Reality Check

As I sit and write tonight; I have so much on my mind. Forgive me for not being consistent in my writing; however I actually started this post a month ago. And this past month has been difficult for my family and myself with a long road ahead of us. Please keep us in your prayers. I know that God has it all in His Hands. Through it all, it is well!

Now lets get to this post of a reality check!

While driving to work recently my check engine light came on and I looked up into the sky. Upon looking up I saw this one little dark blob of something but couldn’t tell what it was. At that moment I was reminded of the shooting in Las Vegas and how Jesus is watching. He is coming back soon and we must check ourselves and make sure that we’re ready. Check engine – check your heart! Revelations is being played out before us! Evil is running rampant in the world. We must check our hearts and get them right so we don’t get left behind.

***Proverbs 13:24 – (ISV)
Whoever does not discipline his son hates him, but whoever loves him is diligent to correct him.

Driving home a few weeks ago on Friday afternoon I got stuck behind a school bus. I noticed that the kid in the back seat was either middle school or high school age. I think they were perhaps on the way to a ball game. But what happened after getting stopped at the stop light was so heartbreaking and it made me think of the phrase “spare the rod- spoil the child”. This kid gave me the middle finger by placing his hand behind the seat in front of the back window. He did so as if he was afraid he would get caught if he placed his hand up higher. Then he put his face in the glass, stuck his tongue out at me and appeared to be laughing. I just blew him a kiss and said God please forgive him for he knows not what he does.

This kid had never seen me before and it made me think why would he do this to a total stranger. Then on the following Sunday the shooting in Las Vegas happened. I was reminded of all the evil happening around us with all of the lawlessness.
2 Timothy 3:1-5 describes exactly what is going on right now.

***2 Timothy 3:1-5 (NLT) –The Dangers of the Last Days
You should know this, Timothy, that in the last days there will be very difficult times. For people will love only themselves and their money. They will be boastful and proud, scoffing at God, disobedient to their parents, and ungrateful. They will consider nothing sacred. They will be unloving and unforgiving; they will slander others and have no self-control. They will be cruel and hate what is good. They will betray their friends, be reckless, be puffed up with pride, and love pleasure rather than God. They will act religious, but they will reject the power that could make them godly. Stay away from people like that!

Recently I’ve had someone approach me about my writings. It felt as if I was being criticized for writing my testimony in this blog. At least that is what I felt was happening but I think they were questioning my motives behind writing in both blogs. As I sit and think about the conversation we had; I can only think of the following answer. I wrote my testimony in this blog because God asked me to write it. I was not trying to promote me, but I was promoting God by telling the world where He brought me from. By sharing and writing my testimony it has not only given me a pure heart but has healed it as I have shared everything. I have nothing left to hide. It took a lot out of me to let people know the truth. No, I didn’t do it so God would love me because he already did. And I didn’t do it so that other people would love me, because that’s irrelevant. It doesn’t matter what people think of me or even if they like me; it only matters what God thinks and guess what… He loves me.  He said I was to die for.

But as I sit here tonight, I am thinking perhaps God was reminding me to do things for the right reason. Sometimes we have good ideas; but perhaps at the wrong time. When we step outside of Gods plan and try to do it our-self; we become overloaded and stressed. Hence, a reality check – check my heart. What’s the motive….. Approval of others or Gods plan? 

Someone said that I shouldn’t speak so much about the Holy Spirit because not everyone believes in the Holy Spirit. My response is this; I will not hide the Holy Spirit in anything that I do for it is by Him that I live and write. Ezekiel 36:26-27…. God has given me a new a heart and put a new spirit within me. You can’t hide what is within! 

God has brought me too far in my life to not be thankful. And never will I try to hide the Holy Spirit in a corner or a back room. He shall have free reign in my life and in all my writings. I have been changed from the inside out. God has healed me, delivered me, and set me free from many demonic forces that plagued my life. Today I am free, never wanting to be that old me again!

I have a new realization of who I am in Christ. I don’t have to be the person that I use to be. I don’t have to live the way I use too and I don’t have to allow people to treat me the way that I allowed them to treat me over the years. Do to my lack of self-esteem and lack of confidence in myself; for years I didn’t want to be seen. I felt like I was not as good as others because I didn’t have materialistic things like everyone else. I now know that materialistic things don’t matter because money can’t buy the most precious gifts. But praise God I have discovered that I have one thing that nobody can take away from me. And that is my salvation, my love for God and God’s love for me. He is all I need!

 As you have seen we are living in the last days. People are unloving, unholy, lovers of self, despisers of good, blasphemers, having a form of godliness but denying its power, etc.. From the Las Vegas shooting, to the more recent church shooting, to the kid on the school bus these are all signs of perilous times and men. And the fact that church folks feel we should deny the Holy Spirit freedom, is heart breaking. There are many confused by false doctrine. God tells us in 1 John 4:1 to test the spirits. He is watching just as I was reminded. Let’s check our hearts and make sure we are ready. We can’t straddle the fence; either we are for God or against Him! Which side are you on? 

To God Be All the Glory, Honor & Praise!

Much Love to You All!


True Love Will Wait

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about girls, young women and older women who are single and desire love. At 51 years of age I have discovered there’s a right way and a wrong way to find that love we so desire. Unfortunately in my life I took a lot of wrong turns and did a lot of the wrong things in search of it. And look where it got me, I’m single and praying for a good Christian man after three divorces. If you are like myself and have already indulged into sexual relations, just know it’s not to late to repent,  turn from it and be made new. I am pure in Gods eyes and you can be too!

Satan will use your weakness to temp you as long as you let your flesh control you. But once you ask God into your life it becomes temptation or a test. If you pass the test there is promotion to the next level  but if you fail it  you will have to repeat that test again . God uses test to help us grow and trust me I failed several times. But God!!

***1 Corinthians 13:4-8

Ladies while we are still out in the world we see no wrong with the things that we do. From laying on the couch snuggling, having sex, sleeping around with multiple partners, getting drunk and/ or high partying it up, living the life; what have we got to lose!!?? We have everything to lose!!

We lose our self-respect, the respect of others, our self-esteem, a good name, etc and we are left with emotional and mental scars. We become known as a tramp, slut or whore. When you grow up and have a daughter of your own do you want her to live the life that you’re living?

I get it! I totally understand for I wanted someone to love me so badly that I gave in to the flesh more times than I care to count. But ladies keep yourself for your husband and let your marriage night be a night of special memories! Give your husband the special gift of an untainted you! I sure wish I had waited for the man that God had chosen for me! But you see I was looking at the outside of the man and not at the heart, and I missed out on a very good man in my life, he was my best friend. If I had waited and kept myself my life today would have been so different!

When you’re out in the world  and single once you ever give yourself to one man it becomes easier to give yourself to another, then another and another. And every time you give yourself away you give a piece of your heart away too. I get it  you do it because you think they love you and that you love them, but the truth is if you really love one another  you will wait. True Love Waits!

Believe me guys talk, and then it becomes a game between them to see who is the next one to score. Ladies be no one’s game, please keep yourself pure! And do not try to hold on to someone who is disrespectful to you or to your parents! Is this really what you would want for the rest of your life!??

I have learned that guys will do and say anything; even try to make a play of words of the Bible to convince you that it’s okay to have sex outside of marriage. But I’m here to tell you that it is not okay! Having sex before marriage destroys the inner you leaving you empty with no peace and  joy, only that feeling of fulfillment at the time of climax.

You are a rare jewel, priceless! Don’t sell yourself short by being so available. Anything worth having is worth waiting for.

I use to think I had to have a man in my life. And I do! But there is only one man that I need in my life and that’s God. I use to feel like I couldn’t live unless I had a man in my life and I’m absolutely right; but it’s not a man that’s here on Earth!  God is all I need! This doesn’t mean I don’t want my husband,  because believe me I do!  But I desire the husband that God desires for me to have. I want my soulmate to help push me forward in this calling on my life and me to help push his. With the two of us serving God side by side, hand in hand, showing others what He can do in the life of an individual, a marriage and in families giving all glory and honor to God.

Give yourself time to heal between relationships. If you don’t, you will continue to make the same mistakes. You have to give your heart and your emotions  time to heal . And when God gives you that godly man in your life appreciate him, respect him, love him, honor him and cherish him. And men when God sends you that godly woman-your wife; love her, cherish her, respect her, appreciate her, take care of her and protect her.

Don’t be in a hurry to grow up, enjoy your childhood and grow closer to God as you grow older. I fully believe that if we honor God by keeping ourselves he will definitely honor us with the desires of our heart. We don’t have to be test driven because by honoring God I believe He will honor us and our marriage bed will be out of this world.

***Romans 12:2                         ***1 Peter 4:3.                           ***1 John 2:15-17                     *** 2 Timothy 4:3-4.   ***Hebrew 13:4.                     ***1 Corinthians 3:16-17

True Love Will Wait!

