me the words.

I am sitting on the beach writing this post because God spoke to me today at church and He knows my love of the beach. I simply think its one of God’s most beautiful creations. Therefore He knew I would hear clearly from Him in this special place to share with you the beauty of His Love for us. He wants us to experience that love that we so desire! Only God can do that!

Matthew 6:33- “But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.”

If we seek God first then He will give us the love of our life here on earth! He’s a jealous God and will not take any other place in our life. If we choose to put Him on the back burner then we will reap the consequences.

God clearly gives us a roadmap to follow; its like a GPS. It will lead us in the right direction if we pay attention and don’t stray off on to a different path. But even when we do; just as a GPS re-routes us, God too will try to re-route us. However; it’s up to us to listen and obey. He gives us freedom to do what we want. And I know He has sat up there in Heaven shaking His head many a day and saying my child Donna when will you learn!.

You see pride and stubbornness blocks blessings in our lives. But when we lay it all down and humble ourselves before God, then He can move in our lives. We don’t have the answers unless we go to God first. He created us, knows everything about us and wants the very best for us! Sometimes we think God is too strict and that we should be able to live as we please. Well we can! But don’t expect to walk through those pearly gates living a life against God”s Word! Part of those consequences that I spoke of!

These restrictions (safeties) are like traffic signs to keep us safe! If you don’t obey a stop sign you could be in a world of trouble, with oncoming traffic, a ditch, etc… A wreck waiting to happen! Talking  about wrecking our lives; when we step outside of God’s Will, our lives are disastrous. This means not receiving God’s  best that we could have because we settled. Yes God can take bad and make good but don’t you want the best He has to offer? Why settle for bologna when you can have Filet Mignon!

Roadblocks and detours are in our life because we will not allow God to sustain us on the straight path. He is trying to catch our attention to protect us.  We are so stubborn and full of pride and arrogance that we can’t put things down in order to seek God first. We want the things first in our life and when we pursue those instead of God; we become out of alignment. Sadly, when we pursue our fleshly desires, it’s not what is best for us.

Romans 1: 24 (NIV) Therefore God gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodies with one another.

I am not here to judge or condemn but to speak truth and share from my personal experience. I love you regardless, please keep this in mind as you continue reading. Some think that living together and having sex outside of marriage are ok. But, it’s not! I have been guilty of this in my past;  see where it has gotten me! God gives us restrictions (safeties) to protect us and give us freedoms. Outside of marriage those freedoms can hurt us physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually and this has happened to me. God designed marriage to be between man and woman with the design of becoming one flesh. I hate to break it to you, but it doesn’t say boyfriend and girlfriend to become one flesh! If you are living together. I still love you and will not judge for that is not my duty.

Mark 10:6 – 8  (NIV) But at the beginning of creation God made them male and female. For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh. So they are no longer two, but one flesh.

When we stray off course, God gives us signs to help us get back on the correct road, sometimes using people. If we continue off the beaten path away from God we will definitely bring destruction upon ourselves. Just like the GPS and road signs; God gives us the signs to let us know it’s the wrong way, he’s trying to speak to us in our relationships. But just as we refuse to obey a stop sign at the end of a road and run into the ditch; we too can place ourself in a ditch that is hard to get out of. Spiritual derailment is death!

I understand about wanting someone in your life,  Believe me!  But I also understand that I want God’s best for me and I pray that you do too. The thing to remember is that satan too knows what we want and will send detours into our life to distract us and try to get us off the straight path. When we are anxious and settle, most times we end up in a relationship that we shouldn’t have been in to begin with.  For this reason, we have to seek God first to protect ourselves. Pastor Jim preached a message today about proper timing and alignment. When we are out of alignment with God there is a sway or a pull into another direction. We get out of alignment because we want the things first and we are persuaded by the environment that we keep. When we find ourselves sidetracked, distracted, swerving or leaning in the wrong direction; then it is up to us to remove ourselves from evil.

Proverbs 4:27 (NIV) Do not turn to the right or the left; keep your foot from evil.

If God ordains a relationship there will be peace, joy, love, and no doubts (you will not have to wonder or ask where the relationship is heading). Godly men and women date with a purpose; to seek marriage, not to just hang out!  A Godly man or woman will  pray with you and for you and not just at meals. The right relationship will lead you closer to God and not pull you away. Pride and arrogance have no place in any relationship.

Ladies, if he’s not treating you with the utmost respect; and gets offended or upset because you say no, then he’s not the one. Or if he gets upset and distances himself after you let him know that you will not live as the world does and you refuse to spend nights with him; then know that he is not the one. But that he is the one that has been sent to destroy you and pull you back into Egypt. Our flesh is weak; but with God all things are possible (Matthew 19:26) and I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Philippians 4:13).  Remember satan disguises himself to be everything you’ve ever wanted to get you hooked. Be wise to his schemes. Just because he says he is a Christian don’t mean he is. Not everyone who attends church has a personal relationship with God! We will know them by their fruits.

Matthew 7:15-18 (NKJV) Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravenous wolves. You will know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes from thorn bushes or figs from thistles? Even so, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, nor can a bad tree bear good fruit.

I saw a Facebook post this last week that reminded me of how I use to be. Don’t wait on a text, a message or a telephone call. We are much more valuable than that! We are not on clearance and must remember we are to die for and Jesus did that for us! Ladies, if a guy is interested he will definitely let you know. If he goes all day and doesn’t text you back or doesn’t answer your call or at least return it; then know perhaps you aren’t a priority. When things are out of alignment, there is friction and where there is friction, there is no peace and joy.

God sent someone to me September 8, 2016 to prophesy over me about my future husband. All I will share at this time is that He has handpicked him for me. I was instructed by God to stop looking, that he will appear out of nowhere and I will know without a shadow of doubt that he’s the one! I am standing on His Word because His Word does not return void!

“Our faith is not really tested until God asks us to bear what seems unbearable, do what seems unreasonable, and expect what seems impossible.”  Quote by Warren Wiersbe

Within just a few weeks of this word from God; I received the third confirmation about writing this blog for God. This is not something that I wanted to do. But when God speaks we must be obedient as our destiny and the destiny of others depends on our obedience.

Never forget your Worth! Pay attention to God’s GPS and road signs and protect your destiny! Don’t you want the best that God has for you? Don’t settle, seek God first!

Proverbs 16:20 – He who heeds a word wisely will find good. And whoever trusts in the Lord. Happy is he.

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