Much Love to You All,


My Hearts Prayer

Dear Heavenly Father, as I humbly come before you I thank you for coming to Earth as a human, dying on the cross a painful death and raising on the third day and sending our comforter the Holy Spirit. Father you said where two or more are gathered in your name and we ask according to your will it shall be done! So Father right now I ask that you embrace each and every person that is on my heart and every person that is hurting, sick , anxious, depressed, suicidal, lost, confused, in need, homeless, unloving, unlovable, bitter, angry, unforgiving, or resentful. Father I know it is your will that each of us come to know you as our personal Lord and Savior. And I know that you want to give us life and life more abundantly; and that you died on that cross to heal us from all sickness & disease and for our sins. So I ask Father that angels be petitioned to go and minister to every person that is in need of your touch right now. If they don’t know you as their Lord and Savior that tonight be the night that the Holy Spirit introduce them to Jesus, filling them with a peace and joy like they’ve never known.
Jesus, thank you for dying on the cross so that we might live. And I ask Holy Spirit to come and fill the voids in their heart, as they accept Christ as their Lord and Savior. Father thank you for salvation, healing, restoration, and reconciliation and thank you for the manifestation of all these things. In Jesus Name, Amen!

To God be all the glory, honor & praise, forever!

Much Love to you all,


Sticks and Stones

Lately I have had a lot on my mind and been in prayer about things. But today God set me free from unforgiveness that I had been holding on to in which I didn’t realize I was. Satan will do anything and everything to kill, steal and destroy to take you out of the game. He will use the people or things that are dearest to you to cut your legs out from under you. However, I know who wins in the end; God does!

Ever since I was a child I’ve always heard the saying sticks and stones may break your bones, but words will never hurt you. But I am here to tell you that this is a lie straight from the pit of Hell! Out of our mouth we speak blessings and curses; life or death, depending on what we say. And name calling, talking about others behind their back, critical comments, belittling, disrespectful speech, and throwing someone’s past up are definitely curses. And when doing this we speak death and destruction to that person. And before giving my life to God I was so guilty of these things and even after; until I gained wisdom.

We must be careful with our words and how we speak for not everyone is capable of letting things roll off. If we all could, that would be wonderful. But everyone is different and everyone has a different background and handle things totally different. Hurtful words when not released to God, will play over and over in a person’s mind. Often times we find that some traumatic event from a person’s childhood has left them scarred. And we can’t look at someone and tell what they have gone through. A person who appears to be strong could possibly be the person that needs an ear to listen, a shoulder to cry on, and someone to care enough to pray for and with them. I know, because I have been that person!

When you are hurt from rejection and critical comments, etc. there is such a deep pain that haunts you constantly. It’s like a reminder telling you that you aren’t good enough; leading to depression. And when you grow up feeling this way and go through one relationship after another and loosing friends who tell you that you aren’t rich enough, after a while you really believe that you are insignificant and unlovable. When your life from childhood through adulthood has been filled with so many negative and emotional happenings; there is a sense of inadequacy, feeling not good enough, and as if everything you do isn’t good enough. And believe me growing up this way was extremely hard. If I had not run from God all these years then my life would have been different, but praise God my life is different now!

Joyce Meyer has a book written called Battlefield of the Mind. That is exactly where the battle is and not in the heart. But the battle between the head and the heart is spiritual warfare. Depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts are straight from Hell and without God we don’t know how to overcome them. And sometimes it gets to the point where you just want to run away or give up. Satan is the one who gives us these thoughts; it’s his way of trying to take us out because he knows God has a huge plan for our lives. It’s been 18 years since someone near and dear to me decided they couldn’t take anymore. I don’t know what was going on but I do know that I too had been down that road of thinking life would be better for everyone if I were just out of the way. But the truth is, everyone isn’t better for they are left dealing with the pain and heartache of loosing someone they love. Unfortunately as the suicidal person; you don’t feel loved because your mind has become so clouded you can’t see straight! God tells us that we can have victory in Him. If the thought doesn’t line up with the Word of God, then reject it and believe and think only on what God’s Word says.

****2 Corinthians 10:4-5 (KJV) For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds; Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ.

The gathering together of the saints is to uplift, encourage and to pray for one another. Not everyone has family that encourages and prays for them. It’s extremely important to stay plugged into a body of believers as we all need one another on this journey. Life can become extremely difficult at times and what I have realized is that Satan wants us to give up, walk away and be desolate; giving him an advantage. If he can separate us from the saints then who will speak life into us?

****Ephesians 6:18 (MSG) In the same way, prayer is essential in this ongoing warfare. Pray hard and long. Pray for your brothers and sisters. Keep your eyes open. Keep each other’s spirits up so that no one falls behind or drops out.

Intercessory prayer is extremely important! And we must keep check on our brothers and sisters for 1Peter 5:8 tells us that we must be alert and of sober mind. Our enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Let us as families and church families be someone that others can come to feeling acceptance and love. We all need someone, but I am here to tell you that a person with depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts need your prayers desperately. I know for I have been in those shoes and without the prayers of my Pastors and my daughter I wouldn’t be alive today. It could be your love and prayers that set things in motion for true freedom as was in my case.

If you happen to be thinking right now; perhaps I have been that person that has been critical, judgmental, or perhaps thrown someone’s past in their face just ask for forgiveness from them and our Father. This life is too short to walk around making others feel unworthy. Perhaps the journey of life for that person has put them into that place where they are at a breaking point. Would you want to think that your comment could have possibly been the straw that broke the camels back? When satan has us bound; it’s difficult to see a way out when you keep getting pounded. Speak life to this person and not death. Pray for others instead of talking about them or judging them. And if they come into the church dressed inappropriately; then at least they are in the church and God will deal with everything else! Don’t reject them for they may never want to set foot in church again or have anything to do with God! Would you want to have their blood on your hands? We are all called into the ministry, not to just sit in church. We are to win souls for God’s Kingdom, not push them away.

When people are down right rude, disrespectful, throwing up things &people from our past, belittling us or even talking about us behind our back; we are to forgive them! Holding on to the bitterness, hurt, hate and pain only harms us and steals our joy; sometimes leading us into that depression, anxiety and into those suicidal thoughts. And we must remember its not the person but what is inside that is causing them to do these things. But to have life and life more abundantly; what we have to do is forgive them, pray for a heart change for you and them and have faith in God for He will work all things to the good of those that love Him. Faith makes all things possible; although not easy! Forgiveness is a choice! If we don’t forgive; then our Father can’t forgive us.

Pastor Jim has shared with us several times a poem by Pastor Roys Hicks, Sr..”There are two natures within my breast, One is cursed and one is blessed. One I love, and one I hate. The one I feed will dominate. This is so true as the battle of the spirits rage within us. We have the choice to be our old self or the new creation with Christ. Although our flesh is under our feet; the war of the spirits rage. And if we aren’t careful the flesh will rise at an impromptu time. Will you allow God to move and use you to speak life into those around you and into those who are hurting and running from Him? Everyone needs someone in their corner and I thank God that He blessed me with my spiritual family!

If you are hurting today and need someone to pray with you, please comment with your contact information and I will contact you. I know what it feels like to feel all alone, unworthy, rejected and unloved; as we can feel this even in the midst of a crowd. You don’t have to walk around feeling unwanted and unloved. I love you but God loves you more and desires for you to have life more abundantly and with God ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! And He makes beauty from our ashes!!

****Matthew 11:28-30“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

To God Be All the Glory, Honor & Praise, Forever, Amen!

Much Love to You All!


The Raging War Within – Part 2

My hopes and desires as I share with you is that God the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit receive all the glory. And that my sharing will help you to understand the attacks of satan are real and that we have all the power over him. But we must remember that in the midst of the storm; God is our refuge and He is our avenger. As we draw neigh to God and hide His word in our hearts; we learn to use the authority we have been given to command satan to get behind thee in Jesus name.  Jesus was tempted and we will be too, for we are no better than our teacher; the key is to not bend, stay focused keeping those strong roots and use the weapons of our warfare.     2 Corinthians 10

In a recent church sermon; Doctor Barclay stated that the devil will chase us to our graves. The spiritual world is real. And satan says that we will be back with him due to the fact that many Christians have denied that the devil is real and they are out in the world again. Satan sends his demons to steal our money, our health, our family, our friends, our ministry, etc. The demons job is to pound us like sifting wheat to discourage us and cause us to abandon our walk with God. Satan will pull any trick possible to deceive and seduce us to break a hedge; therefore giving him permission to come into our life to break us and our family.

Last week I shared with you that the fiery darts of the enemy were out to destroy my walk with God. And that there were three confirmations that I received before I knew I was to definitely speak at the revival. The first confirmation was on the day I was asked to speak (March 14th) at 5:41 pm my friend Keith posted on Facebook “It is time for you to ARISE and to walk in that which I have called you to walk in, Know that I have called you for such a time as this, Thus saith the Lord”. The second confirmation was a picture on Facebook stating,  “Stop talking yourself our of your Blessings” because I was scared and didn’t want to speak. Then on Thursday morning (March 16th) I read 2 Timothy 4:1-5…. “Preach the Word”. Once I got to work on Thursday, I looked at my devotional calendar for Sunday’s date (March 19th – the day I would give my testimony) and it read: “God has great plans for you. He has important things He wants you to do. And He is preparing you for your destiny right now. But you have to take steps of obedience in order to get there. And you have to trust that He knows the way and wont hurt you in the process.” Wow, has He not let me know that I am to move forward or what?!!  So I wrote Mr. Clifton and agreed to speak at the revival, then I became really sick causing me to miss church that night and work on Friday. I was in bed all day Friday and Saturday then on Sunday morning  still sick and unable to sleep; I woke up at 4:00 am. I prayed and started reading in the Bible. Then when I looked on Facebook I saw a post that read, “It’s working in your favor. You may not see it yet but a way is being made. Mind blowing blessings are on the way. Expect doors to be opened!” (@TonyGaskins). Those blessings were on the way that night as people were set free from bondage after hearing my testimony.

I definitely knew I was to speak at that revival at Community Church. But as I said afterwards those fiery darts came bountifully. I missed church several times due to sickness; even having to have someone cover the nursery for me one day. Then someone tried to convince me that my beliefs were wrong and that my standards were too high. They stated that they had studied theology and that marriage was nothing more than a piece of paper. In their belief sex was ok as long as two people truly loved one another. When I refused to agree with their beliefs it was almost as if every other area of my life was attacked.  I was told that I was trying to earn my way into Heaven by being good. And I felt as if I was being put down for everything that I had been doing for God due to comments that were made. After a few weeks of hearing this; I started to question everything that I was doing. Had God really called me to work in the nursery, to write or be a part of Emerge Ministries!?? I wasn’t sure anymore and could not think straight or function normally. My mind was clouded and I was stressed and overwhelmed.  It seemed I could do nothing right! I had started to believe the lies of the enemy and I broke that hedge with my doubts of who God had called me to be and what I was to do for Him.

The next thing that happened was I wrote a blog post titled “Desiring to Be Loved in the Brokenness.” With that particular post I failed to pray before I wrote it or even before I published it as I was babysitting that weekend and was in a hurry and I wasn’t the most pleasant of persons. I lost my cool when I was writing it. Since then, I remembered something Pastor Joyce has always told me; “If it is of God then there will be peace”. There was no peace that night for me and that post was hurtful to my parents. A comment that I had included appeared as if I wasn’t loved as a child and that is far from the truth as my parents have always loved me. People show love in different ways but people want to be shown in different ways. However the wording in that post came across wrong.  I never meant to hurt anyone; but the enemy came in and caused chaos within my family. My mom was so hurt that it took over a week before she could talk to me and I don’t blame her. Not having her talk to me was extremely devastating. And now I realize all of this was an attack to bring me down; and down I was.

Two days after the post an incident happened at work and to this day I still do not know what happened. My co-worker was extremely snappy towards me when I spoke to her and she became very distant from me the rest of the week. I don’t have a clue as to what was up, but that week was extremely rotten and a lot of fiery darts were being thrown my way by satan and his demons.  With so much going on my body tensed up causing pain all over and anxiety and depression was beginning to overtake me. I felt as if I was not going to be able to continue with anything. I wanted to walk away from my job and completely give up on writing this blog and writing for Emerge Ministries. I knew I was dying mentally, emotionally and spiritually and reached out in a text for prayer to two very precious ladies in my life.  Praise God the next week was a much needed spring break. God gave me time to be alone to repent, refocus and return to my secret place with Him.

…..Exodus 20:12 (NLT) – “Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the LORD your God is giving you.

However, before spring break could hit I spoke with a friend on the phone in whom I cried on. They were trying to explain to me to not take stuff personal and not allow people to get to me; but sensitive me don’t work that way. However, I think what upset me the most is when I told them my mom wouldn’t talk to me; they didn’t wait to hear that it was my fault. The term used was “screw them” and to me this is so wrong on so many levels. The Fifth Commandant says we are to honor our parents so of course I didn’t agree with my friend but said nothing; instead I gave it to God and prayed. But then again as I said, my friend didn’t wait to hear what had happened. I know they had my best interest at heart and I understand this now. But I have come to realize that sometimes when we desire to help others; we may be too quick to speak and perhaps we (myself included) need to listen more.  So dealing with this and everything else, I was a complete and total wreck.

….Matthew 12:37 – “For by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned.”

Spring break week arrived and I spent time outside and at the beach. God and I had many conversations that week and things started looking better. My mom called me back after I left her a message and I went to visit her. Returning to work the next week; things were fine and dandy between my co-worker and myself and have been since. Out of all the 7 1/2 years I have been there; this was the first time anything like this had happened. But when one thing doesn’t go satan’s way then he tries another as he has attacked my health and my pocketbook. But praise God for He made a way!

I declare the manifestation of healing to my body for I was healed over 2,000 years ago. God says in Mark 5:34 that my faith has made me whole in Jesus Name, Amen!

When satan hits your finances, health, family and ministry; he is testing your faith and your foundation in Christ. My riding mower tore up but my awesome nephew and brother repaired it for me. Then my AC went out on my 2004 Toyota Highlander but praise God one window will still roll down.  It went out after I spoke with the Impact Girls (young girls) group at church about the importance of prayer. And I explained to them how Samantha’s prayers at such an early age were used to change my life and lead me to salvation; affording me a personal relationship with my Heavenly Father. And that if she had not prayed for me, I would not be here today.

Satan came after my finances when I had to pay for my home AC repair, increase in insurance and lawn mower repair;  but God provided! Then Samantha was blessed with a full time position in her dream job. God still providing!  Satan’s attacks were physically, mentally, emotionally, financially, with relationships including family, friends, ministry and work. Although things were extremely tough during this time, it’s ok because within a month I grew in God, standing on His Word in faith. The enemy tried to get me off the course that God has for me because he wants only to destroy me. He just hasn’t realized he is a defeated foe.

I may have had clouded perception and fell for a moment; but praise God I realized the trick of the enemy before he completely destroyed me. I’ve grown in Christ and was able to stand on the Word and keep myself pure; the old me would have never realized what was happening. I praise God for He carried me through the storms and I came out stronger and wiser. Through all of this my mind was clouded but praise God I realized the attack of the enemy and didn’t spiral down as I had in the past but I got back up, quickly! Having God in or out of our life can make a  difference, just as the difference is in night and day.

The scriptures I spoke over myself after I realized I was under spiritual attack are:

Ephesians 6:16 – I can quench all the fiery darts of the enemy with the shield of faith.

Philippians 4:13 – I can do all things through Christ Jesus.

James 1:22,25 – I am a doer of the Word and blessed in my actions.

1 Corinthians 6:19 – I am the temple of the Holy Spirit, I am not my own.

Deuteronomy 28:13 – I am the head and not the tail; I am above only and not beneath.

Deuteronomy 28:15-68  & Galatians 3:13 – I am redeemed from the curse of sin, sickness, and poverty.

Colossians 2:7 – I am firmly rooted built up, established in my faith and overflowing with gratitude.

Psalm 66:8 & 2 Timothy 1:9 – I am called of God to be the voice of His Praise.

Isaiah 53:5 & 1 Peter 2:24 – I am healed by the strips of Jesus.

James 4:7 – I am submitted to God, and the devil flees from me because I resist him in the name of Jesus.

2 Timothy 1:7 – For god has not given us a spirit of fear; but of power, love and a sound mind.

Galatians 2:20 – It is not I who live but Christ lives in me.

Sharing such intimate details of my life is extremely difficult. However, I pray that with me being real and being so transparent that it will show you that even a seasoned Christian can fall prey to the schemes of the enemy. We must stay in the Word and communicate with our Father to keep that personal relationship intimate. Do not allow the things of this world to keep you so busy that you loose focus of what is important! With all that I have shared now you see that for over a month the raging war within was a battle of the spirits. Satan once again tried to stop me by distracting me……But God!!!

Ephesians 6:12 (AMP)- For our struggle is not against flesh and blood [contending only with physical opponents], but against the rulers, against the powers, against the world forces of this [present] darkness, against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly [supernatural] places.

To God the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit be All the Glory!

Much Love to you all,


Remember God Loves You! (John 3:16)

The Raging War Within – Part 1

Just as God provides for the birds of the air, He provides for me. He is my shelter in the storms as I am safely wrapped in His arms and He carries me when I feel I can’t go on. The past month I have had many days that I felt I could not go on.  And I have discovered that not everyone believes in the spiritual warfare that is around us. Attacks are real, but we do not wrestle against flesh and blood but against powers of darkness. And the more we do for our Father; the angrier satan gets and will send those fiery darts to try to take us down.  It’s not people that we battle against but the dark forces of evil in a spiritual realm. As you have most likely noticed I haven’t written in the blog in a few weeks. I have been in the midst of a spiritual battle.

*****Ephesians 6:12-13 – For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

When I started this blog, I did so because God put me on assignment to be His hands, voice, and feet to show others that He is real and desires a personal relationship with them. And my hearts desire is to continue to please God with all that I am. Not only is this assignment to glorify God but He has used this to open my eyes and to heal me from my past so that I may become that mighty warrior that He is calling me to be. I praise God that I am not that person that I use to be; however I am still not where I want to be but God is making me.

It was March 14th my mama’s birthday, I was sick and left work early. While driving home I received a message from Mr. Clifton to call him that he needed to talk to me. So I immediately called him and he asked me to speak at the revival at the Community Church. He told me that he had read my blog and that others need to hear my testimony. Scared to death, I told him that I would pray about it.  I was reluctant because I don’t like to be seen; and I do not like standing in front of people; not to mention I have never stood in front of a church full of people sharing such intimate details of my life. The only thing remotely close was when I shared a small part of my testimony with a small group of women years ago.

Still sick the next day, I stayed home from work and slept all day. But on Thursday I was feeling better and went to work. However from Tuesday to Thursday; I received three conformations so I knew I was suppose to share my testimony. I sent Mr. Clifton a message that day and agreed to speak so he shortly let me know that Sunday night was open. I accepted and then almost immediately I got extremely sick with flu like symptoms. I missed work again on Friday, and then Saturday and Sunday I was still not well. Missing church service Sunday morning; I was determined satan was not going to stop me from speaking because now I knew that is exactly what he was trying to do. I told Samantha I was going to go speak even if I had to share and leave immediately.

The drive to Community Church was a rough one as satan started speaking his lies. Fear overcame me and satan was whispering to me that I wasn’t good enough to stand in front of that church behind that pulpit. I almost turned around and went home but I just couldn’t. We reached the church and went inside. Then Judy and Terry came in and sat with Samantha and myself. Trying to not appear afraid; God spoke to Judy and told her to pray with me and give me a message. With praise and worship music playing; she pointed for me to meet her at the back of the church. When I met her there; she asked was I scared. I said “Yes”! But then she told me that God told her to tell me to not be afraid that I can’t mess up because it was His story. Then she prayed with me that a peace would over take me.  This peace didn’t happen at that moment; but just as soon as I stood behind that pulpit and I started to open my mouth; there was such a great peace. I didn’t stutter nor was I nervous at all. The Holy Spirit just flowed as my testimony came out.

Once I finished and sat down I realized the reason I had to speak. More than what I had put into my blog came out that night. Several people stood up to thank me for sharing because the first young lady had held bitterness and anger towards her mom for a long time. She told me that just seeing the love between Samantha and myself and how much Samantha loves me even with all the hell that I had put her through; gave her the strength to forgive her mom just that night. She was at peace and was free from the bondage that she had been under of unforgiveness and said she was going to see her mom the next day. And she said that things were going to be different from that day forward.

Another young lady, my dear friend stood up and said she thought she was alone in being bitterly angry and hateful to her daughter for many years. She realized that night that we don’t have to carry that guilt and shame; that we can use our story to help others as we thank God for forgiving and changing us. Another woman asked me to keep her daughter in prayer as she was going through an abusive marriage. Then three different men stood up and thanked me for sharing and told me to keep holding on to God and that He will send me that special man that He chooses; to never lose faith. They too had been through divorce; but when they trusted God he sent them beautiful God fearing women.

*****Psalm 37:4 (NIV) Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.

The next four weeks was a battle from hell as one fiery dart after another came. Between being sick and missing church, being criticized for believing the word of God and keeping my moral standards high; upsetting my parents and causing mama to not want to talk for a few days, and  a coworker talking cross to me and me not having any idea why; I was almost at the end of my rope. I felt a depression starting to overtake me. I felt I was dying physically, however I was dying mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Satan was on a mission to stop me from doing for God.

Join me next time as I continue this story and share with you how God saved me.

Remember God Loves You and So Do I !!

To God the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit be all the Glory!



Desiring To Be Loved In The Brokenness

I’ve always heard it takes a village to raise a child and recently I have seen just that. I’ve missed a week of posting but I now understand why; as I needed to watch and listen. This post is completely off my testimony path but kinda ties in with the beginning of the rest of my story. Since giving my testimony at Community Church Revival a few weeks ago; I have been under a huge attack from Satan not only physically, but mentally, emotionally and spiritually. But God reminded me this morning that if there wasn’t something huge that I am being used for, then the enemy wouldn’t be fighting me so hard. I just have to remind the enemy who I am and that he is defeated. God also brought to mind that in a search for love; the only true love is of God and that we all want the approval and love of a Father.

The past week has been extremely eye opening to me. My heart has broken for many reasons;  but one being for kids who are just desiring to be loved. Acting out, rebellious, angry, bitter, and defiant; this is so heart breaking  because this is exactly how I remember myself being as a child and it followed me into adulthood. I know I wasn”t the peefect child and still have faults. However my wonderful parents are still together, and I know they have always loved me but I guess I needed to hear it. And I honestly don’t remember hearing it until after my first divorce. Not saying they never did, I just dont remember hearing it.People show love in different ways and my parents are amazing parents who had a rebellious daughter and it was probably difficult to show love or tell me, or perhaps I just didn’t listen. But God creates beauty from ashes.

However reflecting about kids this really tugged at my heart. It reminded me of when Samantha was young and I was so impatient with her. I’ve seen the  pain and heartache in children’s eyes;  just longing for love and acceptance. Most of these I’ve watched have been children of single parent families and the child is reaching out for love from the opposite parent that isn’t with them. Just as my own daughter did and has as she has grown up. She just wanted a daddy’s love and mommy’s too, as my life was preoccupied a lot of the time with fulfilling my desires. We as parents can be some selfish people!

Just this past weekend I was so touched as to things I witnessed. One precious little boy desiring to have the love of a mother was so excited when I gave him attention and just simply spent time with him. This thrilled him so much that before leaving me he gave me hugs and said ever so sweetly “I love you”. This totally and completely melted my heart!

Then as I watched a sweet little three year being defiant as she fought sleep. In the arms of someone she just met that day; I watched him speak ever so gently and calmly to her as she finally fell asleep. But not before she hit him about 30 times;  patience and persistence paid off.  I so admired the patience he had with her and realized that this is exactly what kids need. The next day this sweet child ran straight to his arms desiring to be held just as soon as he arrived at my house. She so longs for a fathers love.

Crying is what I heard almost everyday for a week. Saturday with the precious 3 year old, Sunday in the church nursery, then at work this past week. You’ve already heard about the 3 year old so let me tell you the rest. In the church nursery was a new child desiring to be with her mom; she did not want to stay. However, we knew that with patience and persistence eventually she will get use to being with the other kids and away from mom. If we gave in she would never learn to stay. Then at work I’ve seen children in trouble and brought up to the office because of one reason or another. But on Monday this one child really struck me as he cried. I watch him all the time coming and going, and basically a sweet child but parents aren’t together. Then this week God brought back a little girl that moved away about 2 years ago. Such a sweet girl who I’ve been praying for and wondering if she were ok. Her home life was one that was broken to the point she didn’t want to live, so you can imagine how excited I was to look up and see her. 

From all of this, God has shared with me that even my own childs brokenness was because of me. The choices I made affected her. My inability to display patience and being a train wreck myself; made it difficult to be the mother God wanted me to be. And I was running from God! It’s a ripple effect. If we don’t have ourself together and are constantly bringing new people in and out of our kids lives; then they never see stability. They only experience loss after loss and afraid that eventually everyone is going to leave them.

Samantha was already fearful enough from loosing her daddy, that I didn’t want her to get attached to everyone that came along. We have to protect our kids! To them it becomes an expectation that nothing is to stay the same and everyone who I love will leave me.  But what are we teaching our kids!? Certainly not what God says we should. Kids need stability and know that not everyone is going to leave them. There little minds can get so confused when parents are not persistent, patient, and stable. They learn by example; we are their role-models. What are we teaching them?! When we the parents are inconsistent; why would we expect our kids to be anything other than what we are!

Lonely, broken, depressed, bitter, angry, etc. I  desired love and so wanted Samantha to have that daddy she so longed for. Although I met many men; Samantha didn’t!  Thank God I only exposed her to just a few; not bringing them all to my home. I haven’t been the best mom or the best role model but she knows that God has transformed me. Although I am still not perfect and will not be until God decides to take me home. I still battle some days when I fail to give it all to God.

Monday night Samantha and I were talking and I ask her why kids are so terrified that people were not coming back. She told me that for her; she didn’t want me out of her sight when she was young because everyone else she got close too left. Her dad bounced in and out of her life to the point that she may see him once a year now. And she would love to be able to see him every day. Then she told me that the other two men that came into our lives and she called Daddy; they too walked out and left her. She said, “Mama it hurt that every man I got attached to walked away from me!” She is 23 years old and still feels like her dads  walked out on her. I realized right then that kids have to be protected.

With everyone leaving; the fear is real that the parent that is left will eventually leave and not come back too. Parents what I am trying to say is please protect your babies. Don’t allow everyone you meet to meet your kids. This causes more harm than good. And parents that are separated and divorced; love your kids and show them you love them. Don’t put down or talk negatively about the other parent as your babies are caught in the middle. Find a way to work together and give your kids the best life possible so they don’t go out searching for love in all the wrong places, things or people. They need you to be stable so their life can be too. If you aren’t sure what to do; start with prayer and ask God to come into your life. This is the beginning of a life of love that no one on this earth will ever be able to give you! The best gift you can give your child is an introduction to Christ.

Proverbs 22:6 – Train up a child in the way he should go, And when he is old he will not depart from it.

I have shared from my heart today and I pray that this helps someone!

Join me next week when I return to my life testimony.

Much Love To You All,




Heading For Disaster Or Preparing For The Calling


When I started writing the post this week, I was riding on our Emerge Ministries bus to Washington, DC to show the love of God to the homeless. I prayed that God would give me the words to share because I normally am in a quiet room writing as the Holy Spirit downloads to me. Of course on a bus with a ministry team it’s anything but quiet. But I would not have it any other way as I have loved every moment of this weekend with my family and looking forward to many years of traveling together. God always provides a way when it is of Him! All we need to be is willing and obedient.

As we were riding God reminded me of being stuck in traffic earlier this week and I started writing. God works in amazing ways as we toured the homeless shelter, our tour guide told us all about the facility and the program. But then he said that God just has to slow us down sometimes to get us where we need to be! That hit home! I knew right then that God is on the move with this post, the weekend and in my  life.

Life sometimes is a journey on its own. The twist and turns can sometimes be for our own good. Driving to work two days this week I got behind slow cars. At first I was upset because I was running a little behind; but then I realized perhaps I avoided a ticket or an accident. God let me know that just like when we get behind a slow car, He will sometimes slow us down in life. He does this to teach us a lesson and perhaps to protect us or those we love.

Sometimes we are in too big of a hurry and headed for disaster. We aren’t quite ready for what is in front of us or perhaps what He called us to do. He slows us down so we can be prepared to reach the destination He has for us. He will even put others in the path to ruffle our feathers, so to speak, to work on our hearts and change us for the better. He gave me a thought. How is it that we have so much patience and love towards others but not with our own family! Hummm…..something hit home with that thought because I know how I have been towards my own family; especially my daughter.

When we get in a hurry or be impatient we don’t think clearly and make quick decisions that not only affect the rest of our life but others around us. This includes our words, actions, reactions and attitudes. Things we say can hurt others tremendously to the point they feel unworthy, unloved and unwanted. Not only have I been on the receiving end but I’ve been guilty of giving it alot! God told me that I must be patient with and show love to those of my own house. Sometimes we fail to remember this because its easier to hide our ugly behind closed doors. But we must remember God sees everything!

Our hearts must reflect our love in our own home just as much as outside of it. This is one of the lessons that God wants us to remember when we are stuck in that traffic or dealing with a person whom we tend to be impatient with. Remember He is preparing our heart with every test and as He slows us down its either for our protection, a lesson or both. We must remember the next time we get irritated or start to loose our cool, just perhaps its a growing experience for us so we can reach our destiny and fulfill the calling on our life.

Be still and know that I am God is what He has told me many times. He says listen and I will guide you. We have to get in our quiet place and be still in order to hear Him. It’s hard to hear that faint whisper when we are too busy, in a hurry, impatient, too loud, not on the Word and not focused. Instead of being so set on what we want perhaps we should ask God what He wants. After all He created us for a specific purpose and who better to know what we should do. Others are watching!

Ephesians 4:1-6

If only I had of been still and listened to God many years ago my life perhaps would have been much differently. The heartache and pain have been deeper than I remembered as the Holy Spirit guides me on this blog. Although I ran for many years instead of following God, He never gave up on me! Praise His Holy Name!

We all have cracks in our lives! However; God repairs the cracks in broken hearts and broken lives! We need to trust, believe and listen as the Holy Spirit guides us. Are you heading for disaster or preparing for your calling?

God loves you and so do I !

Join me next week when I return to my life testimony!

Have a Blessed Week!


Trust and Fear Not – God’s Got This!

This week God has me going in a different direction for this blog post. I will return to my life story where Samantha was a baby really soon; perhaps next weekend.  But for now God has a lesson for us, just as He has taught me this week. We have to be obedient and willing to do as He asked, in order to fulfill the calling and destiny He has for us.

Life sometimes has a way of teaching us lessons; perhaps a lot from our own mistakes and sometimes the mistakes of others. Regardless sometimes God uses rabbit trails to get out attention and to get our eyes off our circumstances and to trust Him. These life lessons are difficult and down right scary sometimes; until we trust Him completely!

God has told me several times this week to “Fear Not”! I know I am not to fear; because God has always taken care of me. Even when I didn’t realize it was Him that was doing so. But sometimes satan tries to sidetrack us and I needed that reminder to put me back on track. This week there have been many issues in my personal life and family that have concerned me. But God has reminded me several times that He has this, do not fear!

While reading  Proverbs Chapter 12 this week God let me know that I will have peace and joy because of my obedience in sharing His Word with the world in this blog. In verse 24 “The hand of the diligent will rule, But the lazy man will be put to forced labor.”  A friend of mine shared on Facebook this week a prophecy that there are some that will be removed from the 40 hour work week and will be in ministry full time to glorify God.  This really excited me as I felt God was speaking to me! Although these were not his exact words but you get the gist of it. Now listen carefully, as you continue to read!

God sent me a family when I desperately needed one and needed to feel like I belonged and had a purpose. My life has been such a train wreck; and never in my wildest dreams would I have ever thought God could and would want to use me! Before I started writing this blog; I argued with God because I didn’t want to share my life with the world. I knew how my life had been and how terrible I had been, to the point I was afraid to write my story for fear of losing my job. But God said, “Do you love your job more than me?” Whoaaaaa……that got my attention!!!   I said, “No”! “I love you more” and I started writing this blog for God. I knew at that moment; that regardless of what comes up or what happens, He will provide, period! If something is taken; He will replace with greater!

I have to admit I have never liked change and do not like to be seen. I was a very shy child and have been a somewhat timid (sober) adult, but when I was drunk it was a different story. But that story is for another day. Anyway I have always liked things to stay the same and have never liked stepping out of my comfort zone.  As a lot of people do; we just like familiarity.  Well that all went right out the window, so to speak, when I decided to completely dedicate my life to God. He likes to shake things up a little, but in a good way.

Shortly after I started preparing the website for the blog I was invited to join a team of amazingly beautiful people that are on fire for God and want to show His love to the world. God sent to me my Emerge Ministry Family and I was welcomed with open arms. Immediately I knew I was home! I love the heart and compassion that each and every one of these awesome family members have. God knew just what I needed and blessed me with numerous brothers and sisters. We aren’t just a team, we are Family and I thank God for each of them! They have my back and cover me in prayer and if I need them, they will be right here for me.

Since I have started writing this blog, doing street ministry with my Emerge Family, praying with strangers, loving on the unlovable and praying at the flagpole every morning at work; I am doing things I never thought I could do! God will send you on rabbit trails to get you off the comfortable path you are on to sometimes get you on the right path for your life. What we settle for isn’t what is best! God has so much more in store for us; if we will just listen and obey.

*****Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you, ” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

*****Deuteronomy 28:9 (NIV) The Lord will establish you as his holy people, as he promised you on oath, if you keep the commands of the Lord your God and walk in obedience to him.

Now, that I have been on a rabbit trail in this story; let me get back on track.  Remember my friends prophecy from earlier in the story? You see. since devoting my life completely to God and writing this blog; I have had the desire to travel and minister for God full-time. I love photography and I love to travel; especially flying thanks to an old boyfriend that is a pilot. Anyway, I have often thought about traveling and doing photography and never thought it could happen. But, you know what?  I believe my friends prophesy on Facebook was for my Emerge Family and myself. I already am traveling, talking my pictures and blogging for God but I am trusting God for greater. And I am believing that I will receive double for my trouble, so to speak. What I allowed satan to steal from me will be restored even greater. Although I had to go on some of those rabbit trails in life to get back to where I am suppose to be; God can and will use me. He already is! Remember God makes beauty from our ashes.

*****Isaiah 61:7-9 (NIV) Instead of your shame you will receive double portion, and instead of disgrace you will receive in your inheritance. And so you will inherit a double portion in your land, and everlasting joy will be yours. “For I, the Lord, love justice; I hate robbery and wrongdoing. In my faithfulness I will reward my people and make an everlasting covenant with them. Their descendants will be known among the nations and their offspring among the peoples. All who see them will acknowledge that they are a people the Lord has blessed.”

My life may have been a train wreck but God is a merciful and gracious God that never gave up on me! He had a plan and a purpose for my life from the beginning. It just took numerous rabbit trails to get me on the right path.  All those years of feeling inadequate, rejected and unloved by the world; He just wanted me to turn to Him. Instead I ran. What was I thinking! I sure wasn’t thinking about living for God; I thought that would be boring and I would miss out. But you know what; living for God is anything but boring I missed out by delaying my life with God. All my years of running and living in the world, I never had the fulfillment, satisfaction, joy, peace and love that I do now!

My wrong choices in life put me on some wrong paths; but God used all those rabbit trails to bring me back to where He needs me. All my experiences, the pain and heartaches that I had are being used in this ministry as I blog for God. It is not only helping others but bringing healing to wounds I didn’t even realize I had.

****** Deuteronomy 30: 3-13

Regardless of what you are going through; whatever the storm, trust and fear not….. God’s got this! Never be afraid to get uncomfortable for God, thats when life becomes really awesome! Don’t be so stuborn and set in your ways that you are not willing to get out of the way in order for God to move on your behalf and those around you. He wants to place you into the destiny that He designed you for!

I am one voice! And my voice carries weight for the Kingdom of God! Praise God, He chose me! Hallelujah!

God Loves You ….. and So Do I !

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God’s GPS and Road Signs of Life

You now know I am on assignment by God to share my life testimony. It’s not been easy and at first I was reluctant because of what people may say. But God let me know I am not here to please people, but to please Him! And I am to love others right where they are, but love them enough to share the truth and to not leave them there!

Sometimes, when you realize someone else knows your pain and has experienced it, you watch their life and say hey if it got better for them it can for me. And sometimes the compassion that a person has for you can make the greatest difference in your life. Simply seeing God move in someone elses life is a huge eye-opener. The love and compassion that God has blessed me with hasn’t always been a part of my life. But today I am a new creation in and through Christ. I refuse to turn back as He made Beauty from my ashes! I have so much to be thankful for and I most definitely am! This is why I write to you with such compassion and love in my heart as I pour out my heart to you.  I want to see you walk in peace, joy and love. But most importantly to walk in obedience to God is my desire. If my experiences can help just one person; it is so worth everything I have gone through to be able to help you.  So I write as He instructs and gives me the words.

I am sitting on the beach writing this post because God spoke to me today at church and He knows my love of the beach. I simply think its one of God’s most beautiful creations. Therefore He knew I would hear clearly from Him in this special place to share with you the beauty of His Love for us. He wants us to experience that love that we so desire! Only God can do that!

Matthew 6:33- “But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.”

If we seek God first then He will give us the love of our life here on earth! He’s a jealous God and will not take any other place in our life. If we choose to put Him on the back burner then we will reap the consequences.

God clearly gives us a roadmap to follow; its like a GPS. It will lead us in the right direction if we pay attention and don’t stray off on to a different path. But even when we do; just as a GPS re-routes us, God too will try to re-route us. However; it’s up to us to listen and obey. He gives us freedom to do what we want. And I know He has sat up there in Heaven shaking His head many a day and saying my child Donna when will you learn!.

You see pride and stubbornness blocks blessings in our lives. But when we lay it all down and humble ourselves before God, then He can move in our lives. We don’t have the answers unless we go to God first. He created us, knows everything about us and wants the very best for us! Sometimes we think God is too strict and that we should be able to live as we please. Well we can! But don’t expect to walk through those pearly gates living a life against God”s Word! Part of those consequences that I spoke of!

These restrictions (safeties) are like traffic signs to keep us safe! If you don’t obey a stop sign you could be in a world of trouble, with oncoming traffic, a ditch, etc… A wreck waiting to happen! Talking  about wrecking our lives; when we step outside of God’s Will, our lives are disastrous. This means not receiving God’s  best that we could have because we settled. Yes God can take bad and make good but don’t you want the best He has to offer? Why settle for bologna when you can have Filet Mignon!

Roadblocks and detours are in our life because we will not allow God to sustain us on the straight path. He is trying to catch our attention to protect us.  We are so stubborn and full of pride and arrogance that we can’t put things down in order to seek God first. We want the things first in our life and when we pursue those instead of God; we become out of alignment. Sadly, when we pursue our fleshly desires, it’s not what is best for us.

Romans 1: 24 (NIV) Therefore God gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodies with one another.

I am not here to judge or condemn but to speak truth and share from my personal experience. I love you regardless, please keep this in mind as you continue reading. Some think that living together and having sex outside of marriage are ok. But, it’s not! I have been guilty of this in my past;  see where it has gotten me! God gives us restrictions (safeties) to protect us and give us freedoms. Outside of marriage those freedoms can hurt us physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually and this has happened to me. God designed marriage to be between man and woman with the design of becoming one flesh. I hate to break it to you, but it doesn’t say boyfriend and girlfriend to become one flesh! If you are living together. I still love you and will not judge for that is not my duty.

Mark 10:6 – 8  (NIV) But at the beginning of creation God made them male and female. For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh. So they are no longer two, but one flesh.

When we stray off course, God gives us signs to help us get back on the correct road, sometimes using people. If we continue off the beaten path away from God we will definitely bring destruction upon ourselves. Just like the GPS and road signs; God gives us the signs to let us know it’s the wrong way, he’s trying to speak to us in our relationships. But just as we refuse to obey a stop sign at the end of a road and run into the ditch; we too can place ourself in a ditch that is hard to get out of. Spiritual derailment is death!

I understand about wanting someone in your life,  Believe me!  But I also understand that I want God’s best for me and I pray that you do too. The thing to remember is that satan too knows what we want and will send detours into our life to distract us and try to get us off the straight path. When we are anxious and settle, most times we end up in a relationship that we shouldn’t have been in to begin with.  For this reason, we have to seek God first to protect ourselves. Pastor Jim preached a message today about proper timing and alignment. When we are out of alignment with God there is a sway or a pull into another direction. We get out of alignment because we want the things first and we are persuaded by the environment that we keep. When we find ourselves sidetracked, distracted, swerving or leaning in the wrong direction; then it is up to us to remove ourselves from evil.

Proverbs 4:27 (NIV) Do not turn to the right or the left; keep your foot from evil.

If God ordains a relationship there will be peace, joy, love, and no doubts (you will not have to wonder or ask where the relationship is heading). Godly men and women date with a purpose; to seek marriage, not to just hang out!  A Godly man or woman will  pray with you and for you and not just at meals. The right relationship will lead you closer to God and not pull you away. Pride and arrogance have no place in any relationship.

Ladies, if he’s not treating you with the utmost respect; and gets offended or upset because you say no, then he’s not the one. Or if he gets upset and distances himself after you let him know that you will not live as the world does and you refuse to spend nights with him; then know that he is not the one. But that he is the one that has been sent to destroy you and pull you back into Egypt. Our flesh is weak; but with God all things are possible (Matthew 19:26) and I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me (Philippians 4:13).  Remember satan disguises himself to be everything you’ve ever wanted to get you hooked. Be wise to his schemes. Just because he says he is a Christian don’t mean he is. Not everyone who attends church has a personal relationship with God! We will know them by their fruits.

Matthew 7:15-18 (NKJV) Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheep’s clothing, but inwardly they are ravenous wolves. You will know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes from thorn bushes or figs from thistles? Even so, every good tree bears good fruit, but a bad tree bears bad fruit. A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, nor can a bad tree bear good fruit.

I saw a Facebook post this last week that reminded me of how I use to be. Don’t wait on a text, a message or a telephone call. We are much more valuable than that! We are not on clearance and must remember we are to die for and Jesus did that for us! Ladies, if a guy is interested he will definitely let you know. If he goes all day and doesn’t text you back or doesn’t answer your call or at least return it; then know perhaps you aren’t a priority. When things are out of alignment, there is friction and where there is friction, there is no peace and joy.

God sent someone to me September 8, 2016 to prophesy over me about my future husband. All I will share at this time is that He has handpicked him for me. I was instructed by God to stop looking, that he will appear out of nowhere and I will know without a shadow of doubt that he’s the one! I am standing on His Word because His Word does not return void!

“Our faith is not really tested until God asks us to bear what seems unbearable, do what seems unreasonable, and expect what seems impossible.”  Quote by Warren Wiersbe

Within just a few weeks of this word from God; I received the third confirmation about writing this blog for God. This is not something that I wanted to do. But when God speaks we must be obedient as our destiny and the destiny of others depends on our obedience.

Never forget your Worth! Pay attention to God’s GPS and road signs and protect your destiny! Don’t you want the best that God has for you? Don’t settle, seek God first!

Proverbs 16:20 – He who heeds a word wisely will find good. And whoever trusts in the Lord. Happy is he.

God Loves You & So Do I..

Join me next week as my life testimony continues.

Christmas Miracles – How the Poorest Christmas Became the Richest


Sorry this blog post is a day late. With my Christmas visits with family and friends I am running behind!

When I woke this morning (Christmas morning) I had every intention to pick back up on the story of my life. But God spoke to me and is sending me in a different direction tonight. You see God has shown me the true meaning of Christmas this year and it’s not about expensive presents like most people think.

Jesus was born at Christmas and is the greatest Christmas gift we will ever receive. His love for us is immeasurable.  {Luke 2:1-20}


It started back at the beginning of December when depression tried to overtake me. Being a single mom with a daughter trying to find a full time job can be very difficult financially. Then on top of financial hardship there are the memories of the past when you had an entire family.  Just seems like life is so unfair sometimes. But then again our choices in life get us where we are. We can’t always blame the devil because he isn’t that good, so lets not give him too much credit. Most of the time it’s our own fault. But to get back on track with this story; I told you in a earlier post about the AC unit repair and the electric bills cleaning out my bank accounts. Hence cleaned out accounts, one household income and trying to keep things going, equals two broke girls at Christmas.

I was so depressed thinking about not being able to buy gifts this year for my friends and family like I had done in the past. I was thinking about the movie “Christmas in Canaan” where they were financially unable to buy Christmas gifts so they cut out pictures from catalogs of the items they wanted to be able to give and wrapped them. They gave from their heart although there was no tangible gift there was love. I thought about this movie several times. The things I wanted to be able to buy and what I could afford were no where near each other. I kept reminding myself God always knows what we need and He always provides.

As Christmas got closer and it was almost time for Christmas break from work I struggled because I wanted to buy gifts for coworkers and my bosses. Myself, I love it when others make things for me as these gifts are from the heart. But when you hear others around you discussing all the expensive things they are purchasing for love ones it makes you wonder if you perhaps are alone in appreciating the simple heart felt gifts. By this time I didn’t feel that my homemade goodies I was contemplating making were going to be good enough.  But I wanted to give them something; so I baked with love. And although I didn’t buy what my heart wanted for my family; I purchased what I could.  But this past week God allowed me to discover that my poorest Christmas has been my richest. Although I was financially unable to give to others, God used me as His voice, hands and feet to help several this Christmas.

It started last Wednesday night with an instant message in Facebook from a friend. She told me of a young mom with four little ones that were in need of help for Christmas. This young mom had left an abusive relationship and moved with just the clothing on their back and trash bag full of more. She is trying to find work and her car broke down in need of repair. My first thought was how in the world can I help; I don’t have any money and it’s 3 days before Christmas Eve! But then I said I would ask to see if anyone knew of any help out there for Christmas for the kids. After I reached out in an instant message to a few of my friends; the responses were funds are exhausted. Two of my friends and I were in a conversation in this message wishing we had the money to just go shopping for these kids. Then at 8:53pm I said “God will provide, He always has for me”! Then Lori said “Donna you are  absolutely correct” and immediately Judy said “Yes I totally agree!” At 8:56pm my telephone rang and she said I have toys for you!  It was one of my friends that was included in the message. She was at her church and they had been abundantly blessed in their toy drive this year; therefore having lots of toys left. She told me I would be surprised and I most definitely was when I got to her house the next day and she opened the trunk of her car! It was full! But my dear friend had also put together a sweet gift for the mom. I was so excited that this family would be able to have Christmas gifts.

Now to contact the friend and let her know I have toys for the kids and see about getting them delivered. The plan was to meet her Saturday but when I woke up on Thursday this mama was on my mind. We needed to deliver to the family instead of to my friend. So I texted Judy to see when she was available on Friday to go with me. But during all of this I had to make sure if was ok for us to show up and deliver to mom. When I received the ok and the address; which was one and a half hour drive from me, I was asked to check on a few more details for not only the kids but for mom. So  I  got her number, called and left her a message of who I am, told her I was one voice of my ministry team and that we have toys for the kids donated by my friends church and I needed to speak with her. When she called me back, she was overly excited and cried almost the entire time while talking to me.

After getting the needed info such as clothing sizes, things that were needed, things wanted, particular interest and anything that the kids have asked for, etc. I took pictures of the list and immediately texted to another voice of the ministry team. The items then were put on a wish list and the wishes were fulfilled.

The next morning was delivery day and knowing my financial situation I prayed on the way to the gas station and told God that I was trusting Him to provide. Then I received a text saying we needed boxes or trash bags to use to hide the toys. So I go to the store to get lawn size bags and as soon as I walk in I saw a friend from long ago. So excited to see him, I gave him a hug and we talked for a little while. After finding out I was delivering to the family he wanted to help out and gave me $20 and said to use it for gas or wherever needed. God provided! I went and got gas and proceeded to Judy’s. When I arrived at the studio my heart was so full after I walked in and saw all the items that had been purchased for the entire family. This was on top of what the church had given! God is so good!

We loaded up my SUV and delivered everything to this beautiful family. After talking with the mom, I knew why God had chosen me to be the voice, the hands and feet for Him. She was at a point where I have been several times– Giving up, not wanting to live anymore, thinking God can’t possibly love me and has forgotten me! He gave me a word for her and I shared it with tears in both of our eyes and pain in my heart. I knew exactly how she was feeling! God has a huge plan for this sweet mom!

Saturday morning came around and I had plans to go see Christmas lights with my daughter and cousin later. During the day we had company, visited my parents, texting my friend back and forth that I had seen on Friday. However during the morning I started thinking about how everything played out with the Christmas gifts for this family and how God had orchestrated everything. From the message to me, to asking for help, stating that He will provide, to the phone call from Kem having toys, phone call to the mom, Judy and I both running behind on Friday, then on way to get gas got the text message needing bags, therefore going to the Dollar General before getting gas, saw my dear friend, was given money for gas, wish list filled plus much more, then a word for the mom from God! Priceless!!

It hit me that He loved me so much and trusted me that He gave me this assignment! I may not have been financially able to help this family but God chose to use me to be His voice, hands & feet. Giving of my love, myself, and my time I started to see that I was much more valuable than any monetary gift I could ever give.

But God wasn’t finished! When I visited my parents and my Daddy gave me an envelope which was dropped off for me earlier. Daddy didn’t know who it was as he only told him that he was my friend. When I opened it there was money and a sweet note, I knew right then who it had to be after reading the note. Anyway, after I returned home and awaiting for my cousin, I discover that her 5 year old granddaughter is on the way from South Carolina with no Christmas items for Christmas morning. Traffic held her dad up and stores were closing before he could get here. Immediately, I decide I’m going to use the money I received earlier to make sure Kemmie has Christmas. My friend in our texting, I told him what was going on and immediately he insisted on helping. I said I was going to use my secret santa money and he told me to stop by his moms when I was out. After handing me an envelope; inside was a card containing the same amount I had received before. God is good and rewards us for giving with the right heart!

This morning (Christmas Day) as I go out to let Samantha open her gifts I see my stocking and two extra large Christmas bags. Within both of those bags were very expensive handbags that were purchased by members (not knowing the other had purchased one already) of a special family wanting to make sure that I received a new and nice handbag. You see I have never had a new purse, always used ones and they knew this as one of them overheard me say this in a conversation one day. I was really stunned and felt really guilty as I didn’t have anything for them.

But while getting ready to meet my family for Christmas, God spoke to me. And I started to cry because God was telling me that the two expensive purses are meant to show me that I am more valuable than I have ever realized. And that I deserve much more in life than money can buy. Happiness doesn’t come from materialistic items but from the heart. But I am to never put myself on the clearance rack ever again. He has so much in store for my future.

The Christmas miracles that took place over the past few days were eye-opening and amazing. It was very humbling that God chose a nobody like me to be the voice, the hands and the feet to minister into the lives of these families. And in the process of all this I have regained a long time friend who is now living and serving God.

My poorest Christmas became my richest Christmas because I learned that Christmas is about Love from the Heart! The best gifts are those given from the heart and God gave to us from His heart!

It’s awesome to be the daughter of the King! I Love my Father and so thankful that He never gave up on me!

This has been the best Christmas ever!

God Loves You and So Do I!

See you next week!


Justification of Sin-A Spiritual Death

20160917_202052-1-1When I ended last week I promised to continue and tell you about the next chapter in my life. However, the Holy Spirit has prompted me to share a more recent story. One that I had hoped I would not have to share! With this being said I still must state again before you give your heart away; make sure he or she is deserving of it and will treasure it. The best way to know this is if he or she is leading you closer to God! Someone out there needs to hear this story before it’s too late.

As I write this just know that it is very hard to do as I am still in the healing process! But God heals the broken-hearted and I know His plan for me is  amazing!

As you now know from past post I have struggled all  my life with sexual sin. I wanted someone to love me so badly that I mistook attention as love. The reality was most of the time I was just being used. But what I want to share today is about the past 4 years and how even a seasoned Christian can be deceived by satan. We make excuses and justify our actions and believe it to be true but in reality its not…’s  a spiritual battle that ends in spiritual death and  sometimes even physical death. Praise God for He rescued me!

From 2005 until 2010 I was married and never thought about seeing anyone else. I was working on my relationship with Christ after giving my life to Him in 2008. Still dealing with a lot of things physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. But in 2010 my last ex-husband and I separated, then in 2013  I was divorced for the third time. And at this time I  had started seeing someone. But you see I wasn’t being the Christian that I so wanted to think and wanted the world to think I was.  I had fallen for worldly desires to fulfill the desires of the flesh.  Once again I was back to my old habits and living a life unpleasing to God! This relationship last only a few months.

We overcome by the blood of the Lamb and the word of our testimony! So here goes!!!

When this relationship ended, I found an old friend that I had know since a teen and we started dating. He went to church with me but he had no relationship with Christ. We actually got engaged but my life wasn’t where it needed to be as I was not getting closer to God, I was actually drifting away. I no longer had peace or joy within. Then with that $9,000 diamond sitting on my finger; Pastor preached a message and stated everything that glitters ain’t gold! Whew, that hit me like a ton of bricks! I knew that  my life was not pleasing to God. Fornication is not right! We can not live anyway that we want, we are to live Holy unto God! So I gave him back his ring and broke off the relationship.

Well a year later I joined a dating site and once again I ran across an old friend. He and I had actually hooked up many years ago in the past. We hit if off but then once again; I let my guard down and I was back in the same old mess.  Why couldn’t I keep myself pure and Holy unto God!! Another one bites the dust!

Each time I began to see someone, I always say I will keep myself pure and will help lead them to God. However, in reality what happened is I gave in to fornication and wasn’t leading them anywhere near God. The only movement was me moving away from God and totally destroying my walk and my witness for Christ.

I became more involved in street ministry with my friends  and with the FCA as my walk with God became strong again. But I have discovered that satan doesn’t like us living the right way and wants nothing more than to destroy us, even to the point of physical death.

Wanting my life right with God is so important to me! And being a Christian since 2008 I have had my share of ups and downs and disappoints within myself. I am not perfect and I miss the mark more than I care too! But I know God is real and I know what He has healed and delivered me from. Now it’s time to give this to Him because I am not taking this into 2017 with me!

Before I tell this, I want you to know that it is not ok to live together out-of-wedlock! It’s a spiritual battle and the caving to the desires of the flesh cause spiritual death and can cause physical death.

Last year I was to marry the guy that I was dating during my last divorce. You see our first date was the night after the blue moon and we said we were going to get married on the next blue moon. Not hearing from him in almost 2 years, out of the blue he messaged me on Facebook. This was about the same time we had said we would marry. We started dating again and after a few months we drifted apart for about a month. Once we decided to see each other again we took a trip. It was fun being together but was the start of a Spiritual death for me.

We started talking about marriage and trying to decide on a date. But we wanted a special moon or something. As we discussed this we also talked about him moving in with me and we actually looked at other houses. However, we decided it would be best to stay here and get a loan to pay of my home and some others debts. The plan was to move in after marriage.

My love for him was deep but I was in a spiritual battle. I allowed him to start staying nights and gradually he moved in. He had no relationship with Christ but attended church with me on occasion and I could see God was dealing with him. Unfortunately, he desired no relationship with Christ and I certainly wasn’t living as a good example. I justified premarital sex and him living with me because we were gonna get married. But this was so wrong! I couldn’t lead him to God by allowing unGodly things in our lives!

The battle was on full force – Good versus evil! I had fallen so far away from God that I didn’t think I could ever get back to Him! Over a period of months I could feel that my hope, joy and peace were gone! We didn’t discuss marriage anymore and we argued over stupid stuff. I wasn’t a good example for my daughter or anyone else and I most definitely could not give a testimony or be a witness to my FCA group.

In the spring, God used a sister at church to let me know that He loved me and had not forgotten me! That morning at the altar I asked God to help me, to give me a sign of hope because I was not wanting to live anymore. He used her to save my life that day!

Satan had clouded my view and deceived me into thinking that things I had been doing were ok. I was justifying my actions by the word but it was a distorted version, as I could not see clearly. We can win souls to Christ with love but not with lust!

My climb back to God was tough as I faced many giants along the way. I didn’t know how to straighten out the mess I was in. I then asked God for the courage of David to have the strength do the right thing. But satan attacked me even harder to the point I physically wanted to die even more so than before! I cried and cried and cried as I prayed for God to deliver me from the pain I was in. My choices got me where I was and unfortunately I wanted to die if this was how I was going to have to live!

We broke up, he moved out and I have since rededicated my life to God and serving Him!

Jesus came to save us from sin and the penalty of sin! He paid the price but we can not live anyway we want!

1 Thessalonians 4:3-7 {For this is the will of God, your santification: that you should abstain from sexual immorality; that each of you should know how to possess his own vessel in santification and honor, not in passion of lust, like the Gentiles who do not know God; that no one should take advantage of and defraud his brother in this matter, because the Lord is the avenger of all such, as we also forewarned you and testified. For God did not call us to uncleanness, but in holiness.}

1 Corinthians 6:18-20 {Flee sexual immorality. Every sin that man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own? For you were bought at a price; therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God’s.}

1 Corinthians 7:1-2 {Now concerning the things of which you wrote to me: It is good for a man not to touch a woman. Nevertheless, because of sexual immorality, let each man have his own wife, and let each woman have her own husband.}

If you have accepted God in your life and have a personal relationship with Him; never think its ok to be sexually active or live together out of wedlock. This is spiritual death waiting to happen! I loved this man very much and satan knew it; therefore it was used to try to take me out! But if I had never of given in to the desires of the flesh, then perhaps he would be living for God and we would still be together today!

Never justify the wrong things. If it’s not leading you to God then it’s not right! I learned the hard way again as I stopped going to praise dance, intercessory prayer, etc. So you see even seasoned Christians fall off the wagon but Praise God I am back on it! Pray for me as I continue my walk with God and being a voice for Him!

God Loves You & So Do I!

Merry Christmas To You!! Much Love!

See you next week as we pick up from last weeks post.


Honor and Provision

20161203_192040-1For almost 11 weeks now I have written once a week and posted in this blog. What you don’t know is that when God started speaking to me about this blog, I told Him he would have to definitely make a way!

You see the blog cost, I have no internet or cable service, nor do I have Wi-Fi. I am a single mom, my AC unit broke a few months ago with an expensive repair bill and I had two expensive electric bills of $300 each back to back, due to the AC issue. All of this wiping out my checking and savings accounts! There was no way possible that I could afford to do this blog! But God!!!!

I told God to let me know what I was to do, that I needed a sign. I just couldn’t see taking my last bit of money to put the details of my ugly life out for the world to see; especially when I needed the money to use elsewhere. But in church that Sunday morning, Pastor Jim preached a message about “Living a Blessed Life – Overcoming Mammon”. Oh this spoke right to me!

You see I learned that day that I am to give and sow into others for God. And I am to stretch and share around the world and start serving where I can and trust Him! I can’t fulfill my destiny or call when I am loyal to Mammon. I must be a good stewart of finances and if I honor God where I am, He will bring promotion.

After hearing this message I knew without a shadow of doubt what I was to do. I came home, used my phone internet to pay for the blog. I had no clue how to set it up or where to even begin. I was completely lost! I tried to figure it out with no luck. So the next day during my lunch break I called the help desk. They said I was good to go but I still couldn’t see my website. I tried for a couple of days and got discouraged. But God woke me at 3:00 am on the third day and said now try. I told Him, it will not work that I had tried several times, He said I told you to try it now! Guess what!! I got up, signed into the site and things flowed perfectly and I issued my first sample post! Oh my goodness, I was beyond excited! After the blog was set up by using my cell phone; out of nowhere I was now able to connect to Wi-Fi with my tablet and with my daughters laptop. And I still continue to be able to connect to God’s Wi-Fi when I write for Him! Praise God!

God provides, we just need to trust Him and be obedient. He not only provides but gives us the desires of our heart. You see I have always wanted to see New York City, especially at Christmas time. And guess what?!!! He provided a way and just last weekend I was walking the streets of the big city. He is good!

All this should not be possible but with God the impossible is possible! Trust me, satan is fighting but so am I !

My life isn’t perfect and no I don’t have all the finer things in life;  but I am full of joy, peace and love. That my friends is better than all of the gold in this world! The joy of the Lord is my strength…..In Him I Trust!

I know my future is going to be absolutely amazing as I remain obedient to God!  Send me Father, I will go! I can hardly wait to travel for God with my Boaz……#speakingintoexistence

Matthew 6:24 -No one can serve two masters; for either he will hate the one and love the other, or else he will be loyal to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve Gid and mammon.

Luke 16:9-13 – And I say to you, make friends for yourselves by unrighteous mammon, that when you fail, they may receive you into an everlasting home. He who is faithful in what is least is faithful also in much; and he who is unjust in what is least is unjust also in much. Therefore if you have not been faithful in the unrighteous mammon, who will commit to your trust the true riches? And if you have not been faithful in what is another man’s , who will give you what is your own? “No servant can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other, or else he will be loyal to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and mammon.”

1 Timothy 6:10 – For the love of money is the root of all kinds of evil, for which some have strayed from the faith in their greediness, and pierced themselves through with money sorrows.

Colossians 3:23 – And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not to men

1 Corinthians 4:1-2 – Let a man so consider us, as servants of Christ and stewarts of the mysteries of God. Moreover it is required in stewards that one be found faithful.

Matthew 5:8 – Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.

Titus 2:7 – in all things showing yourself to be a pattern of good works; in doctrine showing integrity, reverence, incorruptibility

God Loves You and I Love You!

Much love to you all… peace & joy be with you

Our Choices – Not Only Our Destiny But The Destiny of Others

Last week I shared a very personal and private part of my life; I have become transparent for Christ through the Holy Spirit. Next week I will continue with the story of my destructive pattern in my life of disobedience and running from God.

When I ended last week I said we have a choice every day and those choices determine the outcome of our life and our destiny. God has reminded me of so many things this week. Not only do our choices affect our destiny but those around us. My life has not only affected me but the life of many around me.

In Facebook this week a memory from November 17, 2013 appeared in which I had written: “Hello my Facebook family! I love each of you but know God Loves you more! I am so thankful that I am not who I use to be! I have a testimony that you could never dream of & I’m believing God that it will be used for His Glory! God I’m yours use me where & when you want..I am a willing vessel.. take me all over the world if you want.. lead me to those that need to hear of your goodness & mercy and how you can change their lives! Amen! Praise God I am Redeemed…He set me free!”

I am totally blown away as the words I wrote three years ago are coming to pass. This blog is viewable everywhere in the world. And not only have I been contacted after the blog post last Sunday; but one of my dear friends was contacted by several about the post after she shared it. In a telephone conversation with my friend she commented that I should have contact info ready for those that may need it urgently; that this may become larger than I think.

While sitting in Bojangles on Tuesday night, it was like a light bulb went off! God let me know that the vision He gave me in 2008 was beginning to be birth through my obedience to Him. I had wondered since He put that dream in my heart how it was going to happen. Now I know; well at least how it is going to begin. Then He showed me Thursday morning that my Boaz and I play a huge role in this vision (dream of the heart impregnated by God). I am beyond excited for what’s in store for the future! But there is a price to pay for these dreams to come to pass.

This past week has been one of difficulty for me as emotions and memories good and bad have surfaced. Satan knows our weaknesses and he will use those to destroy us and he begins working in our mind, as this is where our battles begin.

God knows what we need and when we need it! Just this weekend I was blessed by being one of the leaders within the Fellowship of Christian Athletes (FCA) Fall Beach Retreat Weekend with the Duplin County chapter. Our theme this weekend was The Armor of God. How perfect was this for me at this time.

You see last week as God was showing me the future, satan was trying his best to take me back to Egypt. The battles get hard and we have to choose daily to suit up in the armor. Satan will try to fill you with self-doubt and tell you that you aren’t worthy of the promises of God that all you deserve was in your past. The all familiar and the biggest struggle to let go of is the very thing satan uses to destroy us and put us back in Egypt.

If I don’t armor up every day and protect myself against satan then my future, my destiny and the futute and destiny of many will be destroyed. He used this weekend to remind me why it’s so important to put on the armor daily. The future of these kids and many others depend on my obedience and willingness to armor up. My free will; my choices have an impact on these kids destiny. If I sit idly by and do nothing for God; these kids may end up walking the path of destruction like I have; therefore destroying their life and the lives of their future generations. I refuse to sit back anymore and do nothing!

This weekend God impressed upon the heart of my dear friend to ask me to help baptize the girls. I was ecstatic! God used this to show me that He loves me and that I am His and I am worthy of everything He has planned for me!

Ephesians 6:10-18

The belt of truth

The breastplate of righteousness

The shoes of peace

The shield of faith

The helmet of salvation

The sword of the spirit. This is the only offensive weapon we have in these spiritual battles.

Genesis 37: 5-10

Acts 16: 9-15

We are in a battle daily but it is not against a person; it is a spititual battle between good and evil.  My life story when I pick it back up next Sunday will give you many examples of this. As I close for tonight, know that God loves you and that I love you! You are more precious than you think!

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